I am supposed to be packing for that chalet happening in a few hours, but I'm still doing a thousand and one other things... Like being here, after leaving it to collect dust forever!
So I should review my resolutions before the year ends...
Resolutions in 2010
1. Get a job that I like asap!
Yay, I did get a job before I graduated!
Well, if you ask me whether I like my job or not, one thing I would daresay is that, many of us probably realise by now that this is a very grey-area question.
I would say that I'm doing what I've been dreaming of doing for the past few years of my life, but it is no doubt challenging, not to mention my benefits package is not comparable at all to the rest of my peers. It is of course, also rather different from what many of my peers are doing right now. This was something I struggled to accept in my first few months of the job. It seemed that everyone's doing something more relevant to the skills taught at school and receiving better benefits for that. Sometimes I even fear that I might lose these skills if I stop using them at work.
But after awhile, I've come to accept my job and enjoy it better, instead of comparing it to others'. Everybody, I believe, faces a different set of challenges at their job. When I have a very bad day at work, I tend to augment my negativity, like Is this really meant for me? When the very good days come, everything's so sweet and rewarding I feel like I could just stay floating forever! (manic-depressive episodes huh? =P) I've come to accept all these as part of work life now. This job may or may not be meant for me in the long run, but at least it hasn't boiled down to intolerable; my happy days still triumph far more over the bad! =) I know what I'm doing makes a difference, and a very good difference that takes time to materialize; a very good difference that might last forever if it turns out well.
I'm sure everybody's job has a good end-product, and is value-added in some sense, whether we see it directly or not. Perhaps one of the job-fit criteria could be whether we want/need to see this result. Or perhaps we should just learn to accept that we may not see results directly at times. To me, job fit takes time to realize and I should no longer rush to decide whether I fit in. To assess job fit, respect your job for what you do and what it results in. For now, I've at least come to terms with that.
Now, I'll need to learn more from what I'm doing, progress in value-addedness before deciding whether I need a change. I'm not really in a hurry for change, coz I believe every job has it's takeaway, whether in a technical expertise sense, a cultural sense, learning to deal with people, or simply integrating with the society. All these are things that I see room for progress in if I stay in the current company, and so I'm not giving up my 'dream' job yet for a change or for better benefits! =)
(I'm lacking relationships with colleagues and pay package in my review, coz there's no super major problem with these for me so far)
1a. Do my best, learn as much, and make my part-time job a very meaningful experience!
Ok, this feels so long ago. Yes, I've definitely learnt much and never regretted taking up the part-time job. Though, yes, I really felt like dying juggling FYP, studies, and work all at the same time O_O
2. Start a regular fixed saving plan after getting a full-time job!
Ok, this is something I hoped to avoid. Haha. I just recently started portioning out what I earn to what to spend and what to save. But it hasn't been really steady yet, coz it's too hard to be a girl. Hahaha. I'm not throwing out some lousy excuse ok. There's really a hundred and one things girls have to spend their money on every month. Sigh.
Fineee, I just need to manage my expenses better this year, period!
3. Better better time management
I think I did managed to accomplish better time management while I was studying and working part-time. Though it of coz came with sacrifices like less time for play. But I think lesser time to complete your tasks, in some sense, forces you to portion your time better for these tasks, and sticking better to your personal deadlines.
Hmm I'm not so sure though whether I compromised the quality of my work though. Haha, though eventually the results were satisfactory la.
And I'm rather relieved that now that I'm working full-time, I've less 'homework' to bring back, and more than enough time to manage. Haha. Which basically means, the amount of time I have is so much more than compared to when I was in school. Which brings me to a funny conclusion that maybe I should pick up something else so I have less free time.
Hahaha. Man is never satisfied with the status quo huh. When I was too busy, I wished for more free time. Now I'm so free, I wish for more work/less free time. I think I'm too used to working my brain for at least 16 hours a day, now I feel like my brain is rusting for at least 12 hours a day. Hahaha.
I'll have to see that I reach a satisfactory equilibrium this year I guess.
4. Get an international qualification for my langauge(s)
Oh my. This is one major let down to myself! I haven't been trying to do anything to accomplish this at all! =X
One thing of coz is the financial cost this may bring about, and another thing is I don't seem to be that actively interested anymore =X Sadly, I'm still passively interested when I see/hear things that I've learnt, but I don't seek out more new grammar/vocab etc.. as actively as before anymore. Which means my acquisition has probably decayed.
Oh my. I don't know what I want to do about this now. Haha.
5. Be a better better girlfriend!
Ok I don't really know about this! Haha.
I guess I spend more time with dear now, coz we both have more free time. But I think I still need to learn to listen more at times =)
6. Maintain the grades and get that honors.
This resolution feels so prehistoric already! Haha.
Yay. I did that somehow though some of my modules were like crap. Saving grace once again is...LANGUAGE!! Hahaha. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a psych major or language major.
Ok, I think I still prefer being psych major. If only there was a language minor! Hmmm.
7. Exercise more regularly!
Oh crap. This resolution totally failed! I'm so super fat nowww!!!
Haha, super need to work on this next year =/ Tingting stop being a bad and lazy girl!! =(
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Alright, end of review, brings me to realize it has been an overall, good year after all! =) Many many changes, many many happening things, but Tingting pulled through the year... Yay!! Growing up can be all sucky but fun at the same time =)
Resolutions for 2011, are of coz something I shouldn't be aching my brains about on the last day of 2010 =P Hahaha.
Hope everyone's had a good 2010, and have a even better 2011 ahead!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! =D