alrights. the usual symptom of boredom.

here goes..

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*Okay this is called 50 FIRST
REACTIONS... type what comes to your
mind first whenever you hear these 50
words. Don't think and don't go back
and change. Doesn't matter how random
just type it! Repost it for all of your
friends.


1. Beer:
drink

2. Food:
eat

3. Relationships:
stay away

4. Your CRUSH:
who?

5. Power Rangers:
brother

6. Life:
nice

9. The President:
geisha

10. Yummy:
food

11. Cars:
lamborghini and maggie q

12. Movie:
harry potterrrrrrrrrrrr

13. Halloween:
31st oct

15. Religion:
what?

16. Myspace:
nah

17. Fear:
fearless

18. marriage:
what??

19. Blondes:
bimbos. haaa

20. SLIPPERS:
i want a pair

21. SHOES:
i want many more pairs

22. Asians:
me?

23. Pass time:
bored

24. One night stands:
dowan

25. Cell Phone:
my good fren

27. Smoke:
yucks.

28. Fantasy:
fantasize~

29. COLLEGE:
sajc

30. Highschool Life:
beauty sch dropout~ no graduation day for youuuuuuuuuuuu

31. Pyjamas:
nah

32. stars:
:)

33. Fitness Center:
saints fitness

34. Alcohol:
i'm a nice girl (:

37. Money:
donate to me

38. Heartache:
whatever

39. Time:
too much of it now

40. Divorce:
bbbbwah

41. Dogs:
cooool. i want a golden retriever

42. Undies:
bras

43. Parents:
mum n dad

44. Babies:
awwwwwwwwwwww. nice to play with, not nice to have one.

45. Stripper:
bachelor party

46. Blogs:
this blog.

47. News:
not interested

48. Weddings:
awwwwwwwwwwww. that is if i know the ppl.

49. Pizza:
uh huh.

50. Kleenex:
for crying.

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still bored. c'est ennuyeux

swam with mabbie in the morning! wahaha~ taught her frogstyle (breaststroke?). so funnyyyy~ yayy :)

had tuition in the afternoon.. was good today~ yayyy! :)

found out my French results at night. got a whooping A-! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! ^^ damn happy~ i'm glad i studied! nyahahaaa~

on to level 2! (:

some stupid camp tmr evening to sunday morning.. so wun be able to blog. hahaaa. i wonder how moji's feeling about that..

lalalaa~

happy!

huiting is happy! ... around mabbie bertie ada and mahjong! (:

i love you guys -hugs-

***

and i love gungun too! may you be happy! and may i be happy too! -hugs-

yes, we'll all be happy ultimately! :)

went to the 爱琴海民歌餐厅 @ MS! was fantasticccccccccccccccc!!! (:

always walking past it since ages ago, but didn't step in before until ytd nite. was simply.....GREAT!!! :) the singers are super gooooood! and we didn't feel like eating so just ordered drinks and sat there to listen for like 2 hours..and it was so so so SO GOOOOOOOOOD!!! heh.. and the concoctions were fantastic too!! hehee.. and i think i'm in love with the pianist....she plays SO WELL. omggggggggggggg. haha okayyy and the rest of them sings FANTASTICALLY. wooooooooohoooooooooooooooo!! *thumbs up!*

ppl pls try going there one day! it's highly recommended!! hahahaa~ it's not cheap la.. but not that ex either.. hahaa. they charge by per head entry, and each entry gets a drink..then if you want any other food then pay extra accordingly lor. but considering the entertainment they provide, i think it's good value for money! =)

but but BUT.. pls don't go there alone after you just fall out of love.. i think you'll walk out of the place crying non-stop.. hahahahaaaa. if you don't understand, go yourself and you'll get wad i mean. hahahaaa

happy happy happyyyyyyyy~

:)

bbbbwah! i'm bored.

hahahaa..

had belated dad's bdae/father's day dinner ytd.. hahaa~ ate at Din Tai Fung. was blah. nothing much la.. hahaa. tasted the same as before (duh?), nice but no WOOOOO! feeling. hahahaaa. finally had my xiao long bao. but also don't have the WOOOOOOOOO! feeling. haha i wonder why. hmmmm. i still prefer Crystal Jade!! heheee..

walked around a bit with mum after that. bleahs. don't really like to shop with mum.. as in i'm okay with walking around with her, but not shopping. coz you know how we usually tk forever to slowly walk around and shop? but she just walks into the shop, flip the clothes casually, and then i'm still just starting to look, and she goes "eah nothing here la. you finish looking anot? got anything u like? faster go le leh..go next shop le la" then i said "wait la wait la." and i turned my head and she's no longer in the shop anymore. -_-''' *pengz* how to shop lidat!!

haha and i forgot there was Princess Diaries on ch5 ytd nite until a fren reminded me!! hahaaa~ so i missed the front part of it. but i watched before le la actually.. -_-''' hahahaha~ dots. but still, it was very niceeeeeeeeeee!!! ^^

lalalaa~

yayyy! i can finally get out of the hse tmr!
yayyy! i got homemade rojak to eat later!

oh the gio bottoms i bot tt day with mab? i went to change the size ytd, coz i tot it looked super loose and not nice. then i couldn't find my size.. so i changed it to my mum's size (which is the smallest size) for her so that won't waste. and to my horror, it's still hanging super loose from her waist! omg. i can just *faint*. she's so skinny! and then to my utmost disgust, i can actually fit into the bottoms. *faints again* okay, maybe the cut is big. but still, i feel so tiny! and i don't understand whyyyyyy. coz i dun tink i look skinny at all. (-gungun nods-) hahahaaa~

-sighs-

i dowan so tiny. it's so scary. but i dowan eat anymore, coz i don't look tiny. but i want eat somemore, coz i love to eat. hahaha wad am i talking about?

alrites. i'm bored.

bored bored bored.

we are healthy ppl - mabbie and i. ^^ hahahaa. we went to the gym today! GREAT!! hehee.. since grad, have not stepped into the gym le. then so excited to see all the familiar AND alien looking equipments again. hahahahaa. okay la. wasn't a very thorough workout though. and i became scared of the threadmill. i wonder why. the threadmill used to be my favourite machine in the gym. now i actually fear it. hahaa weird isn't it?

okayy. then met with ada n mabbie to go for the concert at nite. blah. let's not talk abt it. hmmmm.

had fun today (:

and feel so proud of myself for being abnormally healthy. i exercised 3 times this wk!! WAHAHHAA. can't even rmb the last time i did that w/o being forced to. -nyahahaaa-


is it real or is it just a fantasy?

oh oh! went autism thingy today. stoned for quite long while they were having music lessons. coz there's nothing we could help with. so xian ros hoon me sat there and chatted quite long. hehee ;p oh oh did t-shirt painting with them after that. hahaa. nothing much i guess.. a lil' boring la.. but the kids came up with really nice paintings though! ^^ hehee.. and we just stone there and help them mix paint and stuff ba.. hahahaa. and got this kid SUPER talented..anything also can draw!! hahahaa~ and all the teachers ask him help them draw. lols. so cooool~ (:

then had lunch with the 3 of them after that.. niceeeee! ^^

hehee..

and met mabbie to swim after that! YAY. so happyyyyyyyyyy ^^ finally get to swim! heh..so long nv swim le! and whose fault is that?! :p hehee.. oh saw huimin! hehee.. i think i really quite pajiao.. lols. oh and saw these two guys stoning there oggling at girls, but acting totally gay -_-''' but i think they must have thought we looked like les too! HAHA. good wad~ lalalaaaaaa

oh we shopped again. cheap deal. hahahahaaa. those must dig the mountain for your size de. and we dug for like...20min? and abt to give up liao..and finally found mabbie's size. and we were SO excited that we squealed. and ppl turned to look. argh! -_-''' wahahhahaaa. felt so silly and embarrassed! machiam aunty lidat. muahahhaaaa. but heyyyy! it was funnn! heheee~ :p

okayyyy. i shall look for a job, i promise. i must stop spending! =X

just finished watching this jap serial, Anego! courtesy of Beavan Chua Gun Gun, who introduced it to me! hahaaa~

it's really really nice. and the feeling of watching jap serials again is like...WHOO!! ^^ there used to be a period of time (in my sec sch days i think), when i was in love with jap serials. haha. and someone told me before it's coz jap serials usually have happy endings, so many ppl love to watch them - as a means of escaping from reality, coz u'll never have such happy endings in real life. how true! but apparently i'm the only one still stuck in fairyland, coz everyone else watches KOREAN serials now. hahahaaa. they got reality-struck - yes, everything in life ends with either terminal illness or death. HAHAHA. okay, i sound so mean. yet don't you think it's quite true? hmmmmm!

yeap. watching Anego isn't totally airy-fairy or brainless or just to make myself happy by escaping from reality. it got me thinking instead. it's just so so SO true, everything they show.

it's really happening
- all about guys wanting to play and not wanting to get married
- guys, regardless of age, nationality, religion, race, etc... all want to play with and bed as many girls as possible.
- yes, even married men.
- when 2 have an affair, the guy gets away scott-free, and the woman gets called slutty, shameless and has to take the blame of breaking up others' marriage.
- men can keep putting off marriage to play their youth away..they are said to age with grace(ah! devt psych!) anyway; women, on the hand, lose their charm once they hit 30..they have no time and are not allowed by the society to play..and if they don't get married before 40, they expire.

yes, this is a very feminist entry i guess. hahaaa. can you detect the angsty-ness?! i hate guys for today. lols.. no la, actually i don't. i just....hmmmmm! don't like having reality shoved rudely into my face? aha. yes, i've known all these facts for ages, but watching the show only threw me offguard about how true it is.

and i kind of got reminded of what a guy told me before - guys will never treasure the girl beside them, until they've lost the girl. even if they are given a second chance again afer that, they'll still repeat the same thing and still not treasure the girl.

yes, nothing's gonna change you whole bunch of irritating barbaric guys. yes it's bcoz of guys like you that make girls like us terrified of marriage and start postponing the social age (haha is that the correct term used by Santrock?) for marriage.

ha. okay, i think i sound like the barbaric one now. apologies! just ranting.. hehee.

***

went out with mabbie cabbie today! (: bought wad i needed. hahaaa. happyyyy~ *beams*

and mabbie finally bought wad she promised me to buy 3 years ago. hahahaaaa. the stupid gal. FINALLY it's happening! ;p

and we met GAIGAI!!! ^^ happy! hehee..

i really wanna meet up with the dans.. miss all of them so much. miss talking to them tooooooooo! bbbwah! hopefully everyone will be free in late july to meet up!! -hugs all the dans-

(:

heh. i'm HUNGRY -.-''' greedy greedy pig. -nyahahaa-

was a trashy day. c'est nul! bbbwah.

burnt a lot of calories i think. did a lot of housework and jogged a bit. and nearly blew off my top during tuition. felt so lousyyyy. hai~ i really wish i could be a better teacher. but sometimes i really feel so exasperated. and there's the situational factors too. it's really hard. sigh~ and more crap was awaiting me at home. great.

okay, i'm not upset to the extent that i wanna cry yet. but i'm just tired i guess. a lil' stressed out. which annoys me coz it's not even sch term and i'm getting stressed. -_-'''

huiting must brace yourself to face the world bravely!! hahahahaa~ self-motivational entry!

AND I MISS THE GUYS OUT IN THE JUNGLE NOW WITH THE GORRILLAS!!! -_-'''

alrightsss. dun you think my moji's of a weird colour? hahahaa! okay, at least the poor little thing's finally happy and no longer has to go *kaboom* and disappear (as aptly described by miss xianxian).

hahaha~

yayyyyy! went for SAAC outing todayy! met the kids @ ECP for sandcastle-building!!! =D hahahaa. all i can say is.. it was SUPER FUN!!!!...and super hard work! hahahaaa~ kua zhang can.. i have never imagined sandcastles to be THIS hard work! and guess wad? if you think we were building silly-looking crumbling sandcastles, you are wrong.









check those out. it's ALL built by us and the kids okayyy! zai ba? hurhurhur-. i was super impressed by outselves too! wahahhaa~ i tell you, nowadays sandcastle-building is so complicated!! hahahaa~ they actually have so high-tech tools! like, 10yrs back we were using pails and scoops. now they got nifty cute little tools that work the pathetic lump of sand into magnificent structures! awesome, isn't it? for awhile, all of us volunteers were transformed into kids and stood there awestruck too as they explained to us how to use the tools! hahahaa~

and guess what else? if you go at the correct timing during wkends, they actually have this Castle Beach open, which is a shop that sells those wicked equipment (at a wicked price of $38..) and they even have sandcastle-building workshops! now, isn't that awesome?! =O hahahaa~ i was seriously so wow-ed by everything today! ^^





look at that! it's those pro ppl built de.. those working there de i think.. and i heard it's already been there for MORE THAN A YEAR. O_O i wonder how it even braved the stormy winds and rains. hahaha~ prob they sprayed something on it to preserved them ba.. hahaa. but very nice ba? esp. the first one! still can see the sea view! -.-''' hahaha okay, i know that's not the point, but as i was uploading the photos i just realised i took the sea view along with it. hahahaa~

and then, when the kids came, we had uber fun with them as well! hehee~ BUT.. they were more like destructing wad we built. hahahaa~ so funny.. no la.. they did help la. just that they gt so excited seeing those nice magnificent structures that they couldn't resist stepping/kicking them. . . . . . hahahaaa! super cute~

and then there were the other families staying at the chalet, who bought their kids to the beach to play too.. and they all stopped to look at our sandcastles!! ^^ hahaa and apparently they were as awed as ourselves. lols.. so niceeeeee~

and one of the boys were so cute.. he goes around calling all of us "chairchair!chairchair!" (translation = jiejie). hahahahaa~ then he would just pull us and point at something, but we don't really understands what he wants either. hahaa. but he's just so cute. xianxian, you know him too! from Hebron~ hahahaa. so adorable~ and he's the "here-i-come-watch-out-i'm-gonna-destroy-yur-sandcastles" boy. then we had 2 sandcastles construction-in-progress at the same time. then we keep sabo-ing each other, tell him the other team's sandcastle nicer...coz he apparently gets excited by pretty sandcastles (so excited that he destroys them after finish clapping~). hahahahaa. all i could say is.. today was ABSOLUTELY FUN!!! (: xianxiannnnn~ pls get well fast and come back on thurs!! i missed u! heheee..

ooh and the volunteers were cool too :) hahahaa.. had fun working with them and eating together all that after that.. kinda sad when xl mentioned that after all of this wk's outings, we wun be seeing so much of each other anymore. hmmms! coz splitted into our individual groups liao ma.. and some of us different days also le.. hmmmm. ): but nvm, hopefully we get to see each other around in the centre! :) hehee.. nv imagined everything to work out so nicely.. i'm really enjoying myself and learning alot now! happy happyyyy~ ^^

okay, i blogged such a long post about saac! heee~

am finally back from malaysia.

yes, was there for some non-play reason. if you know, you know. if you duno, you don't have to know. hahaha~

albeit the wadever reason i was there (for one day only), the break did worked a little charm on me! (: feeling better than when i set off. though i must admit i virtually rotted over there.. hahaha~

and i have lots to sayy.. though not exactly regarding the trip. but yea.. hahahhaa~

firstly, we met on friday nite @ vivo to compile and prepare my darling bobo's bdae pressie! ^^ hahahaa she shld be grateful lor. we find the box find until wanna die. cldn't find any PURPLE box! lols~ then we so ke lian sit at the rooftop there eating hotdog and fries and making your pressie. and still sit there until kena CHECK IC BY POLICEMEN!! hahahahaaa~ first time in my entire life i kena checked by policeman lor! LOLS. and poor julyn even almost got her name taken down lor!! wahahaha~ but the end-product was pretty i must say! especially with the sorry attempt by 4 poor little girls to make the roses! lols..(sorry, no photos with me now! get from jul!) hahaa~ and i'm glad you love your pressies! (: and i'm still sorry i can't attend ur party! so much wanted to join in the fun :( nvm nvm~ nxt time! hehee. HAPPY 21ST MY BELOVED YAMMIE!!! ^^ join the scandalous club!

okayyy. wad else? yes, i need to mk a trip down to L*S**** to get wadever was stolen. rawrrrrrrs!

hahaaa. okay, hopefully i sound more cheerful now. if i get any grumpier, moji's gonna get a chair out or something and smash it into smithereens. lols!

i am so damn irritated now. stuff got stolen. pissed.

and i dun understand why mum just likes to rub it in.

and i hafta wake up early again tmr morning.

okay. what with the stuff i'm blogging, moji's gonna look angry again -.-'''

bbbbwah!

why can't things be a lil' smoother?

sheeesh!

and i didn't know the hall charity camp was a publications job. tot it was a mentor type of thing go there play with them. but now i hafta go there take video write article. bbbwah. they better gimme a room for that. cheat my feelings.

-grrrr-

i'm sorry i sound so moody. but i just HAVE to sound moody. i AM indeed very pissed now.

okayyyyy. just added the mojikan thingy for fun. i also duno wad is it for. just heard that it'll read your blog and act accordingly to how you feel in your entry. hahahaa~ still duno if it works. it's supposed to read your blog twice a day. but i dun tink it has started reading mine yet, coz it's still sleeping!! -_-'''

haha alrites. i think it's just me being troublesome.. coz all the modules i thinking of taking clashes with the tut timings xian they'all wanna take! :( so siannnnnn~ even if i change maths to something else, it STILL clashes!! :((

bbbbwah! am so tired now. been out half the day wasting my time. haha i'm not saying tuition was a waste of time, i'm saying travelling from pasir ris to yewtee, from yewtee to bedok, and from bedok back to pasir ris IS a waste of time! hahahaa~

okay, i shan't be too pessimistic. i don't want my poor little mojikan to be sad on his first day of work. hahahahaa~ how come cannot feed it de ar? so boring! virtual pets still can play with it. this one just sleeps and sleeps! -.-

and i SO wanna go out with the dans. bbbbwah!

and i'm so sleepy now thanks to the less than 4 hours of slp i had. okay, i think my mojikan will continue sleeping after reading this sentence! -.-

hahahaa~ alrites. ppl pls email each other all your index no.s! hahahaa~ then we can arrange same tuts! yayyyy~ actually it's me being ma fan la~ coz it's my timings all clash until luan. hahahahaa

shall rest for now. enough of staring at the pc for now. i'm gonna go blind if i continue at this rate. bbbbwah! mojikan pls be nice, and be doing something cute when i next come back and see you. pls STOP SLEEPING!!! -_-'''

hahahaaa~

this is mad, this is sad. i can't get to slp!! and i can't bring myself to get out of the room to on the router either, so i'm typing this into notepad @ 2.40am.

okay french was baffling. the first section was comprehension. and as i started reading it, i was so stunned that i flipped to the cover page again to make sure i WASN'T SITTING FOR LEVEL 2. omggg. i was so seriously freaked out. don't even understand a single word! and so i had to read and reread like more than 5 times before i get a brief idea of what it was talking about. -_-'''

and then it wasn't enough.

flip the page and.... ta-dah!! you're looking at the MAP OF FRANCE. and i was like, uh-oh. i failed geography in secondary school.
ARGH!
and when i was doing past-year paper in the library with steph, she still showed me the page of the tb with the map, when i asked her got what region is in south de. then i still said sth like, "wah, ask this type of qn, i might as well memorise the whole map"
and i freaking DIDN'T memorise.

and so the FORTEEN blanks on the map of France glared back at me angrily.

so much so for looking down on the seemingly unimportant stuff.

i hope i don't have to memorise Freud's biography next sem.

ha.

went to Botak Jones after that. uhhhhh.. i find it over-rated. hahahaa~ but i think the service was very very good. although it's very slow la. hahaa. but just choose the right time to go, and it'll be alright!! (: and so we sat around and talk more crap for almost 2hours after talking a substantial amount of crap already over dinner. and topics ranged from next sem modules and timetables, to lame loudhailers&showercaps, to hk dramas and actors/actresses (shhessssh! i almost forget how to spell that in ENGLISH.) hahahaaa~ was funnyyyy.

and guess what darling shixian bought back from U.S. for us. ROOT-BEER FLAVOURED LIP BALM. hahahahaaaa! damn funny~ and it smells literally like root beer! okay, we shall start eating lip balm during lectures if we don't get to eat lunch.. julyn will be super happy..a change from sandwiches!! hahahaa~

and yes, the timetable for next sem is out. was trying to plan it after i came home. so much so for the 3-day-week excitement invoked by meimei and bobo. all my electives fall on the other 2 days. hurhurhur. i wanna murder the person who planned the timetable and the exam schedule. first, he/she make me wake up for a 8.30AM maths tut. then he/she make me stay until 6PM on a FRIDAY EVENING for french. so, tell me. which other loser ever stays in school on a FRIDAY EVENING!!! -CRIES&WHINES- wth! and no, it isn't enough. now i've got 4 papers across a period of 4 days, 2 of which are on the same day, and 3 of which are my CORES. -WHINES SOMEMORE- and if i don't get my first choice, i'm gonna sit for 5 papers in 5 days. so tell me, am i back in primary school?! -ULTIMATE WHINES&CRIES-

-pouts-.

and i wanna volunteer @ CCF. but it's gonna be bad for my schedule. coz i already have SAAC, and if i take up another weekday volunteering, i'm gonna fail all my papers next sem. which i just swore a few days ago never to let it happen. bbbwah! i so badly wanna give it a try! :( the IMH's one on Saturday.. but i really prefer the CCF one. maybe i should take up the IMH one for the time being until....godknowswhen.

sighhhh~

i hope the coffee's worn off by now. coz i have a tuition at yewtee @ 10am. which means i hafta wake up in 4 hours' time.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

taking a break from all that french.

aha.

a long break this is churning up to though.

heh.

happy happy happy! (:

oh yea. went to MP to study with boophie ytd! haha~ exploited the community centre's study room (was actually meant for some Study Club members only -.-)! cooool~ had nice nice dinner then walked back to the library and finally found seats there! nyahahaa~ so nice being a full-time mugger again~ HAHA. and i looked as kua zhang as usual, displaying all my books and papers all around me! and worse thing is i bring so many things le still borrowing more things from boophie! MWAHAHA. i think if xian was around she sure laugh at me! -blush-

alrites.

looking forward to..
- french exam. (end of it actually -.-)
- botak jones!
- friday's secret mission
- all the autism outings coming up next wk! WOOHOO! (:
- more time for play!
- all the happiness, laughter, joy, xingfu-ness! ^^

just realised my life has been quite meaningful these hols. there's study and play and shop and volunteer! nyahahaaa~ and of coz, not forgetting........... !!! heh! ^^

i wanna be this happy forever and ever! :)

i think many of us have heard something like this before -

when someone hurts you or make you unhappy, write it on sand, so that it may be easily washed away and forgotten.
when someone helps you or make you happy, carve it on stone, so that you would remember it for life.


i used to think this should indeed be the way things work.
but now i realise it isn't always that airy-fairy.


when the someone who hurt you or made you unhappy is someone whom you love or care for, you tend to forgive the person easily and forget about everything, coz you cherish the person and dowan to believe that the person will hurt you;
when the someone who helped you or made you happy is someone whom you love or care for, you tend to remember the person's good just as easily, coz it alliases with the nice expectations you have of that person.

on the contrary,
when the someone who hurt you or made you unhappy is someone you don't like, you tend to remember the hurt and unhappiness caused, coz it's wad you're expecting them to do;
when the someone who helped you or made you happy is someone you don't like (which is most unlikely to happen), you tend to forget it easily and just let it slip past your memory, perhaps intentionally, coz part of you dowan to believe that it's happening either.


yes, it isn't always easy to control your emotions and feelings at times, i guess.

RANDOM THOUGHTS

i feel like just sitting around and watching the world go past.

how do i study and score well for french?

i want to eat xiao long bao!

excessive sugar intake may be stifling.

i want that dress.

if only happy times last forever.

i wish i could be out there playing and shopping everyday.

someone curb the overwhelming desire in me to go France.

Les Amis ain't meant for poor little kids like us.

when was the last time you saw a rainbow?

i want to lie on the beach and look at the twinkling nightsky.

i wish the weather was as nice as yesterday's.

should i bring my lappie out?

will all this ever come to an end?

is he happy up there now?

it's the weather that's invoking the sudden bout of melancholy.

ARGH! tagged by wluek!! wluekkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

Four jobs I've had in my life:
1. some silly one day job tt isn't even worth mentioning
2. LEGO FAIR!!! -dances around gleefully-
3. data entry @ SP. zzz..
4. some call centre thingy in sch. and i haven't gotten my pay after 2months!! hello?!

Four movies I can watch over and over again:
-none in particular as long as they are not Rumour Has It and American Haunting-

Four places I've been on vacation:
-malaysia malaysia malaysia-
hahaa~
-china!

Four of my favourite dishes:
1. XIAO LONG BAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I WANT 'EM NOWWWWWWWWWWWWW)
2. mummy's soups! (:
3. mummy's dumplings!! haha coz i jus ate them today..
4. okay can't think of anything else for now le.
-retreats to one corner with my xiaolongbao withdrawal syndrome-

Four places I would like to visit:
In the near near future...probably...
1. FRANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. HK + Taiwan!
3. Redang!!
4. Egypt!
and Japan/Korea.
and South Africa.
and NZ.
and the list goes on.. (pls gimme a rich husband)

Four most overused words:
1. BBBBBBBWAH! (SC)
2. hahaa
3. whatever~
4. huh??

Four gadgets that I have:
1. hp! necessity!! nyahahaa~
2. lappie!
3. ipod nano? hehh
4. uhhhhh... dvd recorder?! hahaha is tt considered?

Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. many many hk dramas!
2. xing fu shuang ren chuang! hahahaa~
ehhhh.. i suddenly got mental block!! -bleah!-

Four bloggers I'm tagging:
1. mabbieeeee
2. ernieeeeee
3. gunnieeeee
4. yammieeeee
HAHAHAAA!

alright. backkk to french!

i've fallen into a cycle of eating tv msngaming/chatting/blogging french.

quite contented with this cycle.

doesn' mean it's good for me though.

aha.

meeting boophie to mug tmr! mwahaha~ we're gonna chiong until the library closes! yes, just like the LWN days! nyahahaa! -cackles to self-

dots.

huiting is a happy girl! (:

no mood to study.

no one to go out with.

nothing else to do.

even rotting is boring.

get a life!

wow... so shocking.

was that my mum i was just talking to?!? =O

okayyy. results are out, if you still do not know.. and my results sucked big time. GPA dropped so much that i dropped into the next class of honours, while others' are rising. bleahs! shows how much effort i put in? sheeesh! okay, maybe i can comfort myself by telling myself that the CGPA still maintains at my desired class of honours. right.

and it doesn't help that the person i called to talk to made me feel worse, and couldn't slp for the rest of the night. sheeeesh! but yes, after sitting up on my bed for more than an hour and talking to myself like an idiot, i managed to convince myself that at least you tried very hard to stop making me think of my miserable results. yes, thank you for the effort! (: okay, not like you will be reading this anyway.

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on a side note, thank you all for mugging together during the tough period of time! thanks for encouraging each other and pushing each other on! esp. the LWN muggers! studying with you guys were great!! and i still wanna do it if i get to stay hall next sem! hehee. "if i get to stay hall next sem" -_-''' so may the hall office have mercy on me, and lemme stay hall next sem so that i can be reunited with my mugger clique! :p

and yes, i vow to work harder next sem. *cross my heart swear* i am so not going to let myself feel this way again. i must must must study harder. pls try not to tempt me with all the play play stuff. and pls try to make me as busy as possible, so that i would panick and study. pls don't drown me with projects again. pls let me stay hall. pls let me take up tuition. pls let me get an intern or RA thingy. pls let me join wsc if i get to stay hall. pls let me get so busy and thus motivated to study. yes, mugger is what i'm gonna turn into next sem! wheeeeeeeeee~

hahahaha~ no sarcasm at all okay. i really meant it when i said i'm gonna mug. i'm NOT going to let my core get such a disgusting grade again. ppl, we shall all jiayou together okay! ^^

oh ya, forgot to congratulate those who got very very good results! hehee. you guys have worked hard and deserved it! yayy! and those who didn't get wad you deemed satisfactory, doesn't mean you didn't work hard enough, it's just the tian shi di li ren he wrong.. hahaha~ it's alright guys! whether we did well or didn't do well, we shall all continue working hard together next sem alright?! ^^ yes! pls believe that hard work DOES pay off! it's just a matter of time! :) jiayou jiayou!!!

french is officially over! (: today was great. had our presentations. everyone did greaaaaaaaaaaat! hehee. and the korean class beside us was having their oral which looked so scary, while we were having fun laughing at each others' presentations! :p hehee..

really enjoyed french alot. it was a class with only fun and laughter. it's not only the teaching that's kiddy style, but everyone treats each other the kiddy way too! hahaha. what i mean by the former is - the teaching is like, the teacher says something and you repeat after her, and latter simply meant - everyone is nice and innocent and there is no rivalry! :)

aha. picking up a new language is certainly fun! (:

okay, i shall mug hard, and try to get nice results. hopefully can go on to level 2 next sem? hmmm but abit tight for the exam schedule. will have two papers on a day if i take level 2. hehee.. see first la! clear this exam first!

j'aime français! :)

Dear 12 years old Huiting,

I am writing from your future 8 years later. And I'm writing bcoz 7 years from now, when you go to uni (yes, you will manage to squeeze into uni), you will meet a crazy fren (no, i'm not gonna tell you who now) who will write to her 12-year-old self and tempt you to do the same thing.

You've probably just cleared your PSLE by now, and am bursting with excitement to embrace the new secondary school life awaiting you. yes, that's the way! coz in due time, you will find out that many of the happiest times and bestest friends of your life will be awaiting for you there. :) yes, you'll have the hell of a great time during this phase of your life. as for the academic side, yes, ups and downs, but you'll eventually pull thru', so do work hard!

Thereafter, you'll enter the loveliest jc and meet another grp of the loveliest ppl who are going to change your life for good. they will alter your course of life in the oddest ways that will be way beyond your imagination - some will push you down into the deepest abbyss and grip your heart with the sharpest pain you can ever imagine, while others will melt your heart, stay and touch your life forever. do strive hard, coz 2 years may be a short time, but you'll soon find out it might be the hardest time of your life.

Perseverance and faith are what you need to pull you through. but remember, don't always trust everyone around you so easily. coz your gullible nature will make you vulnerable and only let you get hurt.

Perhaps at one point of your life, you'll feel so totally miserable and helpless, but don't ever give up! coz there are many more beautiful things in your life worth your attention.

and always remember, place Friendship before Love. your friends will be the people who will be there for you to tide through the most difficult time of your life. Love is but a wine that makes you light-headed and giddy with short-lived happiness. Friends is the tea that makes you sober after that, and let you see things clearly. Most importantly, tea can be equally nice if you learn to appreciate it! plus plus plus - tea is good for health in the long run! hahaha~ actually, so is wine - as long as it is not taken excessively! yeap, so moral of story is - pls be nice to your friends! (:

Perhaps youu're bursting with excitement about looking for a bf now, or still on about that dream of earning your first million before uni starts, getting married before 24, and retiring by the seaside with 4 babies. but no, after the big ordeal is over, you would become as skeptical about life as i am now, especially about boys and love in particular. but do try to open yourself up, and take life as it comes. don't be afraid to love, and don't be too uptight about the fear of getting hurt again. you know deep down, you're still a girl and you still want to be loved, just by the right guy and at the right time. yes, 8 years later, you'll be just as fearful as i am now. but no worries, we got time to work things out. we'll erase the hurt and remove the horrible scar one day! you know what? you will stop crying so often, and come to realise you're actually a very strong and brave girl! (:

You're probably still afraid now - 'fraid of all the squabblings taking place at home. but be cool about it. as time goes by, things will improve. and always keep in mind that you have the greatest brother on the earth that you love alot alot, who will always be there for you when stuff with your parents become slightly dislodged. he'll tide you through the storms together, and take good care of you. yes, he might be super irritating now, but he'll grow up one day and be nice to you! :))

Even up til' my age, you won't be getting everything you want. freedom in particular. you gotta wait for that. it's not gonna come to you so easily. but we are all patient and understanding nice little girls, so we'll just wait okay? :p

Okay okayyy, i've revealed enough! Live through these 8 years for yourself, and you'll really love your life. Keep in mind that everything, whether good or bad, happens for a reason; if it's happy, keep the feeling in your heart forever. if it's sad, take it as a lesson learnt, bury it away and carry on with life.

Okay, one last important thing: Huiting is a happy girl, and she should always be giggling madly! If Huiting isn't smiling, then she isn't Huiting anymore. -giggles-

alriteysssssss! take care, my cute little 12-yo! cya in 8 years' time!!

Love,
20-year-old Sotong
(you'll find out who's sotong real soon when you start acting like one..)

YAY. today was GREAT.

finally met up with BOYFRIEND with mabbie cabbie!! :D so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! so long nv meet up with him le, missed him so much! heh. kbox with fun, making mabbie laugh! :p in sum, it was just a great day of fun, laughter and happiness. :)

bf's enlisting in a month's time. saddddd! pls come out often to meet us! hahahaa~ and pls miss ME us all! heee :D

alrites. so 5 whole days of fun and joy is all over. now what's left is another day of french in sch, following with 5 more days of french at home, then the final french paper, and.....BOTAK JONES!!! :))

*prays hard that everything goes well*

and i want a job! sheeesh! how many times have i said this?! bbbwah!

and i want happiness! and happiness is when i have no troubles, endless time to play and meet up with my friends, and endless money to spend! bwah!

oh ytd was coool~ had french as usual and was learning all the dates and stuff, and guess wad?? France has like 9 weeks worth of hols, and 16 weeks for students!! OMG. i so wanna migrate there!!! hahahaa~ and to them, one day's worth of holiday (equivalent to our public hols in sg, e.g. national day, labour day, etc..) is not even considered a holiday!! hahahaha~ i heart the french way of thinking! this is exactly how the sg govt should make the calendar to be man! ^^ and they only have an average of like 35 working hours per wk! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! that is so much lesser than sg can!! I WANNA MIGRATE TO FRANCE.

hahaha~

oh and we got back our test papers.. and mine has très bien written on it! ^^

yayyy~ then went to bugis AGAIN after that. yes, coz i was desperately in need of a new bag. yes, coz 2 or 3 of my bags decided to go on a strike and all spoil at the same time~ almost died O_O hahahaa and yayyy! i got new bag! happy happy HAPPYYYYY!! ^^

ytd nite was horrible after reaching home. was so tired after being out for so long liao, then still had to complete a presentation so that i can go out in peace today~ so yeap, finished my presentation and felt so ultra drained after that and plopped down to slp at like 1am. then climbed up at 7am again to go for tuition at yewtee. WAH. i almost died when i crawled out of bed!! O_O

hahaa~ yeap. so went for tuition and all that, then had lunch with my cousins, and met huiyu after that!! ^^ yayyyy~ went to causeway point to watch Pirates! mwahahaa~ it's my FIRST time @ Causeway Point lor.. haha can you believe it?! :p yeappp. Pirates was quite alright, although i nodded off somewhere at the front of the movie. HAHAHAA. coz didn't watch part 1 and forgot a little of part 2 le, plus i was super tired from the slp deprivation, so i dozed off in a state of confusion. hahahaaa. it's my first time falling aslp in a movie! sheeeesh! ernie's gonna scold me for being one of the idiots who duno how to appreciate. hahahaa~ but okay la, after things started getting clearer, and johnny depp started getting cuter, i sat up and laughed my way thru' the rest of the movie~ heh.. and orlando finally started looking cute after his heart was dug out. sheesshhh. am i mad or wad! hahahaa~

oh and walked around after dinner, helping huiyu look for her dress but to no avail~ hahahaha. okay la, found a nice but not-very-dressy piece! -.- lols.. and i liked the dress i tried too! but i duno why i didn't buy.. got the guilt from spending so much past few days le~ hahaa so jus didn't buy lor. bbbbbwah! okay, shall use the mabbie style. if the itch is still there one wk later, then go back and buy! HAHAAA. -_-'''

yayyy! happy happy happppppy sotong!! ^^

yayyyy! was out with huiyu and ernie todayyy! hehee~ oh, i just realised how long i didn't see huiyu alrdy.. hahaaa..was so excited and happy to see her! ^^ oh, of coz ernie too! hahaa, but just saw him that day ma.. lols~ okayyy, that's not the pt.. we went KBOX!!! =D oh, the guy there was ultra weird! but who cares, we got our extra time! ^^ mwahahaha.. so happyy! was so niceeee~ although my singing sucks. hahahaa. i think my singing is sucky sucky sucky, and going to continue sucking at an exponential rate. ARGH! =( k, nvm..tt besides the point, it was FUN!!! ^^ so nice singing with the two of them again! hehee~ feels like the good old days laughing away like nobody's business. heh :p

then huiyu rushed off to work and ernie and i jus walked around shopping! hehee.. no la, he shopped, not me. hahahaa. but the point being....SHOPPING!!! =D and we walked into a NOKIA shop, and i looked at the phone ernie was looking at and asked: "is that MOTOROLA de?" -.-'''

wahahha~

and so far everyone i went out with says my hair doesn't look like mushroom! *woooooots!* -beams- heheee.. and yayyy! am meeting some of the electrons on wed! MWAHAHA. and YAY! watching pirates with yuyu deardear on tues! lalala~ ^^


oh oh oh. am sad sad sad after i came home. =[ heard some bad news. blah. things are certainly not going smoothly for some ppl this yr. bad luck comes in bulk! and mummy has the WEIRDEST way of describing it:
mummy: "一个人倒霉的时候，吐口水给老鼠吃，老鼠吃到了，都会被毒死！"
--> [translation for julyn: when a person is unlucky, he spit saliva for the mouse to eat, the mouse eat liao also will kena poisoned to death.]
me: "HARRRR?!!?"

hahahaa! SO WEIRD RITE. i swear my mum talks in the weirdest manner at times! -.-

alrittttes. shall be off~ and i'll continue to pray hard for the health, safety and happiness of all my frens and family! may everyone be blessed!! (:

yay! went out with mabbie cabbie today!! ^^

ahaaaa.. went shoppingggggggg! went mad and buy and buy and buy. spent a fair bit of money, but bought ALOT of stuff!! yayyy~ hahaha. bugis street! bbbbwah! -happy girl-

lalala~

huiting is happy.
huiting is fully booked with activities for the next 5days or so.
huiting is becoming broke.
huiting is still in need of a job.
huiting is still very very happy!

the more i look at my hair, the more disgusted i get.

i feel like a mushroom!

=(

gimme back my hairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

can you rmb your very first ambition when you were young? well, mine was funny. my ambition was not to become an adult. haha. silly, isn't it? okay, maybe that explains why i'm still childish now at such an age; part of me probably still don't wish to grow up.

i used to hate adults with a strong abhorrence. i used to feel that adults are the most bo liao creatures on earth; they trouble themselves over the stupidest things and fight over the most trivial matters. i could never understand why they do the weirdest things to make themselves miserable.

so, i made a silent vow to myself that in the future, i never want to grow up or become an adult. ha.

but it seems that old age is catching up on me fast. today, it finally dawned on me that my parents are getting old. and i realised how hard they are working to finance bro and my studies. and i realised how unhappy they are working. that was when i felt truly helpless and irritated with myself - wished that i could grow up overnight and start working. wished that i could support them instead and let them take a break after striving so hard for so many years to bring my bro and i up. wished that they didn't have to worry about us anymore and go 'xiang qing fu' liao. but no, it's not gonna happen any time in the near future, and that's what dampening my mood now.

i once had thoughts of furthering my studies after the honours degree. but now, i don't even have the heart (and the results?) to do that. all i want to do now is to graduate and start working asap; i want to be financially independent, and of course, redeem my promised freedom too.

finally, here comes the day when i want to grow up.