time's 1.04am now.. but learn from poonie, blog as 11.59pm so that will appear as the day before's entry.. haha

am still stuck in hall on a friday nite.. =(

cos' have to cover the road relay lor.. bleahs. just went to see their 'blog'..everyone write until so pro lidat.. argh!! SO STRESSED!! O_O

hmmm.. today's been a long long day of mixed feelings.

as usual, tried to wake up for can1 porridge..but overslept by 1hr15min. hahaha. so eat bread only then rush to lec..

received Shirley's sms during 2nd half of the lec.. totally stunned. Bernard passed away liao.... =( feel sad all over again just as i am typing this all out. but i'm gonna carry on.. i wanna blog out everything... nwae, i was so taken aback by the news.. and totally didn't know how to react.. FYI, Bernard's my mentor when i was working @ SP.. although i wasn't very close to him then, but he was my shi fu after all and i really found him nice and patient from day1.. and he's quite nice to us too.. like always find him quite cute when he laughs too.. really those u see liao feel like laughing along too de =) anyway, i just hid into the toilet cubicle and squat there crying nonstop for i duno how long.. felt so distraught.. don't understand and don't believe why all this is happening.. this probably sounds odd here..but i just added him into Friendster a few days ago.. and they say he had a failed op @ US now.. just doesn't quite make sense to me... and feel quite sad cos' i've never really had someone else other than a family member/relative/neighbour passed away.. and at such a young age somemore.. =(

i've always think about how others will react if i die one day.. but i've never ever gave any thought at all about what would happen to me if one day a friend dies. weird, isn't it? to have someone missing in your life all of a sudden when you thought everything was well... =(

anyway, thankfully the girls were around.. yeap. at least got friends around me i won't think so much about it anymore.. and then went for lunch and maths lec as usual.. was nice having you girls around as usual =)

came back to hall and stone and chatted with Shirley online.. then decided to meet @ JP for dinner.. yeap. so went and all that.. then chatted quite abit.. feels so good to meet an old friend for dinner and talk and walk about like that =) guess it makes me feel abit better too..cos' out of all the ppl who talked to me about Bernard, she's the only one who knows him too.. so it felt better to get everything off my chest. thanks, girl =)

then came back to hall and tried to do stats. i miss Miss Chan!!!! she's so much better than this sucky lecturer!! i don't believe anyone understands her at all!! =X anyway.. at one point of time, i called Shixian to enlighten myself about significant level.. and we ended up chatting for about an hr.. hahaha. so funny~ MAGIC!! :b

oh yea.. bought a bag at some fair in sch jus now.. hahaha. also duno why i go buy.. wanted to go bugis street look for it de.. but roomie said before bugis st de quality not good.. then just now i bad mood.. so just retail therapy when i saw it lor. =X diaos.. hahaha. so dumbbbbbbbbbbbb =X

hmmm hope can go home earlier tmr.. really lotsa stuff to complete.. the work is so overwhelming.. actually went for Hexis sets&props meeting last nite... then got so stressed up after that tt totally no mood to do work at all after that.. cos' it's damn alot of commitment and like so scary no time for sch work at all.. then today afternoon finally decided to sms the i/c and tell her i'm quitting liao.. cos' really too taxing le.. haha. feels more qing song after that.. so at least today can get some work done!! *phew* =)

and did i mentioned i'm thankful to have such a sweet roomie who tried so hard to cheer me up last nite? :)

school work's finally starting to pile up now.. feeling how gaigai feels.. haha. tuts projs hall. everything snowballs and rolls after you!!! hahahaaa,, abit kua zhang de bi yu.. lols. but sums up everything aptly, doesn't it? :X

cny resolution!!
1. clear up the silly mess i landed myself in!! (only beav n mab knows this, so don't ask.. haha)
2. balance my sch/social/family/hall life properly!
3. the standard resolution - good results!!
4. settle down properly to study for midterms!!!!
5. settle all the dumb projs!
6. get to go home for term break!

ok.. so that wasn't exactly a resolution list.. more like a wish list huh? hahaha

anyway.. guess what's coming up before cny??

Valentine's Day did you say?!

haha. get lost.. it's..................tada!! TOTAL DEFENCE DAY!!!!!!

-.-''

hahaa no implied meaning.. don't delve too deep into it.. was just thinking about vday, then suddenly rmb-ed.. lols.

oh well.. hope everyone will be happy, whatever day/time of the year it is!! :)

ok, it's 1.30am liao.. better go slp liao.. tmr gotta wake up at 7+!! O_O

niteys, ppl. i love ya all =)