yami - haha wluek wluek says cannot bring back!
mab - heh. have lah. tm and cs have. hahaha! we go bugis after i come back from m'sia! ^^
beavan - OMG. i have so much to tell you!! hahahaha =D and i uber miss you!
yuyu - i'm back I'M BACK!! and i'm going away on sat again -.- hahaha
yK - oh hello hello! u were there too? i saw aaron and he said he's meeting frens for dinner and i didn't know he's meeting u! lol. oh ernie wants to see you too! lol.. let's meet up with him together ba! ^^
mm - yes, we're back!!.. and going m'sia again soon =X let's have a manic outing soon! :)

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HELLO EARTHLINGSSSSSSSSSSSS!! =)

okay, that was a tad wrong, but i just had the urge to use the word earthlings -.-''

anyways, as you can see, we're back from malacca(mlk)! =)) it was an uber great getaway, and my first time overseas with my friends (other than choir trip..), and it uber rawks! :D

haha. we ate, shopped, ate, played, ate, shopped, movie-ed, ate, facial-ed, ate, shopped, ate, played, ate, shopped, .............

hahahaa! it was really fantastic! with the exception of the sucky beowulf movie, that is =X taitai's life ended in 4d3n, which ended with ss and jc picking us up at queen's st terminal, and we ended up taking the train home after being CHAUFFEURED =p around by our darling julyn for days! :)

then jc and i dined at V8 cafe where we tried the fantastic baked rice qiqi and daniel have been ranting on and on about for days and weeks. and yes, it was real fantastic!! *smiles* okayyy, i spot a few fishy looks from my darling manics. fine fine fine. i'll fill you in with more details if someone would reply my email and let me properly plan our last gathering before stephie yam mm leaves for US. =(

anyways, the story xianxian told me on the bus on the way home was way too stunning to leave me perpetually awake for most of the journey back. backed up with what qiqi said after we crossed custom, it was even more stunning and so i became energised for the rest of the night. =X it's like reading a novel and i never thought such a thing would happen to moi.

oh wells! the dream-like tale's going slow, fine, and well for the time being and i've no wish to complicate matters by accelerating it. so it shall progress at nature's pace so everyone will eventually make a happy choice. =] meanwhile, we will all enjoy ourselves! =)

okay, more updates about m'sia trip when the photos are uploaded by julyn, which won't be any time soon since she's gonna be away tmr or sth, and won't be uploading the photos until she gets back to ntu in one or two week's time. ha.

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then i finally met up with darling mabbie and gymed and shopped today! and so i was supposed to spend my $50 isetan voucher by 30th nov, which is like tmr, and tampines isetan was renovating, with nothing much to offer, so i'm still meeting darling mabbie tmr to shop at wisma isetan! hahaha. and i'm enjoying spending time with my darling again, coz it's been a long long time! =D

and we met a very very uber rude saleswoman today! *angry look* we went into her shop, and i was looking at this dress, and holding on to it so that i could look at other clothes first, then try it later. then the woman came walking over and went "NI YAO TRY HAR??" very rudely. then i was a lil' stunned so i just nodded and she took the dress from me without saying anything and hanged it in the dressing room. then i just took one more dress, which she took it from me rudely too and hung it in the dressing room. then i went in to try the dresses, and the first one wasn't really to my liking, so when i stepped out and she said it looked nice, i just smiled politely and thought about it for awhile before going into the room to change into the next dress. then i came out again with the much nicer dress, then mab and i were ooh-ing and ahh-ing over it, when she came over again, and went "hen mei ah!" then i asked whether got other colours anot she asked me to change out of the dress first, then come out and take a look. ?!? got lidat de service de meh =X then ok, i just stood and peered at the rack while mab went to get the dress and show me.. then i wanted to try another colour, but the one on display was M size (the one i had on was S size, which is a closer match to my size). then she went like "ni yao mai ma? ni yao mai wo cai na gei ni try!" then i was like huh?? like where got lidat de! never try properly how i know whether i want to buy anot! then she just thrusted me the colour i wanted in the wrong size and went "ni xian try na ge colour la!" then i gave her a very you-are-ridiculous look, then shoved the dressing room curtain shut buay-songly. then as i was changing, i heard her saying to her fellow shopkeeper "ni kan la. xian zai de ren jiu shi zhe yang. duo jiang ji ju dou bu ke yi!" wth!? okay, i wasn't sure whether she was talking about me, so i just kept my cool and walked out of the room with the M-sized dress of my desired colour. then mab and i both thought that S-size looked more fitting on me. and she came over again and went "zhe ge size ni cuan le bi jiao hao kan ma. zuo mo bu yao na zhe ge size??" then i alrdy uber pissed so i just kept quiet and continued staring into the mirror. then i turned to mab and said "i go in and try the other one again la. i think that one nicer." and she continued mumbling outside about how she didn't understand why i just don't want to take the M-sized one. duno who's the customer here and who's the one giving the money and wearing the dress. then when i came out in the previous dress and started looking in the mirror again, she went "ni ke yi xian kuai dian huan chu lai ma? bie ren yao yong na ge fang jian le" and i really got so super annoyed that i just glared at her hard and long then went in to change out. then i handed the dresses to her, and she asked "zen yang? yao mai na yi jian?" then i simply told her i'd like to take some time and consider first. then she gave me an uber black face and turned away. and i stormed out of the stop shouting wth! at the top of my voice. SO ANGRY!!!!! that was the lousiest service i've ever seen!! so lousy that i can dedicate one whole para of my blog to it! i'm NEVER buying anything from there despite the real pretty dresses! i dun pay my goods and SERVICES tax for nothing for goodness sake! *rolls eyes* and we went to the shop across with an UBER NICE salesperson and bought the clothes there instead, and left the shop so happily! HMPH!!!

okay, that totally ended my happy entry with a sour note. sigh.

mab: hahaaa! tt was so funnyyyyyyy. i can picture u doing that! -.-'' poem guy is so dots! lol. and your lit review of him is even weirder! =X

ernie: i accident prone la. u duno me meh. hahaa. YAY END OF EXAMS!! hahaha.

talz: yay! i'm ok le.. thanks!! hehee. i call u after i come back from m'sia! :)

yk: hahaa. not very interested~ i dowan to see liao make myself feel worse thanks.

pork: hahaha! yay! we must catch up after ur exams! hehe

yuyu: hahaaa. engine always end late.. lol.

mm: yes yes!! i wanna meet before you guys fly off! =(

beavan: I MISS YOU. i got so much to tell u!! wahahhaa

jren: yes i know! hahaha. jiayou jiayou! :)

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i had so much to blog abt. but everytime i start blogging, i'm too tired to blog alrdy. hahaha.

felt so excited as i stepped into civilisation today! all the xmas deco is up! SO HAPPY!!!! hahaha. i get excited seeing stuff like this when i've been deprieved for so long. hehee. after mugging with them for weeks, i still went to meet xian stephie jul. hahahaa. to get tix for tmr's bus ma. and we watched Enchanted!! SO NICEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! it's reallly uber duper nice. MUST WATCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! =D hehehee. so happy!

and we're leaving for m'sia tmr! yay. and since the whole world's been asking me this. i shall post it here so that i dun have to keep typing long sms-es.. haha

sun(25/11)-wed(28/11): malacca trip with manics
sat(01/12)-tue(04/12)(tentatively, tbc): grandma's hse at m'sia with parents
fri(07/12)-sun(09/12): chalet @ east coast with 8e!

hehee. okay i shall stop here. very lazy. ehee. tata! cya all when i cya all again! little miss sotong am off for her long hols that she toiled long and hard for! =)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Barnum statements! hahaa. i wonder if they apply to anyone else reading this.. ha.

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IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

and i am seriously shagged. slept for like 4+hrs only, and half of it was REM slp with multiple nightmares. O_O finally i get to slp in peace tonite. and since someone complained that i look exhausted, i shall slp early, coz i seriously AM exhausted. hahaa.

had our LAST dinner together with xian stephie jc @ can 16 zi char again!. =[ the mugging clan. ha. with the occassional ah gong stressing us.. i'm so gonna miss mugging with all of them. so niceee. and END OF TREX ROOM!! wheeee! =D no more 16hours a day there. but poor jc hafta study on his own tmr onwards liao.. hai. i think i'll feel so unmotivated if i were him! =X but i still couldn't resist suan-ing him before he got off the car. ahahahas. poor thang!

and i feel so blissful and contented being home again! (: and i wanted a life after exams, but we ended up eating in sch. and i wanted a life after i reach home, but i ended up doing the laundry. says much about tingting..contented with a simple life as long as she has the ppl she loves around her! :)

hehe. i got so much to tell everyone! but i shan't broadcast certain things on the blog. date me out! but you've gotta get a queue no. ahaaaa. =p

i really really miss everyone out there.

sigh. i never thought freedom would come too fast until ah gong put that thought into my mind. now freedom is here, it feels too fast with so many ppl still unfree. and i no longer get to see the mugging dahlings and whine to them every single day! and nice ppl who served me well while i injured my leg! =(

just a little sth weird to talk about before i clear my sleep debt. jc and xian were stoning in my room while i packed to go home after cognitive paper. then jc grabbed my personality tb, sat at the table and READ it very SERIOUSLY. omg. i was so stunned by that sight. and after my long bath, i came out and saw him still reading it so seriously. -_-''' and so i asked, "why of all textbooks, you chose such a boring one!" and he went like "boring!? you call this boring?! it doesn't even look like a textbook..looks more like a book. you should look at my textbook!" "...i know. tts why i've never bothered looking at yours." haha. (comp engine textbook i mean).

nwae, it occurred to me how i was so fascinated and awed by the intro to psych textbook when i was in year 1. and i figured maybe that was how jc felt when he read my personality tb. maybe after awhile we developed tolerance for it, and it became boring. but ppl who read 101010101 everyday finds it fascinating. BUT THEN ppl like me will NEVER find their 101010101 textbook more interesting no matter how many times of personality you make me read. hahaaa.

okay! i shall get some beauty slp to clear my ugly slp debt! (:

adieu! :)

here i am blogging and lam-ing kopi just after a cold bath, when it's less than 20 hours away from my last paper and under 24 hours away from liberation.

randomly blog surfed with my little time to spare, and saw everyone blogging about the agonies of exams. ha. seems that nobody ever loves exams nowadays. i think yk used to love exams, coz he's the free-est, with nothing to study during exams and not even tutorials to do, so can play dota all day long. aha. i wonder what you'll be like during uni exams. ha!

yes, exams are finally coming to an end tmr, and all the muggings will be silenced temporarily. it's horrible thinking about the hell we've been put thru' for the past two months or so. but it's heartwarming at the same time thinking about the ppl who've been around me through all these hard times and how we've laughed at each other silly while bored and exchanged pats and hugs while feeling discouraged. =)

exams are a torture. but they are a great time to learn and grow up, and appreciate the kindness and understanding of the ppl around you.

thank you lovelies! =)

jul: haha i'm not always in mugger's clique lor.. my clique always got nice mixture of ppl de.. this is the most stressful clique i've ever been in!! -.- and not i dowan to cry..is i ku bu chu lai =[

yami: oh tt day i had maths in the afternoon and genes at nite? nwae, was nice seeing you again! :D

fenfen: ok lorrrr. trex and you guys are my only motivation in 15. how sad! ahas.

yuyu: i SUPER wanna sing too!! hahaa.

temp bf: okokayyy! we go shopping with ernie too! wahaha.. i miss you! (:

mab: hahaa rare tagger!! *hugs back* you lucky girl! get to read your million and one piling up storybooks alrdy!! so excited to see you again! hahaa although i wasn't exactly in a good mood just now =X

qiqi: oh oh! another rare visitor! hahaaa. i see the blue moon rising!! :D hehee.. thankSsSsS!! and your fascination about qiqi recorded in the nick there is so funny.. wahaha. as long as u tag before with the same comp will be recorded liao ba. haha

hueyhui: rare tagger no. 3!! omg. so gan dong.. my tagboard suddenly so re nao.. thanks darling!! you jiayou too! ^^

ernie: talk to a softtoy!? wahahahaa... so funny coming from you.. sounds more like something i'll say to you! :D by the time you step out of the dentist then cannot talk to the softtoy liao, so you want me talk to it on your behalf rite.. hahahaa!!

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thanks for all the tags ppl! :) but if i replied them all on the tagboard then cannot see liao.. haha so..yeap.

another paper down. as in really seriously DOWN. i see my grade going into the drain. it's more depressing than linear algb or HRM or personality midterm.. it was actually so depressing that i didn't even bothered to compare answers after the paper. my mind was simply in a blank when i looked at the paper, and nothing came into mind. so many times midway of the paper, i wanted to simply give up and leave. never felt so discouraged before.

bwah!

am i like having a serious extended bout of pms or am i showing the initial signs of depression?

hahaa. sounds more like bipolar though. i think i was still going about squealing after the paper tt sharon was so stunned at my highness. -_-'''

FENFEN!! i'm so so SOOOOOOOOOO SORRY i shouted at you while 'running' for the bus :( guess i was really in a terrible mood and i found myself close to tears too when i shouted. felt so ultra bad after tt. sigh. *hugs fenfen* SORRY!!

we were so high after zichar@can16 ytd nite that we imitated the laughing therapy we saw in the textbook. it's basically raising your hands and going "HAHAHA! HEHEHE!" until it's contagious and everyone starts laughing. sheesh! so weird rite.. they actually have a laughing club doing that in India or duno where.. -_-''' and so we were laughing til my tummy hurts at xian's imitation tt i felt my leg twist and i found myself sitting on the floor, still laughing. -_-''' yes, i sprained my leg while doing supposedly laughing therapy. sigh.

and so i'm mafan-ing everyone going up and down and taking stuff for me and sending me back to my room to and fro the studyroom now. hahaa it's actually not tt serious considering my past feng fu spraining jing yan. but still.....it's a sprain. sigh.

initially i was thinking it wasn't tt bad a thing coz they always say "break a leg" for good luck to stage production or dance ppl before their big break. plus the last time i sprained/tore my ligament/fractured my leg, i got the best results i ever got in my entire history of jc exams (not including a levels). but today's paper just proved it wrong.

and doesn't help i'm slacking here typing rubbish again. ahahas. rollercoaster weeks like this are seriously draining the energy out of me.

thank you all my dear friends for caring for me! feel a xiao xiao de xin fu :)

for the first time in more than one and a half years since the big thing happened, (okay, maybe excluding times i quarrelled with my mum, and when my colleague passed away), i actually came close to tears.

and it wasn't even over a guy or silly soap operas, it was about books.

and the sotong told herself a hundred and one times after the big thing happened that she's strong and she's gonna be independent and she's not gonna crumple so easily. and for more than one and a half yr she actually successfully semi-repressed the unhappy stuff (except on occassions when the gorilla irritatingly reminded her), took the stresful stuff with a pinch of salt, and went on with her life grinning sillyly at everyone else.

and no, she wasn't grinning for fun; she was seriously enjoying life, until....she started mugging like two months ago or sth. and she mugged and mugged and mugged, and she sucked and sucked and sucked, and she can't finish, even up til' now when's it's less than 48hours away from the paper, and there's still so much uncovered.

and Ah Gong, you can seriously stop feeling bad about it. =] that session seriously helped, although eating subway infront of me was seriously too much.. *sheepish look* aha. but after that, i just started to feel the tension building up..ANXIETY!! ahahas. but i guess without that session, the anxiety would still have came in one point or another. so don't worry about that! (though i dun tink you're reading anyway. aha)

but back to the point, i nearly broke down in tears right there. but somehow, after more than one and a half years, i find that i've lost my ability to cry even at such times when i seriously wish i could just cry and vent all my frustrations and anxiety.

instead, i can't even lash out my emotions the way i used to freely, more than 2 years ago. i used to cry on a regular basis since the moment i could cry, right up til' j2 or sth. even when i was in jc, i was still like crying at least once every 1or2 months or sth. so if you had known me before i came to uni, you would DEFINITELY have seen me cry before(sounds like julyn!! -_-'''). but if you've known me after uni, chances are you would have assumed that i'm tough in times of great emotional distress.

initially i was proud of my ability to get past the one and a half years so independently (and with the help of my dear friends of coz) and meaningfully. but today, when i tried not to cry and tried to cry all at the same time, the resolve crumbled.

the first person who came into my mind as usual didn't care two hoots, and the other person i called was expectedly, of not much help. and it was too late to call the rest, and i didn't know what to say to the two nice and understanding ppl looking at me with concern. so i solved it by how the ppl who attempted suicide solved their problem commonly - i escaped.

and i thought it was alright taking a break, and look for a outlet to express my dismal. but as i sit here typing, and as the entry gets longer and longer, my superego starts eating me up again.

but when i start flipping the books, the id reproaches me for not taking a break, and ego compromises by NOT absorbing anything i'm reading. i've such a screwed up ego that it oughta just land itself in the bin beside me.

i really need a hug now. but i can't find anyone in this miserable place to give me one.

To my lovelies mugging out there!

dun despair if you're doing below your expectations ok! we've gotta keep trying harder and harder! i really know how it feels when all your friends around you are doing so well and yet your results are sucky like hell (unfortunately, i come from a smart+mugger clique. haha). and i certainly know how it feels when you're putting in the same amount of effort as them, or even more, yet you perform worse.

i wouldn't deny the fact that some ppl are just inevitably more talented than me. but i wouldn't resign myself to the sucky grades i get either. after many many failures and setbacks, i'm still telling myself i'll get there if i continue working hard, and hopefully, working smart.

we may never get the many many A+s that they are getting, but at least the grades will be justifiable to the amount of effort we've put in.

and it would be good to step back once in awhile and review the situation; perhaps we're pushing ourselves too hard, and we really need a break; perhaps we simply set astronomically high expectations for ourselves (reach for the moon, so that you'll at least fall for the stars is but a myth; we all know that the stars are higher than the moon..); maybe we all used to do well, and wanna continue doing well, but when you did so well tt you hardly have space to fall back on, taking things with a pinch of salt would be healthier. on a brighter note, when you're doing not as well, you have more room for improvement! :)

okay, call it unrealistic optimism, or call it self-deception. but white lies are meant to be healthy! :)

jiayou jiayoU! as jiaying baobei and fishsee jiejie says respectively...
"world war 3 is coming!!"
"必胜!!"

and don't forget to take breaks in between.. don't overwork yourself and fall sick ok! *hugs all my lovelies* =)

kong bah bao is NOT replying my email after DAYS!! *takes out dagger and glares menacingly*

2 papers down!! *phew*

don't feel particularly happy though. just felt rather stoned after genes.. it was supposed to be an easy paper for most i guess.. but i just didn't studied enough i think.. and alot of things studied could not be retrieved from secondary memory either. sigh.

maths was alrite i suppose.. i duno wad to feel about it. hell, it wasn't easy.. but then it wasn't more difficult than past year paper either.. thing is my roomie said last yr's paper was too ridiculous liao, tts why they changed the lecturer and all tt this sem. hmmmm. hopefully will be alrite lor. dun dare to hope for much le.

i think i'm just aiming to maintain my results this sem.. no more lofty aspirations. just trying to maintain this standard is an airy-fairy enough dream. sometimes i wonder if i would be happier if it were like sec 2, when i did so badly tt i easily jumped a huge leap when i started doing well in sec 3. hai.

ppl tell me i'm stressing myself too much. but you'll be in shock when u see the 90 over more stressed up and uptight ppl around me. whoever said that psych will be easy must be crazy. sigh. it's time-consuming, energy-draining, depressing and happy. hahahahaa.

oh well. happy thing today is going back to hall 6! heh. had a paper at src at nite.. so went to look for Roomie after my first paper! hehee. so happyyyy. that is, returning to a hall 6 room again, and eating and chatting with Roomie! (: hehe. i reallly miss that place alot, esp. after going back today. the room is so so so much better than this sucky room here. sighhh. and i miss meals with Roomie and our dear Pink Stool. =)

so tired. so stoned. so grumpy. so relieved. so miss and hate gorilla.

sigh.

off to lala land. i think i deserve a break from all that shit. so do you all. rmb to rest well peeps! :) nites

my 3rd nephew came on saturday morning, 10th nov! he celebrated his birthday with gaigai and brandon! :)

i went home on saturday nite, came back to hall sunday nite, and stayed in hall instead of studying out after that. so now i've virtually done only ONE chapter of revisions since i left and came back. i'm so never studying in hall/at home again!!

i finally regained contact with the black box, mummy's food and my darling bed again.
now i'm re-exposed to the lappie, stale crackers and the unwelcoming bed again.
sigh.

i am a semi-happy girl with a lot of new songs from roomie, but little work done on my own part. id knocked off and superego's working overtime now. but ego decided to let me off to slp.

huiting is so screwed.

huiting is contented.

huiting is sleepy.

huiting misses Gorilla.

hahaa. tt was like Facebooking lahhh. -_-'''

bonsoir~

weird stuff are happening..


One fine evening, 3 contented girls were seated at the bus stop, waiting for the bus. they started stoning at the greeneries across the road, when x piped up:
"the 树 looks like it got 长 more 树 at night leh."
t&f exchanged looks and went HAHAHAHAHAAA.
x: what so funny! why you'all always laugh at what i say!!
t: "the 树 looks like it got 长 more 树 at night leh." hahahhaaaaaaa. so dumb!
x: HAHAHHAHAHAAAAAHA!! *joins in the laughter*
t: as if the tree branches can sprout into more trees!
x: OH!!! HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. no wonder you'all laugh until lidat! i didn't realised you'all were laughing about my sentence!!! HAHAHAHAHA. so funny!!
t&f: ?!? -_-'''


Then one early morning, some of the manics were seated in the tut room while waiting for the tutor to come. and we started chatting happily and recounting funny events to each other. then suddenly, when we mentioned something and started laughing, this loud hearty laughter sounded from the row behind. 5 heads turned to the source of laughter, and the source of laughter grinned back:
"sorry, i think it was very funny. hahahaa"
"you eavesdropped! so terrible!!"
"eah, eavesdrop also dun laugh so loud ma!!"
"sorry sorry... but really very funny.. hahahaaaha"

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And the dinner with qiqi, who always give the i-am-amused-by-myself/oh-i-actually-made-them-laugh face when she says something funny..
t: oh i ordered horfun with gravy, but they say somebody cancelled the order for beehoon with gravy and they cooked already, so they asked me if i minded having that instead, then i just ok lor.
d: but you mind anot?
t: ok la. haha. i anything de..
JY: next time you go order you say "aunty! 给我一盘 Random!"
t: ?? -_-''' hahaa
d: ya lor ya lor. then when the thing come and is covered one. then you open the lid and will have the "SURPRISE!!!!!"(q says this together..)
t: uhhhhhhhhhhh *raises eyebrow amusedly*
JY: yah lor yah lor! then later open up.. wahhhhhhhhhhhhh so nice!
q: yah yah! later open up.... wahhhhhh! 苍蝇 leh!!
hahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa. -_-'''



And there was the usual mugging session that ended up warped.. i think it's xian's fault. conversations always turn out weird with her around. (for a better definition of warped, pls refer to her blog).

t: x!! u know the trichotillomania(TTM, or "trich" as it is commonly known, is an impulse control disorder characterized by the repeated urge to pull out scalp hair, eyelashes, facial hair, nose hair, pubic hair, eyebrows or other body hair. - www.wikipedia.com)... *quotes from tb* "in some cases, they chew or swallow the hair they pull out" leh! eeeeeew! so gross!!
x: you duno meh...
t: and somemore they pull out hair not only from scalp lor, also from other body parts like eyebrows, beard, .... EEEEEEK!
x: ya what.. lecturer got say ma.. got one guy pulled out his leg hair..
t: ouch!!!! so gross.... still got what?
x: hahaa! maybe they can pull out their chest hair!
all: EEEEEEEEW!!! x_x
x: haha! i shall try out the pulling out leg hair on s(her bf)!
all: HAHAHAA OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SICK!!
t-j: you better go warn your buddy.. *shakes head*
j: hahahaa ya ya. hai.
t: and i suddenly feel so normal! phew*
all: hahaa..
t-j: and your 'ex' actually actually dumped you for this type of girl! hai...
j: HEY! maybe you can pull out one by one and go "he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not"
all: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
x: ok, no wonder he dumped you. i feel more normal now.

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and we were talking nonsense and recounting previous jokes as usual..
t: x is so horny! i'm gonna tell s!!
x: he already know liao what.
all: ?
t: uhhh... tt sounded very wrong leh.... *trying very hard not to laugh*
all: *starts laughing* (don't ask me why the lag)
x: what! he already knows that i'm horny what!!
all: *laughs even harder*
t: it's ok. you really don't have to tell us about it.. you can keep it to yourself.
x: what!!! i meant he knew about the horny joke (refer to last time's entry) about me la!!!
all: *laugh until siao*



::KEY::
x: the grossly wrong one.
s: x's bf. the one who is perpetually appearing in our convo, although he's never there.
f: the i-look-innocent-but-am-evil one.
q: the not-so-funny funny one.
d: q's bf. the one always deprived of food by t.
JY: the chek ark ah gong who found his accomplice today; he finally can pair up with someone to bully t.
j: x's bitter rival in love; got dumped by s. the even-more-chek-ark accomplice JY found.
t: the root of all evil. =)

Roomie rocks!!! so sweet and so funny of her! heh heh. i really really uber miss her and hall 6! it feels like i'm returning to an empty shell every night to study and slp nowadays. it's different from the sense of belongingness i get living there i guess.

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all the quizzes are back, and patterson's actually the one who made my day. how ironic. i should start cursing all the lecturers next time i study, so that i'll get good grades consistently. ha.

so tired from all that mugging. i know i say this in every entry, but it's pretty much what predominates myour life now. sad, isn't it?

was regressing to mummy thru' the phone last nite and just now. regressing about my poor hair, and how gorgor is perpetually free-er than me when he's studying. how strange. it doesn't seem to be just me stressing myself out, coz' everyone around me justifies my kiasi-ness. but since primary school gorgor's been much more relaxed than me when it comes to studying; either he's smarter or he manages his time well or he just manages stress well. sigh.

same womb, different life.

been rethinking about this whole psychology thing for the whole wkend. everything's not heading the way i wanted it to. you may say things don't always go as smoothly as you want them to, and all that blahblah stuff, but i just don't like it when it deviates so much that it becomes hard to direct it back on track again.

yes, if i don't get my 2nd upper, i could go ahead and change my specialisation to some non-psych field. but what would you do if you have to give up a dream that you worked so much for and chased for just a little under ten years?

dreams, are just dreams,
when they're stuck inside your head.

Huiting's 5 stages of grieving

[Stage 1 - Denial]: NO WAYYYYYYY!! i SO do NOT have IT.
[Stage 2 - Anger]: *pulls hair trichotilomanially* shit. wth. DAMN IT!! look what psych did to me!!! (All Psych Majors, 2006).
[Stage 3 - Bargaining]: if you take IT away from me, i promise i'll sleep early, eat more healthy stuff, stop studying(actually, maybe not), and give IT more conditional preferential treatment.
[Stage 4 - Depression]: just leave IT alone! *pouts sulkily*
[Stage 5 - Acceptance]: FINE. i'll quit school, marry a rich guy, and dye IT all PINK!!!

=(

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as i stepped out of the mrt station, i had the urge to stay rooted and drink in all the familiar sights and smells - homemade bread wafting past the nostrils, mingled with the all-too-familiar stench of boys-in-green; the ongoing cheap sales at the atrium; the many bicycles parked along the railings; the waiting cars along the road with the two blinking orange lights; the boys and girls clothed in tee and berms with their duffles, waiting inpatiently for the rest to turn up.

as i struuted along the familiar bicycle track once again, the noisy train whizzed past, kids raced with the bicycles, and secondary school boys swagger and hoot with laughter.

the simple things that i never bothered to take a second look at or frown at, suddenly all seemed too much to take in.

and the sight of mummy was such a relief and bliss. all she did was take a look at me, and the next day i got all my favourite food smacked right in front of me. and the subtle signs of encouragement and soft naggings to sleep early all seemed abnormally soothing.

hmmmm... just a big hug before the long ride back to the deserted island.

girl, you're on your own again.

be strong.

so weird!!

YALOR!

can die!!

ya lor ya lor.

and i finally get to catch my breath, sit down and blog.

life's been a hectic doing nothing but mugging.

SORRY if i keep not replying ppl on msn.. sometimes i just leave my lappie on then go bathe or go down to study, so didn't catch you'all. =(

i miss my non-ntu friends!! or rather, my non-psych frens! :( haven't been seeing you'all for quite some time already. haiii. so siannnnnnnnnnnnn.

on a brighter note, i've been seeing the manics ALOT. hahahaa. =D

oh and i received a call from hall 6 ytd, offering me a room! *grins* but i think i'll prob reject it la.. so many frens over here le.. go there hafta readapt again and all, though i know it wouldn't be that big a problem.. i really really love hall 6 environment and ppl!! (: hahaha. i think the only thing i'll miss here are the manics, the toilet and.....TREX ROOM!! wahaha. what did u think i was going to say?? The New One? nah! that's stephie's New One, not mine liao. *WHEEEE!* i'm so freed of scandal #2! *grins*

OH AND I CAUGHT STEPHIE AND THE OLD ONE RED-HANDED TODAY!!! *SO HAPPY!* ^^

mugging in LWN is falling back into the old routine again. this time there's a slight change in members though.. xianxian tingting fenfen wluekwluek(double vomits! hahaa~) remain constant, The New One is gone, and The Supermarket The Toolbox The Boyfriend joins in The Fun. -_-'''

i'm incoherent. after one whole day of Language Rules, i'm still incoherent. so what's the point of confusing me in the first place! *pouts* =(

i'm so sick of studying, but i've hardly started.

ytd was proclaimed Manic Pek Chek Day by jul!
:: jul- pek chek about studying!
:: ting- pek chek about studying + somebody meddled with my laundry in the washing machine so i had to wait until 2am before it was properly done + drastic changes to RA schedule, wrecking MY schedule as well!
:: jy + hh- pek chek about BOB's rigidity and delaying their go home time.
:: bobo + mm- pek chek about BOB and BOBF's yuckiness + stats proj.
:: fenfen- pek chek about not being able to figure out the preview of the decision making chapt.
--> okay, hopefully xian and qi were happy ppl ytd! hahaa~

dinner was a riot today! hahaa. we had 8 ppl on the table! o_o first time so re nao (not including manic lunchtimes~)! hahaha. and jul tried to confuse everyone with her coin trick but ended up getting confused by us! then stephie just got confused by everyone as usual~ but funniest is cy and wz...they PRETEND to know what's going on until in the end everyone figured out le they still duno!! HAHAHAAAA~

hai. i blog until nothing to blog liao lor. dl-ing song now so slow. ntu is the worst place to dl songs! and to top it all, my hair is not dried yet and i can't slp! *regresses*

oh ya.. sidetrack abit.. the more i talk to qiqi the more i'm starting to unveil her hidden sense of humour! woooohoooooooooo! she is actually VERY funny can. wahahha! and this shows that i'm finally not drowning her in my voice this sem. *sheepish look* eh heh.

on the contrary, the more i interact with stephie, the more unstunningly evil i realise she is! hahahaa. she asked Toolbox such a close-ended(according to cy..) qn!! - "Are you treating or do we have to pay you back?" omg! so classic i swear~ we were all so unstunningly stunned by her. O_O i'm so gonna be careful never to offer to buy drinks for stephie!!

yay! going home tmr evening! WHEEEEEEEEE!! (:

hafta mug mug mug first though. hai.

ppl jiayou alrite! dun so stress!! although i also very stressed myself.. but dun give yourself so much pressure pls! everything will be fine..in awhile, all will be over! :) gambate! aja aja fighting! 加油! bon chance! 干肉tea!! hahahaa~