watched silent hill ytd nite with mab n bert. was okay. abit cheem. but still find it quite nice. everyone tells me it's very scary? but i tink it's just very gory. blood splashing here n there. =X

met mab n ernie today afternoon. ate n walked abt abit. then went to novena to meet parents.

went ttsh to visit a relative. in her 90s alrdy. so heart-wrenching to see her. she had so many tubes poking out from all over her body. n it's the first time i see someone literally connected to the monitor that shows ur heartbeat n all tt. like...i always see them on tv...n i tk it as a not very gd sign...cuz when u see it on tv, the line eventually goes straight. so i nv tot i will see one on my relative. n she was operated twice alrdy. heavily sedated. couldn't even open her eyes to look at us. we talked to her. she could hear us. she was conscious. but she just couldn't open her eyes, nor open her mouth to reply us. it was painful to see her lying there so helplessly. n she felt so uncomfortable tt she just kept taking off her oxygen mask.

n so coincidentally her son-in-law was warded downstaird for heart-attack. but condition stabilised le. so when we went to see him, he told us the doctor say she only have around 2 more wks left. either that or she'll become a vegetable. how bad is that.

then ate abit then went home alrdy.

on the way home. passed by the void deck. saw some familiar faces. n a wake that wasn't there today morning. peeped abit n saw the photo. totally shaken. neighbour[duh] cum schmate's mum. i swear my legs really wobbled for awhile when i saw the rest of the family standing arnd there. i mean, yea not like i haven't seen a wake before or attended one. but most of the time it's someone alrdy very old. but she'd only late 40s or max. 50 yrs old. n she has 3children. youngest same age as me. it's so scary to imagine losing ur mum at such a age. my heart totally sank. really really sank. =(

bleahhhs. feeling very depressed now. :(