i'm sadddddddddddddddd.

n i duno whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

=(


sadness is contagious?

bleahhhhhhhhhhh.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. this is the supidest thing i have ever doneeeee. i'm like wearing earpiece at home cuz stupid huiyu n ernie want me to learn sing shan hu hai for kbox. n i'm like. cnnt really catch lara's tune from listening... so listen to ear phones n sing. n it's like damn difficult to sing i dunno how to catch the tuneeeeeeeee. HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!! -_-'''

=)

hahahha. stupid ytd. stupid today. =X

ok first of all i dunno how. i became dotty's clown. -_-''' 100kilo cents per sms i entertain him with. so like. he's suppose to pay meeeeeee!!! LAME~

ok then secondly... the office ppl r like hell breaking lose le. HAHA. [okkk i really really cnnt sing lara's parttttttttttttt!!] yeap. wl bot camera ytd. so they started taking pics.. first was juz debbie n i! ^^ then they started posing arnd the weird colleague of mine. -_-''' n it became so baddd n hilarious. i duno wat to say... really really duno wat to say... hahaha i luff until i want to peng. cuz like was very irritated for the whole day le finally something funny happening. ok why was i irritated? cuz the boss like talk talk talk the whole day... then not talk on the phone jiu shi nagggggg. n she talks damn loud. so like. cnnt concentrate lo. irritating. n the worse thing is i sitting beside the weird colleague. n she talks to herselffffffffffffffffff. that's worse. so i'm like kp running out of the room to take breaks cuz i'm like going crazy with two talking non-stop kukus. urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh! n wat's the even cock-er thing?? i put my earpiece beside my cup. n it somehow got tangled with the string of my teabag. so when i grabbed the earpiece hard in frustration...... the teabag FLEW OUT OF THE CUP N LANDED ON MY KEYBOARDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! omgggggggggg. n like.... wth?? -stunned-(SC) then the tea sipped in btw the holes of my keyboard n the keyboard haywire the characters that i type dun tally with the keys i pressed!! argh. so clara din came n i went to use her comp instead.... then today i go back to work the keyboard totally cnnt work anymore!!!!!!!!!! OMG. hahahah. then ok my shifu help me. he ask me change the keyboard with another comp that noone using de... wahahahaha. ok so now noone knows there's tea in the keyboard. *shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. =X

ok then beavan n cindy n i finally get to go out tmr!!!! WHEEEEEEEEE~~~ ^^ yay! beavan i can finally show u which baby shark i want for my bdae!! wahaha... n u can start estimating how much that fish tank @ wisma will cost!! wahahahahaaaaa.......... -_-'''

woooooooooo~ starting to get high!

oh YAH. stupid yuyu n ernie!! they dun lemme slp ytd nite!!! ='( we were conferencing n i very tired le want to go n slp. THEN THEY DUN LEMME GO!!! :'( :'( then ernie kp making fun of meeeee!! stupid daddy!! i call bert dun give u rice cake lo!! -nehh- HMPHHHHHHHHHH. n he keep tryng to psycho me to say that he is shuai!! which is why i woke up with a nose 1m long today morningggggggggggg. MUAHAHA. ok watever~ then huiyu worse lo. she like.. "gei ta qu shui la.." then she still kp laughing.......... -_-''' then argh. i forgot wat happened le. tink i was like slp talking half the time. =X

LALALA. yayyyy. wkend looooooooooo!! :)

hahaha. i finally get to bloggg. everytime wan blog then haf to talk at the same time so confusiing. so i blog rubbish instead.

ok yeap. erm. ytd.. worked ot.. today.. still work ot. hahaha. so sian.

oh btw!! my first baby newphew was born ytd evening!! ^^ went to see him @ KK today. lol. like less than 5min away from my office.. so i went at lunch break. so cute!! ^^ n very healthy... yay~ =)

erm... yah. sorry guys cnnt go kbox with u'all today.... my boss very strict now le. n the stupid manager keeps picking on us now. so cnnt give him chance to pick! =[ so we very ke lian now zzz...

nwae thanks guys for singing my list of songs in my loving memory!! hahaha. yay~ n i duno how the hell i managed to climb above ni men liang ge de wu ding... but nvm. hahaha. i shall not attempt to find out. =X

erm. yea. got so many things to blog about. but suddenly cnnt tink properly. hahaha. too many windows blinking! :p erm.

oh yah. juz found out something ytd... clara told me that when i juz joined the company alot of ppl dun like me cuz i too outspoken le. hahahaaaa. erm win le lo.... -_-''' i very outspoken meh? i tot at that time i still quite reserved de. =X i tink i'm more outspoken now lo... juz that i learn to kp a low profile in a mo sheng de di fang le... hahaha. but yea. i rather be high with frens who accept the so-called 'outspoken' me.. which i dun rmb wat i was like then le. ahhaha. nvm. mayb i was just too noisy! nvm. i'm not staying there for long nwae.. i'll move on n find new frens! n move on to kp in touch with my good frens! ahahas. jus kp low profile for now =)

hahahha. okkk. i'm like so sia dao!! suddenly so many tags overnight!! okk shall reply here... haha.


cindy: lol. ok i shall leave a slot for u too! wahaha... n i still tink is SUPER sweet!! ahahas. i want to steal ur voice boxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. lol. watever~ so out of pt... hahhaa.

dotty: OI. not supposed to be funny lo! hahaha. but i tink it sounds quite funny too. lol. but the tone when i wrote that was supposed to be melancholic. ahahas. i lit student leh. want read my blog muz learn to detect tone!! wahhaha.

yuyu: heyy! i reserve slot esp. for u still dun call meeeeeeeee. ='( win liao lo... got daddy den dowan me le..... boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! :'(

ernie: HAHA. wat's the link with donate $5??? lol. hahaha. i still have to pay phone bill lo.... hahah. ok mayb my dad pays. but the idea is there. hahahhaha.

temp bf: hahaha. temp staff de welfare duneed to be so good de... n u dun even want to buy seaweed for my baby shark i gif u money for wat?? LOL. hahaha no i didn't blog short blogs bcoz of the quickies. hahahha. but they really super crap until i notting to sayyyyyyyy. ur fellow GAYSHA lo. hahaha. faster gif him rice cake or he come pester me againnnnn. lol. hahahahaa. i nv even reveal ur size loooo. u say urself de :p hahahahaha. yah ur future that one really super no link n kan bu dongggg. hahaha! so ur skills is only ban tong shui..... WOOOOOOOOOO~ :p


hahahahahaa. reply tags oredi tk so long. hahaha. nwae am on e phone w beavan now. n guess wat? i'm on hold... n guess why???? cuz they r having PUSH UP COMPETITION!!!! like wth?? hahahaah so lamneeeeeeeeeeeeee. ok he's back. n bo chup wonnnnn. LOL. okkkk fine. he's brushing his teeth now. zzzzzzzz............ everyone who talks to me like to brush their teeth on the phone... -_-'''

okk. today was quite screwed upppp. cuz i happen to miss a stupid jerk... hahahaha. okkkkk. so many ppl badmouthing him in camp i heard... *shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. =X

hahahahaha. ok i forget wat i'm supposed to blogg. okkkkk. somebody's bunkmate is turning crazyyyyyyyyyyyy. =X

hahaha i'm duper lazy to blog long blogs.. lalala~

nwae.. if u'all realise.. today is jieru n yk's ONE MONTH!! wahaha.. means is me n yk OFFICIAL breakup one month plus one day.... -_-'''

hahaha lame. yeap. so sms him today morning to wish him happy one month. ahahas. dun ask me why i did that.. i oso duno.. nvm~ not impt.. hahaha. so he called n we chatted for about 10min.... yayness(ec)! yah nothing much la.. juz chat abt uni n stuff.. n he asked stupid questions... haha to find out the full contents of wat we chatted about.. pls call n chat with me... lol. cuz i'm too lazy to blog about it.. MUAHAHA. -_-"""""""

yeap. then today the company supervisor n manager shouting at each other... quarrel over stupid stuff... like putting up posters... -_-''' then it became big fight... which include slamming doors n screaming at each other.. banging tables n blah. n poor clara n i were simply trying to eat our lunch n they shouting rite in front of me cum behind clara. hahaha. so we quickly eat finish n went downstairs while they were still screaming.... so scary........ office politics again! =X ok to find out the content of the whole quarrel pls call me to chat... hahaha. cuz i'm too lazy to blog the whole thing down too! wahahaa. yeap nwae.. was downstairs.. then soon mroe ppl came back from lunch n like the whole world know about the quarrel le dun dare to go up... then this 2 perm staff come back ask why we gathering downstairs.. then we say upstairs warring.. then they were like.. "orh.... xi guan jiu hao la.. bu yong pa de.. ni men ying gai liu zai lou shang kan xi ma..." wahahaha~ -_-"""""" so lame~

okkkk. so-so day la... abit sorrowful but nvm. hahaha.

oh yah... ppl.. if u'all need someone to talk to when u'all to depressed or wat... PLS CALL ME!! preferrably at nite la of cuz.. when i'm back from work... erm.. i going to become telephone operator liao... 9.30-10.30 slot for beavan.. after 11 for huiyu n occasionally ernie.. then erm.. u'all can call before 9.30 bah... haha... i tink i sound stupid.. -_-''' actually u'all can just call anytime.. if it's urgently depressing i'll talk to u'all instead of them! MUAHAHA. ok i'm supposed to sound serious but it ended up sounding weirdly not funny. nvm... just take my word seriously... call me if u nid someone to chat with! =)

yayyy~ I WANT A BABY SHARK FOR MY BDAE!!! preferably the one at the wisma fishtank that likes to long pia... hahahha. he's juz so0o0o0o0o0 cuteeeeeeeeeee! ^^yayness!(ec) heex...
mab get me a baby shark for my bdae n i'll get u a kitten for urs! ^^
beavan get me the fish tank for my baby shark n i'll cont chatting with u every nite! ^^
bert get me the seaweed n all that stuff for my baby shark's tank n i'll promote myself to b ur wife so that mab can become ur mistress legally! ^^
huiyu ernie get the water for my baby shark's tank n i'll promote both of u become my mummy daddy!!! ^^
CHUA YEOW KHENG chop urself up to minced meat to feed my baby shark n i'll give u the privilege of ridding the world of a nuisance!! wahaha... dun worry i'll gif u roses every yr at the tomb... =)

hahaha. ok i shall stop blogging QUICKIES. -_-''' it's amazing how 2guys can amuse themselves with just one word. ahahas. =X

yeap. went to celebrate ada's bdae ytd! yayness~(ec) hahaha. met mab n shuwen in the morning for breakfast first.. den went down orchard tog... looked for her lit bk all that. hahaha. i tink i'm quite pro finding my way arnd kino! lol. finally there's a place i wun get lost! ^^ ok nwae.. met lj after that.. then albert.. then huixian.. then bdae gal came last!! hahaha. oh yea.. nwae.. shopped for her present.. then bot this necklace.. plus TAROT CARDS. ahahas. suits her la~ yeap. then we ended up playing with the cards ourselves! lol. n bert was like telling my fortune.. which i think is quite eerie. hahaha. =X cuz like ada say until so scary alot of rules lidat. =X then erm i duno is bert's skills lousy or wat.. but yeap. some of the things he predicted or watever u call that r true.. n some r no link. hahaa. most disturbing thingy: i supposed to shuffle the cards n think to myself wat i want to ask.. then bert shuffled n blah then opened the cards for me.. then like.. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ALL SO GOOD!!! hahaha. the problem being... i was asking about jieru n yk? HAHA. -_-"""""""""""""""""""""" ok nvm. it's kinda disturbing. but nvm.. at least while they r together they wun go kajiao the rest of us n make life difficult. i sound mean...but i cnnt b bothered anymore yea? =X but yah.. seriously.. as an ex/ex-'jiemei'..i hope they will last.. =) at least he'll b much happier with her! ok actually they r much happier with each other than blahblahblah. okok dun say le. tan ex shang gan qing~ hahaha. -_-'''

yeap. then went pepper lunch for dinner!! ^^ ok la. very nice.. but the price abit steep. then i think we r all trying to get fat or soemthing izzit.. still go tcc lo.. haha eat lo.. eat so much.. eat until bert cnnt fit into his topman jeans!! MUAHAHA. ok i shan't laugh.. the nxt one bgursting out of da jeans will b me.. -_-''' -exerciseeeeeeeeeeeeeee- hahaha.

oh ya saw alot of sa ppl ytd! sisi.. joyce.. yulan's fren(forget wat's her name haha..)... like wow... so many ppl working at orchard!! hahaha. cool~

bleah. went to dentist juz now finally. ok the dentist was quite nice.. altho he is doctor CHUA. hahaha. yeap. but like quite good la.. he showed me my teeth which part wat which part wat... blahblahblah. n he says my gum condition ish goooooood!! ^^ ahahas. erm..but got ONE decay at the molar tooth there..(is that wat u call it? hahaa) erm yah.. then he explain why my front teeth there got the brown brown thing.. n tell me how to get rid of it if i wan to all that... but i tink i'll do that next time ba.. it's more of cosmetic dentistry de.. so muz wait until got money le then can afford.... hahahha. but yeap. quite cool la~ altho i hate the way he cleaned my teeth. he like probably yanking my mouth open. hahaha. ok mayb i open too small watever~ oh yah.. this little boy went in b4 me with his dad.. then he came out the dad like announcing to the rest of the clinic how the doctor yanked out the tooth for the boy. n i was like uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. *shivers* hahaha but like got inject anaesthesia n blah de la.. but it was still kinda freaky looking at him exaggerate the whole thing. esp. when he say 1/2way the doctor came out n call me go in. ARGHness(ec)!! lol.

so siannnnnnnn. duno whether going out later not hahaha. zzzzzzz. ok shall go eat my lunch first ba~ wooooooo. oh btw i'm supa broke leeee. the stupid dental thingy was damn exxxxxxxxxx. =X

ok i shall quickly blog a quickie. hahaha

ok going to my godsis's one month(man yue) dinner @ arnd 8... hahaha. wooo hoooo~ ^^

ok ytd i weighed myself.. n i realised i lost THREE KG!! wowwwww. -stunned- as in three kg in less than a month! hahaha. muz b depression. or someone explain to me how i can possibly lose so much weight by jogging like less than 5times n doing thigh-sculpting exercises... hahaha. -_-'''

okkk today eye candy was SUPER BAD!! ahahas. he made my weird colleague cryyyy! =( so mean... i ask him dun kajiao her le.. then he okok le then 5min later go kajiao again... ARGH!! baddddddddddddd.

ok i gtg le. hahaha. very long nv blog so short post le. wooo hooo~

on a side note. i'm pissed n sad n hurt AGAIN. hahaha. but nvm~ it'll all be over! :)

hahaha. ok i shall blog while noone pesters me to chat YET! =p

ok today was 1/2sad 1/2happy. hahaha. firstly.. was quite sad in the morning.. cuz very sleepy.. then my darling debbie nv come so i very sian... hahaha. n alot of stuff to do. n eye candy says will have OT today... so i was like sianED(EC?)... hahaha. then er(EC),san(SC),si(FC)... hahaha ok i tink only ernie n huiyu understands my blog.. -_-''' ok i shall be more understoodable(can i make this SC? haha)... yeap. so was so sian le. n oso my right ankle there that time the ligament tear there started to pain since i went jogging on monday.. n it didn't got better.. so i was feeling quite rotten! =( then yk called me. then kenna suan by me for THE WORD thingy. muahaha. then i was busy so hung up after awhile. then he sms me again to explain. then i got pissed off. so i rebutted him until siao. then he replied at like noon lo.. then he apologised all that. then ok i cheered up abit! haha cuz i dun like to b mean to him but sometimes he's simply qian ma. ahahas. ^^ ok so hopefully we r still frens? is that good or bad? zzz... nwae.. then clara came!! n she bot the tio glutton CHOCOLATE ECLAIR for me!! *wooooots* hahaha we both love it! yayness(EC)! cuz that time we at orchard both waiting for our own frens to come.. then she like abit sad lidat kp complaining to me.. so when she walked off to somewhere else to buy stuff n i go tio glutton buy my lunch i shun bian bot one chocolate eclair for her to cheer her up.,. hahaha. yay~ so today i got one too! n so zhun.. i needed to b cheered up too! ^^ so it pays to b kind sometimes.. LALALA~ =D

yeap. then nothing much le. eye candy bluff me.. in the end no OT! sorry ernie.. or else can go out with u le.. bleahh. but by the time i found out was like knocking off le.. n mummy already cook dinner at home le.. =X

yayness(EC)!! celebrating ada's bdae on saturday! muahaha. fun n broke day i think~ hahaha. sounds weird =X yayyyy. then going out with ernie n mayb huiyu on sunday... that is if the zoo tix available! ahahas. or else i'm stuck with ernie alone!! *ARGHNESS(EC)* lol. daddy going to torture me!! ^^ he'll make me watch him do BABA CRUNCHES!! muahaha. as usual only 2 ppl understand me. sorry~ i'll try to blog more in point! hahaha. but for now i gtg le...

yayness(EC)! beavan coming out soon! lalala~ i got one more person to irritate!! ^^

ok i got SO MANY things to blog about!

sunday pork n jess came my hse to do their uni application.. duno for wat though haha.. cuz pork comp spoil or something i understand... but she can go jess hse do de.. then they both come my hse to do... HAHA. they like to travel? lol. nwae.. thanks for coming gals.. took my mind off unhappy stuff!! ^^ *hugs* yeap. then went to toa payoh after that... funny choice of place. hahaha. ate pizza hut! :) then uhh walked arnd.. tired le go TALK AT LIBRARY. so lame~ hahaha... of all places to talk we talk at the LIBRARY..... lol. then went home at 6+... stupid me took bus 88... reach home at 8+... hahaha n worse thing is my hp low batt... so i slp 1/2hr wake up le still at duno amk or buangkok.. so ask beavan call to entertain me.. then entertain until hp low batt cut off le i still rotting at hougang.... -_-'''

but still... happy day!! thanks gals.. u'all are just so sweet!! ^^

ok monday was juz back to normal work day le.. n beavan went back to camp le... zzz. one less person to crap with every nite! =( haha but nvm.. he's still coming out soon.. no confinement.. yayness(ec)! ^^

oh had this pleasant surprise! was working ytd afternoon then beavan suddenly called n ask me for my address all that n blah particulars! then i like huh? then he said need to fill in BEST FRIEND'S particulars n he want to put ME!! ^^ yaynesssssssssss(EC)!!! ahahahas. SO HONOURED! ^^ yayyyyy! which means i got TWO BEST FRIENDS NOW!! wheeeeeeee~ was so happy! hahaha. 2 best friends + alot of many many other super good friends = huiting is a happy xingfu xiao nu ren! :) [ok xingfu xiao nu ren suppose to b me n jieru like j1 dec... BLEAH.] nwae.. yeap. back to the main point. me am just super happy! hahaha. nwae.. was telling mab last nite.. n she was SO JEALOUS! muahahha. i bet beavan is jealous too! lalala~ best friendS!! pls go out with me together one day? hahaha. so that i can stand in the middle let u'all catfight over me!! MUAHAHA.

hahah nwae.. yah.. was chatting with debbie n she says she thinks i will make a GOOD GF!!! *wooooooooooots* hahaha.. THANKS! lol. oh well! mayb she's juz being nice.. but i'll live with it! muahaha. nvm if i've been a bad gf in the past... i'll be a good one nxt time! not in the near future though... hahaha. =)

okok then i went jogging ytd evening! hahaha. yay. have been doing some stupid exercises these few nites. idea is to get rid of my flabby legssssss. muahaha. or else cnnt wear or my miniskirts which is like going to grow mould liao if i dun start wearing them again. hahaha. yeap. then was telling debbie... haha cuz she's oso trying to tone her butt n legs.. so sometimes we discuss all the weird stuff to do.. hahaha. then she nagged at me. she said "ur legs so nice le.. long n skinny like model's le u still want tone wattt??" n i was like huhhhhhhhhhhh!! hahahah. i seriously think she's VERY NICE these two days wahahaha. if i talk to her everyday i'm going to float up soon one day! muahahahaha. =p

ok tt all for now.. so long entry! zzz....

ouch. that kind of hurt~

=(

hahaha ok. nice day~

hmmmm. went down to dhobby with huiyu... waited for ernie.. but my dream colour nail polish!! muahaha. sounds stupid. but yea.. i FINALLY found it! ahahas. so nice~ then buy my dream BUTTERFLY FLATS too!! yayyyyyyyyyNESS(EC)!!!! muahahaha. then met ernie.. bot the sandwich thingy ahhaha. went to the paradiz or paradigm kbox... watever~ i can nv ever rmb which is which n where they r! ahahas. that's why i'm called sotong. LALALA~

then so cool... the room is quite stupid actually... can directly see opposite de room de... then ernie stupid lo.. dancing the jolin dance until so obscene n the ppl in the opposite room kp looking at himmmmm. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhness!!(EC) lol. but yeap. we had LOTS OF FUN!!! ^^ yay~ huiting is a happy gal today! =)

okkkkk. then uhhh... huiyu had to rush home for dinner. so left we ernie n i to walk arnd n blah. then we walked huyu to the bus stop first to wait for her bus.. then waited so long n so tired liao that when the bus came ernie oso want to go home le.. so he ended up going home with yuyu deardear n BANGSEH me!! hahahhaha. but nvm. i'm good gal.. so i went home alone n they called to entertain me awhile. so0o0oo0 tired juz slept like pig. ahahahas.

woooooo. i'm like trying to do my nails cum chat cum blog at the same time! ahahhas. prooooooooooooooooo~~ ^^

zzz. juz read SOMEBODY's blog. feel like puking. hahaha nvm. i juz dun wanna be part of her life.

beavan pls read her blog n wake up already. she no longer cares. pls dun go back to her again.. have some backbone. she dun even wnat us as her friends anymore. n she dun bother. just cut off all contact from her n u'll have an easier n happier life. trust me. i'm a guo lai ren.. i noe how it feels. that time i tlaking to my colleague when yk n jieru juz got together n they already tell me to leave them alone le.. or else will get worse de.. but i didn't listened n still go befriend her n blah. now look how things turned out? take me as the stupid girl.. now u learn the lesson.. dun take after a stupid girl's footsteps. check the dict to find out wat is 'chong dao fu zhe'... yah. i duno wat to say le.. i juz hope that u will do wat is good for u.. dun follow ur feelings blindly n end up hurt like i used to.

get a new life without her in it. i'm not trying to brainwash u or wat(haha brainwashing is very sensitive nowadays) but ya.. if u noe wat's good for u, start anew. forget about them already..... or rather, just forget about her.

n btw.. i tink last nite's quarrel, both of us were at fault too.. so i dun blame her for being angry. juz dun like the way she put things. watever. she probably wouldn't like the way i put things too.

yea i guess she really changed le. she thinks she changed for the better. but i seriously wonder wat did yk did to her. i tink now even yk is a better person than her.. that u gotta admit... =X

oh yah.. i tink she's juz rubbish. she doesn't know how to hack a blog la. hahaha i tink yk can do it but she's too stupid to do it laa. watever. juz dun talk to her again le. n DUN EVEN THINK OF mentioning me or ANYTHING I SAID TO U to her again. it'll juz stir up more trouble laaa.

watever~ going out. yay.

ok i must admit that this matter is my fault to begin with... but that doesn't give her the right to talk to beavan like this too... i totally give up le la.. i dun even want to make up with her le.. i shall juz listen to ernie n stop contacting her n all that. i dun mind staying in contact with him.. but definitely not HER. eeeeeee. she's such an idiot. i can't believe her! bleahhh.

yeap. she can hack my blog too for all i care. i got nothing to hide. even if she wants to hack the yk n i's blog she can go ahead lo. =X

blahhhhhhhhhhh. i duno wat to blog le. so siannn.

hahaha at huiyu's hse now. wanted to go work but like yeap. no mood... plus i slp until raffles place.... muahaha. zzzz. kbox with ernie n huiyu later!! muahaha. yayNESS(EC)! ^^

ok. i juz read something i shouldn't have read. i tink only ernie knows wat it is n where to find it. hahaha. but nvm.. the point is.. i'm feeling quite bad now.. not bcoz of the way i'm treating jieru.. ok mayb abit la.. but i tink i'm feeling sadder about the way i treated yk. at least i tink he is a friend more worthy of than jieru. u may think i sound bad talking like that.. but yeap. i ought to start reflecting too if even jieru is reflecting. i should stop being mean to him... at least it's easier for me to understand him than understand jieru.. it doesn't matter whether she's his ideal girl or not.. that's not impt to me anymore.. i juz dun wanna disappoint him n walk out on him as a FRIEND anymore... i tink he doesn't deserve this crap. if beavan think jieru doesn't deserved to be shoot, all the more yk doesn't deserve all this crap.

i dun really wanna know wat happened to the tekong bunkmate thingy... but yeap. i'll just safely believe that most of it is untrue. even if it's true.. from wat i know of his screwed up character.. he didn't meant for it to sound arrogant n two-timer n all that.. he's just the way he is.. dunno how to talk de. yeap. he should improve on his social skills..watever u call that.

yeap. someone teach me wat to do.. i want him back as a friend.. but i still dun wanna see jieru or have anything to do with her for now.. =X i sound mean.. but sometimes some time apart is really what is needed if we still wanna b frens nxt time yea? yeap.

oh wat i want to say?

orh ok.. haha ytd was super lame.

suppose treat my cousin n gf to dinner @ ichiban. then yaya-ing to ernie.. then i sms him.. then say until tell him i hafta treat them to dinner..going to broke le.. then i SEND WRONGLY SEND TO MY COUSIN. then he kp laughing at me lo.... in the end he insisted on paying.. -_-''' ok then he n his gf abit quarrelsome la. bleah. generation gap i guess.. hopefully things will work out.. =)

nwae.. i realise esplanade is quite a boring place to go alone.. hahaha.. zzz. but it's quite nice la. was stoning on the steps there n chatting on the phone while waiting for them. then so shuang~ hahaha. i should stone more often. ahahas. lame~

then at nite i was chatting with beav.. then pork suddenly called in. then we 3 conference. then huiyu happily called me. n become a 4ppl conference. then ernie even more pro.. straightaway call beavan. hahaha. so it became a record-breaking FIVE ppl conference. hahaha. beavan u shld really do such stuff more often.. at least will cheer u up more talking to ppl who can make u luff.. =)

ok i tink ppl we should really stop shooting jieru le. altho i still abit half pissed half guilty. but yeap. things should come to a stop. she's reflecting too. so we should stop making her feel so bad.. bleah. i sound so hypocrite issit? watever~~ u can choose to listen or not to listen.. it's a free world! ahahas. lame~ but yea. she shoot us doesn't mean we haf to shoot her back also. if we shoot her back.. we're doing the same thing as her.. which is not very nice... someone tell me issit right to put it this way? hahaha.

abit blur liao. =X

k off to work!

ok. i dun haf much time to blog abt all the shit for now. hafta leave for work VERY SOON.

idea is.. i've given up on jieru as my fren.

sorry ppl if i'm making life hard for u'all by doing this. but yeap. i know what i'm doing(unlike someone who has three different versions of she knows wat she's doing..). it's really time to give up n move on. clinging onto something that's not meant to be yours is useless. u'll nv be happy lidat.

since 26th feb.. i've been doing nothing to salvage my relationship with yk, but rather.. i've wasted my stupid time doing everything to salvage the relationship btw me n jieru... n helping her to salvage her relationships with other frens whom i tot she cared for. zzz. i shall stop wasting my time on ppl who kp insisting she's right.

as she drones on n on about helping me change for the better.. why dun she tink about herself? why is everyone disagreeing with her n yk? just for the simple reason that the story got passed on until out of hand?? wake up la. why dun u juz go n reflect YOURSELF. ppl dun juz come together to hate someone for fun.

quotes: "if u dont realise ur mistake n u just keep going on lidat in life.. somehow ppl will just walk away from you.." HAHA. how ironic. why dun she apply that on herself n yk first before dumping her shit theory on beavan n i??

quotes: "if u r not receptive of wat ppl have to say..........all i did wasn't for yk. its for U."[see her blog urself..the march 15, 12.53pm entry.. her blog cnnt copy n paste de.. zzz] isn't that like talking about yourself? u kp insisting u r right n u r the one helping us to change for the better.. then what about yourself?? i can come up with a thousand n one reasons to ask u to change for the better. ur attitude just totally sucks big time.

argh. late le la. dowan blog le. another time ba. so pissed off. hai.

testing..