argh! i've been home for about 23 hours, and all i've done is...

- dyed hair for mummy for almost 2 hours
- mass printing of notes for about an hour
- bathed at almost 1am
- did a few slides, and grew really really tired and went to slp at about 2am
- woke up at 10am (8 hours! - im gonna die an early death!)
- edit and re-edit and re-edit and re-edit and.......the bio report
- finished up my research proposal ppt
- went shopping at ntuc with my family to stock up for the impending one-month long war
- played two rounds of game on PSP
- blogged.

ok im so dying.


happening stuff of the week include..

- the ntu triple sharing black tuesday student protest that never happened awwww! i was so much hoping to see what a sight it would be! =D

- the visit to the new HSS library that has unisex toilet and butt-washing toilet bowls. hahaha! can you imagine walking into the cubicle when a guy walks out of it? =D and there's a high-class pantry-looking room for i-duno-what. tables are not enough though, i feel. bookshelves too empty(maybe the books are still at the old HSS library). and i love the sliding-doors entrance! that's my ideal of what library doors should be like! i.e. not i-hafta-be-pushed-open-tts-why-xian-goes-in-from-out-and-goes-out-from-in. hahaaa~

- we watched a very interesting video Why Sex? for our evo video quiz and it's damn interesting! haha it's 6 segements long on youtube..can go and watch if you have nothing better to do! it's about erm..why we need to have sex and all that. but it's an evolutionary perspective, so you might find their explanations weird if you're not used to hearing such stuff, like we evo students.. haha. can go watch for the fun of it still, many interesting animals too! ahaa

- we have a secret uber huge project ongoing at the moment, which we'll reveal probably at end of april or beginning of may. it's magnificent and really beautiful! *grins*

- jul intro-ed me a video on youtube that is damn horrible! it's this 15 yr old girl who has had 300 times of UNPROTECTED sex just coz' she wants a baby! and she collects hundreds and hundreds of baby stuff at home! and she and the mother was invited to the talkshow, where the mum just cried and cried helplessly while she admitted she was the one rumoured having public sex in sch and blah, and while the audience boo-ed and jeered at her and she was simply nonchalent and keep insisting she doesn't care, she just want to have a baby. omg. damn scary girl. and her figure is quite good! and she still said she'll sell her body to bring up her baby if she has to. argh! can die~ can go search for the video and watch then you'll faint.. it's some talkshow called The Maury Show..

- ah boon says im smarter than deardear! wahaha.. coz i can solve lame jokes that deardear can't solve! :D and credit goes to.......Mr. Ernest Soh Kee Ong! he conditioned me with one cold joke after another that i had to get used to them, or else i can't communicate with him! *claps for The Ernie!!* ^^ thank you thank you!

- little miss carrot cake's fiancé knocked his head while playing bball and self-admit into a&e the next morning, sending our poor Secretary-Creative Director into a frenzy thinking of concussions/contusions/convolutions/bilateral lesions/ventromedial orbital suctions/unilateral frontal lobe/hippocampal/pons/medulla/occipital lobe/temporal lobe/parietal lobe/corpus callosum/amygdala/optic chiasm/wernicke's area/brocca's area etc.. impairments! shows that we should all throw away our bio textbooks. -makes a face- fortunately, The Darling's Boyfriend turned out to be alright after a jab, and xian xian eventually went to his house to give a scare after he opened his eyes. yay! happy ending!! ^^ deardear don't learn from him ar, or else i'll kick you before you even open your eyes!!! aha~ *hugs my deardear scarily*

ok i can't rmb what else.. haha. too busy as usual. was back to the usual test after test.. sigh. im getting slp-deprieved again!

ok, back to my studies. ahaa. cya all! :)

i cant believe how frequently im not blogging! this place is turning into some haunted ville. urrgh.

things are pretty much the same here i guess. time's passing too fast, work's coming in too fast, yet the only constant is my speed of a snail.

brief updates include
- im picking up pretty slowly and getting vexed, but still remaining cheerful.
- bio psy presentation was surprisingly better than expected. in fact, it was so good that we all came out happy and relieved! (:
- this is my 6th day getting by without any caffeine.
- since this is my first week for a long long while without any tests at all, ive been making myself slp for at least 5-7hrs everyday! =)
[some study i read from my biopsy tb showed that ppl who slp 5-7hrs/day (esp. 7hrs!) lived the longest, while ppl who slpt less than that or 8, 9, esp. 10&above hrs/day died the earliest! so if you're slping alot, pls stop slping so much!! turns out the slp-deprieved me is the most normal! *grins*]
- im stuck in school again for the long wkend, until nxt wk. no, im not being sick, i just get overwhelmed by reports, papers, and quizzes resuming again next wk.
- i got so overdosed with research and journal articles the whole of ytd, that i spent 15min just sitting on the bed stoning with my ipod, and doing 100 situps and lots of toning exercises after that.
- i hate useless induction cookers that take me an hour to cook my macaroni&cheese and instant noodles.
- personal msg to Ah Gong: 3 weeks left to exams!
- xian and i will be spending our hols helping our evo psy prof do his research! *grins* means we'll be interacting with MONKEYS. no kidding. hahaa! cool ba? i realise xian is my kah kee for doing stuff like that. first SAAC, now this! lol. yay! i love my kah kee!! *grins* and i know my darling bobo is away for her spring break, but just for shuang purposes - we're doing RA for your *GORGEOUS BLUE EYES!!* ^^

turns out my brief updates weren't very brief. hahaa. cheer up, fellow muggers! at least your papers don't start on the first day, and end on the last! *smiles stiffly* and the rest of the darlings, take care whatever you're doing! i miss ya all! drop by more often and disturb me even when i don't blog ok! =p

--> special personal thank you cum appreciation msg to xianxian:
thanks for being such a good friend and interrogating toolbox to find out if he's good first before introducing him proper to me! and thanks for being so happy for me when you see him being nice to me too! *hugs* im happy to see you and ss happy and sweet too! heh. and im especially happy to see you too! (except when we're in lwn/trex) wahaha. and bu yao pain yi le ss, demand a TREE from him! nyahaha. i love you, girl! thanks so much for being such a good friend =) *bounces up to xian happily and envelopes her with a huge hug!* let the mugging begin!! =X

tchao!

Random photos

tingting is a very very happy girl today (ytd)! =)

initially, it was rather sucky. i had wsc on thur nite, and after returning to hall, i had bio meeting past 10pm! =X then after settling all the details about who does what and stuff, we finally decided to go back to hall and complete our own slides. so i went back to deardear's room, and on my lappie. and IT CRASHED. the deadly blue screen!! WAH! i was ultra freaked out and pissed!!! then i went into a state of frenzy and depression, coz i was stressed and upset enough already.

then deardear settled for me! yay! then after the scandisk, and we restarted the lappie, and THE BLUE SCREEN CAME OUT AGAIN! omg. then i was so uber pissed and felt like crying liao. plus i was so uber tired and it was past 1am already. and deardear ran scandisk again, and after that it seemed alright liao. but i didnt want to try restarting it again liao..just didnt want to care. i just wanna go back to my room and cry myself to slp. so i went back. then my roomie said she wont be back for the night. so deardear came over and put me to slp, and assured me that everything will be alright when i wake up again. and so he ran scandisks again while i slept.

so i slept and slept, and returned my slp debt for the past wk at one go.. i slept for almost 9 hours!! and when i woke up, everything was really alright again!! *grins* i love my deardear!! thank you dear!! =) xin ku ni le!

then i went to sch, and complained to them about the lappie crashing.. then xianxian so nice.. she knows everything has been going bad for me, so she bought me a ribena to cheer me up!! *smiles*

then tonight, while i was just finishing up my bio slides, there was a knock on the door. and i opened and was so stunned to see jul standing there, coz she didnt really know how to get to my room.. then she said "i have a surprise for you" and huiyu ernie yk just suddenly sprang out of nowhere!!! OMG!!!! i was so stunned and happy to see them (esp. ernie!!) that i started screaming! wahahhaa.. so happy that i almost wanted to cry!!! wahhhh..they delivered my ultra belated bdae pressie to me! hahaha.. it's a dorothy perkins wallet (yes, finally a new wallet!), and a mng basics which ernie sprayed the words 'i will stop(hui ting!)' on it! wahaha. so nice!! i loved everything! then ernie just passed his driving test! so after talking for very long, and they going home liao, i pestered him to drive me around.. hahaa. so we got into his car, and halfway thru', deardear called and said he cooked soup for us!! wahahahaa. damn high. so we went back to hall again after dou feng and had nice nice soup! it's really canned soup, but it's really really nice, and esp. deardear took the effort to prepare for us! :) then after that i just sent them back and that's the end of my very happy day! THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS for coming over!! i was seriously super gan dong to see you'all! =)) and thanks jul, cy and deardear for aliasing with them! *hugs**

wah i type until i want to cry! everyone so uber nice to me today that im so gan dong!! =)) thank you, darlings! really love ya all! *muacks!!*

ooh! and thurs was happy 3 months for deardear and i, and happy 5yrs8mths(O_O) for jul&cy! hahaa. deardear stunned me again.. he unraveled the mystery of the lightstick in his drawer. he came over at midnight and shut me outside my room and pinned a fluorescent yellow tissue with "Happy 3 months!" written on it on my softboard! hahaa. then we went for a walk, and i only saw it when i came back from the walk. lol. and it glowed in the dark for 12hours! wahaha. so creative sia! thank you dear! ^^

hehe i go to slp le! nite nites! take care, dear friends! *hugs nonstop-ly* =)

On a good day, you gain happiness.
On a bad day, you gain experience.

that's a very meaningful quote i've heard for quite a while! =) and it's from yammie's blog.. which i think she quoted from somebody else..so i shant bother to do any citations! =p

things at home have been an absolute mess, and i've hit a record bottom low. don't really wanna talk about it anymore, just hope it doesn't exacerbate any further. meanwhile, i'm reflecting hard and thinking of ways to make up for my unthoughtfulness and spendthriftness, and gain back mummy's trust at the same time. i'm gonna be surviving on weird stuff for quite awhile, and i plead for understanding if i turn weird or cranky at times.

hai.

it's times like this when i wish i would grow up and stop being such a horrible person; learn to be responsible for my own actions and live a practical life.

meanwhile, stuff in school are escalating out of hand as usual, but i'm trying my very best to put things right very slowly. and i have one month left, hopefully things will turn out to be at the very least, satisfactory.

once again, thanks for all the tags of encouragement :) and thank you dear for being with me through the really hard time. i'll be strong and learn things the hard way. and knowing all that you've done for me really touched me beyond words. Thank you. =)

meanwhile, i might be MIA on and off for awhile, while i struggle to catch up with my work. don't bother dating me out for awhile, coz i won't be available (: and i just want most of you ppl reading this to know, i really miss all my friends whom i haven't been in touch with for a while. sorry i can't go out now, but just to let you know, i really miss you all. =(

tingting be strong! tingting be brave! tingting must pick herself up from her follies! TT loves T! =)

i've been updating this space so infrequently that everytime i try to login, i type h060032@ntu.edu.sg into the Email add. space.

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1 whole week of presentation/roleplay/midterm/quizzes is finally over. and im so mentally drained. and it happens to be the week after my 5 quizzes before recess week, so all my papers are back. that explains why im equally morale-ly exhausted.

i hate to admit this, but it seems that im falling back into the jc times again, when everyone else around is doing well but im stuck below mean. ok maybe not as bad, but its going somewhere near.

no, i dont like this at all. but what can i do?

yes, i can stop trying to be a smartarse next sem and happily register 6 subjects. that's what they call 没那么大的头 别带那么大顶的帽.

all my cores are doing well...below average. and today even as i walk out of my maths midterm, i felt like a flop. i dont know why..everytime i walk out of a very bad maths paper, i feel especially lousy. maybe its coz the only think i thought ive a better advantage over is going haywire too. and my french is...i duno what. i duno wad's the mean so i cant comment.. but anyway, the role play was so so only while the rest were all so outstandingly good =[

such a horrible day. and it's not only today; it's accumulative. took me so much strength just to not start crying. i havent really been crying over my books since jc, and im really scared once i start, everything will fall back into the old days again.

tingting must be strong!

gimme more time, less projects, less articles, and less chapters pls!

everything that i found interesting and fascinating as i flipped through the many many pages of readings are starting to fade after getting back all those grades. i used to think i could fare better in subjects i love, but it doesnt seem to be the case anymore. effort isnt supposed to help in retention of information.

it's nearing the end of the 2nd year in here, and the more i trudge on, the more lost i get. i entered the course full of passion and hope, but all that is left now is weariness and a sense of loss.

hopefully this is just a passing phase. we will all do better together! -wavery smile-

waking up early in the morning to send you off at the door.
going back to slp for an hour or two more.
waking up again and going about doing my stuff.
eating alone watching shows.
going back to doing my work.
waiting for your return excitedly at night.
welcoming you at the door.
lapping at your tales of the day side-by-side.
finishing off my work while waiting for you to bathe.
cooking supper together and eating over an old movie.
falling asleep togther.


that's a monotonous day i love,
a simple life i could get used to.