Sunday, November 29, 2009

Thou shalt not be alone.


Case Formulation!

OMG this is like the hardest-to-study-for exams ever!! o_O

Not only not enough time, the content is so turn-off. Let's not talk about F, we all know how bad that is... but I never expect CP to be so bad!!!!

The notes are super sampat lah! Can throw 3-4 textbook chapters into one set of lecture notes, and each textbook chapter is at least 30 pages, but only occupies 4-5 slides in the lecture notes. Why? Coz the lecturer super smart lor; put ALL the headlines of the textbook into the notes. What the fish leh. I feel so demoralized making notes that I finally gave up tonight!! It's like so much notes to make for each chapter, and after so long, I'm still at the same set of lecture notes!!! -_-'''

Doesn't help that the textbook can repeat the same words over and over again for 14 chapters. How to remember like that, it's like gestalt psychology/fuzzy memory leh! -.-

Pardon me for being grumpy. I tried so hard to study, and ended up taking so long and having to skip a fabulous gathering I so wanted to go, and have to study all that crap which I can't even take in! =(


SO. Since it's not very productive, I shall do case formulation to aid my learning! Hahaha. Happened to see this TV program on Channel 8 last night. It's those more documentary type of show I think, didn't catch the program name =X

Anyway, they featured/interviewed this actual person who has Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). So I shall try to do a case formulation with the 20 minutes worth of information I got from that program! Hahaha.

DISCLAIMER: Doing this purely out of fun, please take it with a pinch of salt!


Presenting Problems:
Lady in her 50s who has had OCD for 20 years. Has cleaning compulsions that seriously disrrupts her daily functioning. Cleans her house repeatedly and thoroughly, especially when objects come into contact with the door/floor/furniture/walls/etc... Loses sleep often thinking about things she have not cleaned, then gets up in the middle of the night to clean them.

She especially hates advertisors stuffing flyers at her door. It upsets her and makes her clean repeatedly everytime she sees a flyer being stuffed at the door. Even when she warned the flyers-distributor not to stuff flyers at her door, they still do it repeatedly, and she got into a quarrel with them as a result, which turned into a court case.

As such, she uses at least 15 big boxes of cleaning detergent every month, and her utilities bill works out to over a thousand dollars monthly because of the amount of water used for cleaning. Her hands/skin has become so worn from all the scrubbing and cleaning, to the extent that her fingerprints are no longer visible. She has not gone out of her house for a long period of time, for fear of contamination. Did not allow reporters to go into her house either for fear of them contaminating her house. Appears to stay alone although she has a husband and children.

She has seen up to 3 psychiatrists/psychologists previously, but stopped treatment for some years already because she feels that it didn't helping.

Precipitating Factors:
20 years back, after she gave birth to her youngest daughter, she started to take charge of all the household chores at home, from cooking to cleaning. Whenever she hung out her clothes to dry, the neighbours upstairs would throw down cigarette butts or ash and this dirtied her clothes. Upset with this, she confronted her neighbours, who denied this and claimed that they do not smoke. She started to hang her clothes along the corridor instead. However, kids who ran along the corridor would knock down the clothes onto the floor, and this dirtied the clothes as well. From then on, she started displaying symptoms of OCD, from being very particular about cleanliness, to showing signs of anxiety, distress and cleaning compulsions.

In the recent years, her condition has worsened after more advertisors started to stuff more and more flyers at her door. Despite the warning signs she put up not to stuff newspapers and flyers at the door, her signs were ignored. This causes great distress in her, and increases her cleaning compulsions. It was also from that point of time that she stopped going out of the house.

Predisposing Factors:
Causes are not elaborated upon/unknown here. It seems that she was already particular about cleanliness previously. It is also possible that the delivery of her youngest daughter has caused some hormonal changes or chemical imbalances that increased her susceptibility of getting OCD, which was then triggered by the incident of her clothes getting contaminated by the neighbours.

Perpetuating Factors:
As long as advertisors continue stuffing flyers at her door, her illness will likely continue to cripple her. Also, her unwillingness to step out of the house will possibly increase her fear of contamination overtime, and worsen her compulsions. Furthermore, without stepping out of her house first, she is unable to seek therapy.

Moreover, her unwillingness to continue treatment greatly perpetuates her illness, as there is hardly any chance of improvement without continuing treatment.

Prognosis:
The long period of illness may significantly lower the chances of recovery.

However, when interviewed, it seems that her family is actually supportive of her going for treatment. Her husband has been footing the utilities bill and is having a hard time with them. She expresses great desire to attend her daughter's upcoming polytechnic graduation ceremony, but insists that she is unable to step out of the house. Both she and her family expresses longings of reunion and "normal" family outings. If her family is able to encourage her to return to treatment, there might be a chance of recovery.

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I seriously felt very sad for her when I was watching the program! =X

Ok, that's all! I shouldn't be online for so long!! Hahaa. Tchao!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Elmo and Andrea Bocelli

This is what ernie tried to hum himself to sleep with.

Hahahaa that's not a very smart to do leh.

Those were the days...

I miss studying with the different groups of people at different places during different phases of life in uni!!


Roomie - Room/Hall 6 Reading Room

Bobo & Stephie - LWN! (I rmb there was once after LWN closed, and we went to continue studying at the benches until like 1 or 2am? I walked so fast back to Hall 6 after that!! Lol)

Xian, Jul, Stephie, Qi, Ah Gong + guest-starring SS, CY, Daniel, & MY LOVELY!! - LWN + TREX!! (we had to squeeze so many people in so little tables, and wake up damn early to chop table! lol. And this includes breakfast @ Da Ge's, and the fateful zhi char day when I jeered at the HAHAHA! laughing therapy, fall and sprained my ankle -.-''')

Lovely! - Room/TREX/Lab? ^^


Lalala~ I need my caffeine! Hahaha. Tchao!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

BB Mushy!

And so the new BB cream finally arrived in the snail today!

Skin Food Mushroom BB Cream SPF 20 PA

WHEE! ^^

To expand my love of edible mushrooms to applicable mushrooms, I've decided to personify my mushroom bb cream. It's gonna get a name; and the name shall be...

MUSHY.

Wahahah!

Mushy The BB Cream. In short but concise terms, it's BB Mushy!

WOOHOOOOOO!



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You can tell what reading Family notes drives me into...

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Vmailphobic

I've got the Vmailphobia!

Have you?

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Replace your bad memories with new sweet ones :)

In an attempt to look for pretty note paper to scribble a note for some friends, I overturned my whole drawer, which was cluttered with letters, postcards, and notes. Out of the mugging boredom, I decided to take a peek at the not-too-ancient writings :)

I probably never mentioned this before, but I have a thing for handwritten/handmade notes and cards! Hehe. Although few people send letter by snail mail nowadays as compared to when I was in secondary school, receiving those handwritten/handmade cards (don't have to be snail-mailed la haha) still makes me happy! :) I think they are somewhat more lasting than electronic greetings via emails, Facebook, sms, etc... (Although I don't deny falling prey to posting electronic greetings more too nowadays haha oops) I'll definitely keep my paper greetings and letters!! :) :) Can't say the same about electronic greetings though.. Haha.

Not that I don't cherish such greetings.. In fact, when I was in JC, I used to print out any touching/meaningful emails or greetings that I received, or any me-directed blog entries, and store them carefully with the rest of the handwritten letters. But I guess it just got tiring after awhile, and there either wasn't enough ink or time. I do try to keep my best to store them nicely in the Inbox or save them in a certain folder or something. But technology, being more likely to err than human, tend to wipe them off when the computer crashes or the Inbox is full. I mean, if there was a fire (touchwood), I could just grab my drawer and run out of the house. But if the computer crashes or The Darn Phone gets sent to SE Repair Centre countless times, I can't keep telling it to save my precious momentos, yea?

Haha. Anyways, that was besides the point!

... On top of the pile were mostly notes and cards from my lovely! Without setting a new world record, reading them brings a half-grin half-smile yet again =D Close to two years of memories may not seem alot to many, but to me, its sufficient to last and keep me going for a lifetime :)

There was a handmade card from my beloved cousin too. I remembered being very touched to receive it coz I knew she put in a lot of effort making it! :) She was P6 then, and it was really like those cards we made in primary school art class! Hehe. So sweet of her. I remembering telling deardear how happy I was, and how handmade cards always touched me. And he asked "so if I had made you a card when I was wooing you, no matter how ugly it were, you would have been touched?" -.- Hahaha. Sadly, the answer is yes. Perhaps I should have waited for it to happen huh =P

And then further down the pile were cards and notes from the different manics and xian&SS's trademark birthday cards which always made me want to laugh at their disparity. She'll fill up the whole card with some story promoting how important she is, and sometimes me (haha), then He, the infamous Man of Few Words, would take up one tiny little corner, "Happy Birthday to you!" and sign his huge signature. Hahaha. And there were other notes from the manics too, mostly in different shades of pink. I seriously think they are the clique that super overly endorse my pinkiness. Hahaha.

There were some notes from the dans too, mostly yuyu deadear :) :) and Jess's handmade notorious card/bookmark(?) (fortunately not the lifetime membership ones wahaha). Haha. On an out-of-point side note, Jess, your glass test-tube of grapeseeds is still perched precariously on the top of my book shelf hahaa.

Then there was a somewhat crumpled Lego plastic bag, which I kind of hesitated to open. Those were the writings received in the bad bad period of life. I had threw most of the Y-related stuff away or returned them to him at that time (Yea, I'm the kind who needs a clean refreshing restart to heal, and without any physical reminders). But I didn't want to forget the emotional support I received which really pulled me up, so I kept those writings from my beloved friends, all tucked into a plastic bag. Ernie, remember the OK pen postcard? Hahaha. And there was one from Bert too, which I had to laugh at his erm, handwriting =X Oops. Hard to decipher leh~ Hahaa.

Then there were two letters from gaigai too... which I recall almost wanting to throw them away too in hurt and anger. But I had held them above the rubbish chute for awhile after throwing the Y-stuff down, and eventually still brought them back home in tears. Of course I ain't a saint, so I squashed them into the Lego plastic bag together with the cards, and tucked them away without looking anymore. Almost four years later, I'm reading them again, and realised how much you had really treasured our friendship despite the ugly incident. I guess it took a fair amount of courage for you to do that too, and worse still, having it all ended up in a mess. Not that I'm in greater approval now of what you two did, but I'm at least able to view our friendship not so tangled amidst that incident anymore. More importantly, I think we have both grown from four years ago, and seen and experienced better things and better people. I daresay we're both happier than the sorry state four years ago, right? :) Girl, it's not the end yet, the right happiness will drop by you at the right time! :) :)

And I can only say, who would have thought so much have changed since that fateful night? I went to bed in tears, hating Y for having ruined my life and my happiness. I swore that I'd be strong and I'd be happier than you. I don't know how much of it has been fulfilled now, but it doesn't matter to me anymore. More than often, I've looked back and been thankful. Yes, thankful. Thankful for an ending to the relationship that looking back, had really no chance of working out. But I'm thankful it ended, albeit very badly, and allowed me a real go at real happiness. I not only found a new bestie :) :) but I also saw my real true friends, and finally found the one that I want to spend my life with. I've grown up too and matured, and learnt how to better deal with a relationship as well. I've learnt too that the dissolution may for all, wasn't entirely your fault as I used to so firmly believe; there were just so many value differences and character mismatch between us, though I still think I rock! Hahaha. -_-'''

I've replaced my bad memories with new, sweet ones. Thank you, my dear friends for the immense support through these years... The lucky blur girl has finally found her happiness to last! :) :)


It takes time, but we can stop crying from the hurt. According to Meimei (2009), Good things fall apart so better things can fall together! :) The hurt will fade one day, and we'll all emerge happier and wiser than before.

Replace your bad memories with new sweet ones too! =)

Super horrifying leadup to PTSD

Five men deny raping 17—year—old girl

SINGAPORE: What was supposed to be a supper date turned into an ordeal for a 17—year—old girl, who was allegedly gang—raped by five young men.

The girl, now 18, had agreed to have a meal with a man called "Jonathan" in December last year. Instead, she was taken to a flat in Woodlands, where the men took turns to rape and sexually assault her.

The accused — Muhammad Shafie bin Ahmad Abdullah, 19; Mohd Sadruddin bin Azman, 19; Lim Boon Tai, 20; Rishi Mohan, 17; and Mohamed Firdaus bin Roslan, 18 — have denied the charges and are likely to testify that the sex was consensual.

Shafie and Lim were full—time National Servicemen at the time of the offence, while Sadruddin and Firdaus were then waiting for their O—level results. Rishi, a Malaysian citizen, was a student at the Institute of Technical Education.

The morning after the alleged crime, the girl’s boyfriend called the police after she told him what happened. Four days later, the men were arrested.

In his opening statement, deputy public prosecutor Gordon Oh said on the evening of Dec 25 last year, the victim was on a bus to Woodlands bus interchange and on the way home, when a man calling himself "Jonathan" rang her and asked to have supper with her.

"Jonathan" did not turn up. Instead, a friend of the girl — who is one of the accused — arrived in a taxi to pick her up from Woodlands MRT station.

He brought her to a flat in Woodlands, where she was introduced to the other men. There, Lim introduced himself as Jonathan.

The victim joined four of the accused men in a card game where the loser had to drink a soft drink mixed with vodka.

She had more than five disposable plastic cups of the cocktail, Mr Oh said.

During another game, the victim — whose head was spinning from the alcohol by that point — refused to kiss Lim as a forfeit.

The games ended when someone knocked on the flat’s door. Thinking it was Shafie’s parents returning home, the group suggested that the victim and Lim hide in a room together.

In the room, Lim allegedly pushed the girl onto a mattress and made sexual advances. She resisted but with her head feeling heavy, gave in to him.

Later, while she was resting in Shafie’s room, the men allegedly entered, stripped her and took turns raping and sexually assaulting her.

Two psychiatrists will testify that the girl now suffers from post—traumatic stress disorder and has depressive symptoms, said Mr Oh.

In court on Tuesday, the men — three of them bespectacled — sat in the cramped dock. Few of their family members appeared to be in court, but they seemed relaxed and were seen smiling and talking to each other.

The trial continues on Wednesday.


[Taken from Yahoo News
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20091118/tap-913-five-men-deny-raping-17-year-old-231650b.html]


This is like so uber terrifying! And the five guys are so super bastard!! Don't know what to comment about the girl though... Why did she even go/go get drunk at their house!! Ok, I should not make negative internal attribution about the victim......

Seriously, I can't imagine how long she'll take to recover. Really super suay.. And those five guys are really super super super bastard, still happily denying!! =( I hope they get charged!! If they go scott-free, the girl will seriously be even more depressed lah.

Omg omg. I can't believe such a thing happened to such a young girl, really very poor thing.

Hai. Ugly ugly world.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Data Camp -- The Prelude to Data Party

Yes, we've been very busy managing our GP data. Thanks to the upcoming Data Party that V decided to throw on 5th December (which is the Saturday right after our last paper ends on Friday).

Apparently, V's schema of parties is very different from ours. When xian asked her whether the party will be at night, she was shocked. And when jan and i asked her what time would it be, she said probably 9am to 5pm. ................ Does that sounds like party time to anybody here? *ahems* Later she decided perhaps 9am to 1pm would be enough. Ok, not like it sounds more exciting, but I guess it beats spending the first Saturday after exams in school for the entire day. To make myself feel better, I shall pretend I found a part-time Saturday volunteer thingy right after my paper.

On the "brighter" side, perhaps her only more "normal" schema of party was reflected in her statement "Don't worry. There will be food provided."

Can't say we're too excited about that though.

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ANYWAYS,

Jan (my GP group mate) and I decided to run our data in one shot, so that we can settle down properly to study for our exams after that. We started on Monday morning (keying in some misc. data and compiling stuff here and there) and still couldn't get started on hypotheses by 10pm. So we decided to hold a 2-day 1-night Data Camp on Tuesday to prep ourselves for the horrifying Data Party ahead.

You can think of it as a leadership training camp before an FOC, or if you're slightly more optimistic, it's like going for FOC before D&D party.

The point was, we chiong-ed everything at Jan's house from ard 10am to 2am, became very seh, and went to bed, but couldn't sleep. So it turned into a girly kind of slumber party, when we started chatting and sharing secrets. Hahaha. We finally decided to try harder to sleep at 3am. But we snoozed our 7am alarm for about 10 times before finally waking up at 8am. Haha.

Anyways, we finished most of it (with some question marks which all the profs happened to be on leave to solve for us -.-) finally, and break camp before noon. Then we started trying very hard to take self-timer photos with our Ting & En (2009) products, but it was a disaster; apparently we both weren't very good camera gurus.

Hahah. Ah wells. At least we can put some stuff aside now until 4th December. And Data Camp wasn't too bad although it fried our brains! :)

Jiayou for exams, people!! 16 days to freedom!!! =D


Meanwhile, I am gonna drown myself in caffeine to make up for the precious time lost to GP...

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Gimme a chance to mug!

Yes, I want to mug.

Usually, by this time of the semester, I would have settled down from all the crazy assignments and project deadlines, and found my inner peace in mugging. But not for this semester!

Exams are supposed to be officially starting next week, with the exception that I happened to be lucky enough to have my papers starting 2 weeks later. But i'm still up to the neck with so many things to do that I can't mug!!

Finally finished the last 2 f* reports (f* is the mod name, not a swear word!) today morning, and had to rush to continue the humongous amount of data entry! Humongous meaning there's a total of 60 participants' data to enter, and each participant has 20pages worth of data O_O even after splitting half-half with my groupmate, we still have to key in 600 pages worth of data each by tomorrow night.

After which we have to run data analysis and do presentation slides!! *strangles self*

When can I start mugging for my papers like that! =(

Sigh.

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Anyway, I was bored of data entry, and so uploaded this photo!

:)

It was our last day of Spanish Level 2 on Thursday! As usual, the last day ended with the oral exams, where everybody more or less did well! (according to our teacher lol. but i think she's just very nice).. Anyway, this year's class wasn't as close as my Level 1 class i think.. heh. But still, a few of us (the ones that I'm usually closer to and hang out with in class heh) still managed to stay back after class to take a photo with Arantxa! :) :) She's the same teacher as my Level 1 class, and very very niceeeeeeeeeeeee!! :) Hehe.

I still wanna take Level 3 next semester! But the timeslot she told us she'll be teaching..sounds like the timeslot Forensic Psych will usually be on =( =( So I might have to go for the other teacher's slot instead.. Bah! Ok, I heard she's very nice also la, but just that I'm used to this teacher for 2 levels liao. Anyway, if I take Forensic Psych and Spanish Level 3, that makes my classes on 3 evenings!!! o_O And if I take French Level 4 too, is that going to make my classes like 5 evenings???

GOODNESS!!!

Maybe I can start praying hard that they decide to change the Forensic Psych timing earlier, and French Level 4 will not be so late...

BAHHHHHHHHHH!

I don't want to be the first Psych Yr 4 in history to have 5-day week in her final sem!! x_x

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Ok ok, I shall stop worrying about next sem, when I don't even get to study for this sem's exams -.-''

Back to goddamn data entry! *POUTS*

久石讓 Joe Hisaishi Asia Dream Song

This song is SUPERB too! :D

While writing my final family report, I finally found something that makes the writing less painful! =X

久石讓 Joe hisaishi Live - One Summer's Day (from Spirited Away)

Beautiful song :)

I wanna watch Spirited Away again!!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Happy 23 Months! =)

It's the 2-Years-Minus-ONE-Month-niversary!! ^^

As usual, we don't really celebrate.. =X hahaa.. especially exams nearing no time ma~ hahaa. Anyway, every month is a special month to us because it's +1 more month spent together out of the many many more months to go! =) Hehe.

Oh well, although we don't celebrate, it's a happy and cheery day! :) :) Yay! I love my lovely!! =X

Sometimes I think back, and I wonder what would I be like now if this relationship never started. Yes, I would definitely still be surviving, and blowing my trumpet about being a strong girl..

But I guess the empty hole in me would never have been fully filled, and my doubts and mistrust in relationships would never have cleared.

So the Prince Charming came and swept and dusted away all that hesitance and inconfidence I had in relationships. And he dusted it all away with such strong conviction, that I could never have doubted him =) In fact, he did more than swept my fears away, he changed me and made me believe in myself in a way I never used to! And he stayed by me unfaltering through all those hard times =)

Everything I said may sound clichéd and silly, and perfectly expected. But I still think it's not everyday I see such a perfect/ideal boyfriend who's so nice to their girlfriend! :p hehee. 老陈卖瓜,自卖自夸! :D

Ok la, I just wanted to show off my lovely ma! Got abit carried away.. =X

Happy 23 months, lovely! I love you! :) :)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

The Top 3 Scariest Emails of the Semester!

NTU is famous for scaring students, three times a year.

1st Attempt
Dear Students,

The Exam Welfare Package is here again! Fabulous free goodies up for grabs and more study areas for all!


2nd Attempt
Dear Student,

Please check out your exam venues and seating arrangements.


3rd Attempt
Dear Student,

Good news for your examinations! We are pleased to inform you that the frequency of the internal shuttle bus will be increased during the exam period for your convenience!



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Talk about 笑里藏刀...

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Random (again)

Just felt like I haven't been blogging for some time, yet I do not know what I should blog about =X

GP studies' finally all over~ thanks to all who helped out by participating and The One who went to be the non-existent experimenter (and scolds me for not giving her credit for it haha). Although it's the end of the 101st nightmare, the 1001st nightmare would be coming up soon: the theme is
Data Analysis Party with food provided *rolls eyes*

I've gotta start thinking about how i'm gonna run a million and one data analyses while mugging for my papers at the same time. Not to mention feeling disgruntled about the delayed holidays =[

This special December marks the end of my Lovely's university life! Well, half of it..He can still eat another half a year's worth of student meals! =P But no cheating with the mugging together til late night and having a cushion on my way home =( =( I'm so gonna miss going to and fro school together with my lovely, and having him there for me in an instant when i'm upset =[

Together, we say bye bye to my beloved Qiqi & Bobo of the manics! *pouts* I can't believe we were all Year 1 together then, but they're saying byebye and stepping out of school first! I feel somewhat sad at the thought of that.. We're already having so few lessons together, and now one less person buys kopi (yuanyang!) tgt with me, and yet another less ding dong and whines tgt with me (haha no denying hor!)!! Alas, that's life and we just have to move on I guess =( All the best to them, and for the job-hunting! Please continue turning up for birthday gatherings! hehe. We've gotta take the classic 9 ppl sitting in 2 rows and all peeking over the person-in-front's head photo!


Classic eh? That's the very first one! hahaa

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On the less emo side, the holidays are finally coming!! =) =)

Anniversary(!!), birthday gatherings, kbox, chalet, and more gatherings!! :D