http://www2.ntu.edu.sg/ENewsreader/Announcement/Student%20Discount%20for%20SRT's%20hit%20musical%20-%20Forbidden%20City:%20Portrait%20of%20an%20Empress.htm?wbc_purpose=Basic

haha the forbidden city thingy.. mab's this is the blah i msg u abt.. yeap. i can help u get the tix if u want ba.. hahaha.

heeex. went out with mab dearie ytd!! went for haircut! wheeee~ hahaha. nice hair now muahaha. walked arnd... blahblahblah. both of us like the black pepperplus spag!! yay~
bert:*hint hint*

hahahaha.

yay. yay yay. yay yay yay.

(:

hahaha i'm gonna kope ernie's photo... but after tt.. i'm still gonna laugh at him.. HAHAHA..ernie..HAHAHA. *guffaws* wahhahahaa

:D

haha nwae guys my bg colour purple so if u dun get the meaning of the pic, n cnnt see the pic properly, juz click on it to open it in new window n blahblahblah. haha it's really very sweet loh!! n guess where it originated from?? :p

STUDY!! X:

woooooooo~ wsands got TRIUMPH FAIR!!! wahahahaa... went to get stationery n stuff juz now n saw.... wooooooooooooooooooo~ the bras r SO PRETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTY!!!!! *awwwwwww* ok i'm so gonna get them tmr!! MUAHAHA. mab we go look at the fair tmr! yayyyyyyyyyness(EC)!!!! hahahahaa. yay yay yayyyy! ^^ n mummy says she'll sponsor if i not enough $!! omgggggg. yay yay yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~ =D

-bored-

hahaha okaes. this is so dumb. wanted to post the mtv. then i select the wrong blog.. went to post it at the sapphirepeach blog instead -_-''' hahaha oh wells.

ehhh if u haven't guessed.. i haven't studied!!! x_x

aahahaaaas. nwae... tk a look at the mv laa. it's different from the kbox version de.. hahaha. this one got a clearer story! hahahaha. n ya..went to see the Because Of You mv le... MAB I KNOW THE STORY LE!! wahahha finally~ okok..GONNA STUDY!!!!!!

(=

jay - shan hu hai

different from the kbox version wor~ (:

woooooooooo hooooo~ i'm in a gd mood today!! ^^

hahaha. wed was blah. first was the forensic sci lec! hahaha. it was super duper cool!!! muahahaha. yayyyy~ i love the lecturer too! hahaa so fun~ =)) then came the human resource management. which sucks beyond sucks. u noe the sa phys lecturer-sia lai chai? well. he's worse than sia lai chai. hahaa. how bad is tt. he doesn't even teach relevant stuff. n he's basically talking to himself. urrrrrrms. ok so still got essay for end yr exam. i tink i'm gonna flunk liao. hahaha. =X

ooooh. ytd was........ hahaha morning had lec. then pei them go popular buy tb. cuz i bot on wed le. hahaa then no stock le!! wowww so fast. hahaa. then pei them go nie buy cuz they duno where's the nie bookshop. like WOW. I ACTUALLY CAN LEAD THE WAY. lolsss. hahaa nwae i fd someone more lu chi then me le.. hurray! lols. -_-''' hahaa yeap. so chuan shan yue ling all the way to nie le then no more stock too! =X then ate the horrible canteen food there.. hahaaah. then chuan shan yue ling back to south spine hss library. studied n dozed off abit. went for tut, go home. hahaah

then blahblahblah. slack n rested abit. started studying at 9. n woooooooooooo hoooooooooooooooooo~ so proud of myself!! i actually concentrated n absorbed alot of info!! as in.. although i only studied for 2+hrs.. but really is those quality type of study! yayyy~ so proud of myself! ^^ hahaha. yeap. then duno why. slept super well last nite. hahahax~ FINALLY. like..haven't been sleeping very well since 1mnth ago or something? hahaa

yay. shall cont being a gd girl today n study!! shall try to finish up my neuropsych! muahahaaa. yeap! BIO IS NO BIG DEAL!! wahahahahah. i tink i tok too much le. hahahaa. u're going to hear me coming back to complain abt bio later le. wahaha. ciao~

wahahaha. i'm back! lols. so bo liao rite.. not much mood to study leh. hahaha. alrdy printed out some articles.. shall annotate them on the train or something ba..

ahahahas. i'm smuggling koko crunch into lec!! wahahha... cuz like too early to haf lunch at home.. then if go eat lunch in sch hafta leave home so early? ahahas. soooooo. i shall smuggle koko crunch! wahhahaha~ -_-''' oh ya. did anyone take a close look at koko on the cereal box before? i juz realised today tt he is quite ugly? hahaha. abit no link. BLAHS. now u noe how bored i m... =X

heeex. chatted with julyn juz now! wahahaha~ i tink she's a very nice gal... like this big sis.. =)) heex.

ehhhh ok i'm like blasting music with the tv now.. so the whole hse is filled with MUSIC!! wheeeeee~ yay yay yayyyy. i love music!! =D hahaha wat's with the sudden i love music -_-''' boooooooo sho shiannnnn. i wanna someone really shou with me to take the same subjects as me lehhhhh. booos. then we can hang out tog n all tt before n after lessons.. dun hafta kp thinking abt who to eat with today tmr or the day after? hahaha. tts the prob with tertiary edu.. all ur frens haf different timetables! =(( hahaha oh wells! not to fear!! i'll survive.. muahahas.

n mab pls faster come n join me.. then we ccan stay hostel!! hahaha. then i can stop having my meals at such weird timings le. wahaha sounds dumb.

blah. am just blogging for the sake of blogging. so bored zzz.

ok so i shall study my neuropsych tmr nite n the whole fri.. then watever hwk i haf for today's electives n tmr's tut can do on sat morning n sun! yayness~ ok i must learn to manage my time properly so i can haf time to relax too!! =))

heeex. guess tis type of lifestyle could be quite alright for a change. =D

hmmms. contemplating whether to start teaching tuition not... bleahhhhs. i want a job...teaching tuition is the most flexible? ahahas. but i very scared i cnnt rmb the syllabus n all tt le.. n i might not make a very good teacher given my short attn span n impatience. blahhhs. =( prob scared bcoz both my tu di at work turned out quite baddd. bleahs. duno la.. shirley say the prob lies with themself.. but i tink i haven't been a good teacher either. hmmms. duno laaaaa. =X

lalalala. chatting with tal!! ^^

haha nothing better to do kp blogging.. my life basically consists of mugging n blogging? zzz..

ahahas. oh nwae.. jackjack is out of the cold chamber!! ^^ hahaha. cuz like was trying to study ytd.. then realise very bu xi guan nothing to hug while studying.. cuz last time i always hug jackjack when i study ma.. haha so yeap. removed him from cold chamber! ahahahas. but niuniu dun like him anymore le lols. ehhh nwae he become quite dirty le leh... still got hole at the side.. hahaha. ooops. =X

hmmms. trying to get more stuff done this few days so that hopefully sat can go out with mab! heeex. gonna but hair~ yayyyy. ^^

lalalaaaa. chatted with darling bert ytd nite! hahahaaa. so exciting!! lols. he juz went gushing on n on lols. =D

happy happy boy.

ahahhas.

going sch later... boooooooooo. lessons until 8.30 loooo. bahs. tmr morning stil got lessons @ 9.30!! waaaaaaaah. hahaha. zzz. ok nvm.. today's lectures r all the electives!! yayyyy~ FORENSIC SCI!! hahaha so excited. okok better get back to work.. or else ernie going to laugh at me again -__-'''

http://miketheheadlesschicken.org/

hahhaa check tt out... something the lecturer mentioned ytd.... so fascinating... n abit gross la lols. weird stuff happening around the world.. blahblahblah. i'm bored. shall study again. =X

hahaha. forgot to mention something.. everytime i sign in msn, the Windows Live Today window pops up.. n it will say right at the top...

Good afternoon, u're the sweetest thing i've ever tasted!

wahahaha.. ok i'm sorry but somehow i find tt very entertaining. haha.

okok STUDY.

heex.. was looking thru' the old sms-es of phone.. yeap. those days in feb/march.. earlier time of the year when everything was in a mess.. hmmmm. realised tt i've grown alot since then. yeaa... rmb tt time gungun was forever worrying tt i will cry.. haha so funny thinking of it now.. can't believe i used to be such a crybaby! =X heex.. n then of cuz there were frens like mab bert n the 8e.. shuwen ernie yuyu n the dans they'all..dotty jaren n blah occassionally dropping in sms-es to entertain me n cheer me up.. so happy reading them! thanks to all the friends who helped me climbed up after the fall.. supported me thru' the darkest period of my life.. i've became a much stronger gal now who is able to face the challenges more readily n will no longer shed tears for stupid guys so easily! THANK YOU SO MUCH MY DEAR FRENS!! couldn't have come thus far without ur help!! heeex sounds like some grammy speech eh? =X I LOVE MY FRENS!! ^^

ok shall stop being corny.. n get back to STUDYING!!

yeap. can u believe it? i came online just to type this stupid para.. hahaha. just wanted to do it before i forget ma.. lols.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! HAHAHA. I'M CHATTING WITH BAOXIU JIEJIE NOW. N SHE DEMANDS TT I USE CAPS. HENCE I HAFTA BLOG IN CAPS NOW TOO!! WAHAHHA. SO BU XI GUAN~

BRAHAHAHA. I LOVE PSYCH!! YAYYYY~ IT'S VERY VERY INTERESTING.. DEFINITELY MORE INTERESTING THAN E=MC-SQ.... WAHAHAHA~ BUT YTD LEC WAS ABT BIO-PSYCH... WHICH WAS SUPER CHEEM FOR SOMEONE WHO NV TOUCHED BIO BEFORE!! LOLS. THEN GOT SUPER ALOT OF STUFF TO MEMORISE... =( AHAHAS. BUT NVM.. I SHALL BE A GOOD GAL N STUDY HARD!! HAHAHA. THE TUT WAS SUPER BLUR TOO... CUZ MUZ SIMULATE THE NEUROTRANSMITTERS N THE AXON ALL TT... WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I WAS SUPER LOST LO... THEN MUZ KNOW ALL THE POTASSIUM N SODIUM ALL TT STUFF ALSO... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. SUFFERING FROM DROP-CHEM SYNDROME. HAHAHA. HAF SO MUCH STUFF TO CATCH UP!! GOTTA STUDY STUDY STUDY!!

HAHAHA. YTD WAS SOOOOO TIRING!! HAD LESSONS ALL THE WAY FROM 9.30 TO 5.30 WITH ONLY AN ONE HR BREAK IN BTW!! OMGGGGGGGGGG. HAHAHA TT'S THE DAI JIA YOU HAFTA FU CHU FOR A 3-DAY WK! TIRING LONG DAYSSSS! =( HAHA I'M STILL BU XI GUAN BLOG IN CAPS SO WEIRD. LOLS.

HMMMMS. REN SHI ALOT OF NEW FRIENDS YTD!! CUZ STARTED TUT N STUFF LE.. N MY HP101 TUT ONLY GOT ONE GUY.. WHO KINDA REMINDS ME OF YK? HAHAHA CUZ HE ALWAYS DEBATE WITH THE TEACHER.. WAHAHAHAH. YEAP THOSE GENIUS TYPE JIU DUI LE.. WAHAHAHA. THEN WE DID GRP WORK YTD.. SIMULATION N ALL TT.. THEN THE TEACHER SAY HAFTA HAVE A NARRATOR EXPLAIN THE PROCESSES N ALL TT.. THEN WE ZHI JIE PUSH TO HIM CUZ HE KNOWS EVERYTHING WAHAHAHAH -_-''''

N HAHAHA. GOT THIS STUPID GUY FROM MY HW101 TUT WHO IS SUPER ERM...??? HAHA I DUNO HOW TO SAY..JUZ VERY FUNNY LO.. CUZ WE SUPPOSE WORK IN GRPS.. THEN HE WAS FROM THE GRP NEXT TO US.. THEN HE KP EAVESDROPPING.. SO WE CALLED HIM 'THE EAVESDROPPER'. WAAHAHAHA~ THEN YEAP. HE ATTEMPTED TO STEAL OUR IDEAS LAAA. LOLS. THEN AFTER TT WE HAD LEC.. THEN I TURNED ARND N HE WAS BEHIND ME.. THEN I WENT LIKE "OHHHHHH. U R THE EAVESDROPPER RITE?!?!" WAHAHAHA THEN HE WAS LIKE THE EMBARRASSED LOOK. HAHA I TINK I OSO SAY UNTIL ABIT WEIRD =X THEN WE WENT CANTEEN FOR LUNCH. N I WAS QUEUING FOR FRUIT JUICE WITH SX.. THEN THE QUEUE V LONG SO I PPOINTED THE NEXT STORE TT WAS SELLING SOFTDRINKS N SAID "U WANT GO DRINK THOSE INSTEAD?" THEN I LOOK IN TT DIRECTION N REALISE I WAS POINTING AT THE EAVESDROPPER. DIAO.......... HAHA THEN HE SAW MA N I TINK HE TOT WE TALKING ABT HIM OR SOMETHING THEN HE WAS CARRYING HIS FOOD WITH THE SUPER STUNNED LOOK ON HIS FACE. EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. HAHAHA. SO MALUATING LO. THEN AFTER HE WALKED AWAY I STARTED COMPLAINING TT IT LOOKED SO MISLEADING N LATER HE THINKS I FANCY HIM OR SOMETHING HOW?? THEN SX WORSE..SHE SAID: "NO LOOOO. USUALLY U POINT TO SOMEONE..MEANS UR FREN LIKES HIM NOT U LIKE HIM LO!" WAHAHAHHAHAAH~ DAMN HILARIOUS. THANK GOODNESS HE'S NOT IN HP101 TUT ELSE I'LL DIEEEE. HAHAHAHA. OK I JUST BLOGGED ONE WHOLE PARA OF CHUNK ON THE EAVEDROPPER. -_-'''

BLAHBLAHBLAH. I MUST BE A GOOD GIRL!! ^^


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HAPPY FOR MY DEAR BF!! HAHAHA MAB.. WE SO KE LIAN.. GG TO KENNA NEGLECTED LE.. LOLS.

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okok dowan use caps le la lols. baoxiu jiejie replying me very once in a blue moon. so dun care her le.. use little alphabets! wahahahha. =D

hmmm. long entry eh?

hey hey huiyu... how arrr? i still feeling quite sad leh... wat to do?? =((

hmmmms. somethings wanna say but feels weird saying here.. haish~ =X bleahhhs. i oso duno wat i wanna say liao ahahas. i guess some things are irreversible ba? as much as u try to change them it will nv revert again.... =(

-reply tags-
ernie: je too out of the way le hahaha
bert: ahahas. ni zhen me ke yi zhe yang dui wo ne......... -weeps like mab the ancient lady- WAHAHHAHAHAhhhaaaaaa
ernie: ehhe.. yes i know.. but u dun hafta be so straightforward maaaa. waaahhaha
dotz: ok i duno wat to tell u le. hahaha first u say i'm a ugly girl then now u say i'm bonkers. wahahaha. i dowan fren u le laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. booooohoooooooo. huiyu faster faster...start the anti-sas campaign again!! lols.

oh wells~ no time for any campaign or stuff laa. gonna STUDYYYYYY. (:

am so gonna miss u guys! ):

it's funny how we're able to talk so at ease now as compared to the past. hmmms. maybe it just all the more shows that some things fang xia le will be good for yourself as well as the other person. why not just be friends? everything will be so much simpler.. hmmmm. yea...easier said then done huh? maybe it's easier if nothing started before ba?

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boooo. trying to study. but not much success. dun understand anyhthing that's for one. dun have the essential materials that's two. n most importantly, i dun have the mood. HAHAHA.

slipped n fell when mummy mopping the floor. konk my head on the marble floor. ouchhhhh. got the loud loud sound i swear. wonder if i'll become bonkers. hahaha. oh wells~
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hope everyone can be happy.. =))

yayyyy~ mummy bot minnie mouse shirt for me!! wahahah~ ^^

ok u'all haf no idea at all how bored i m now!! =((

hahaha. yeap. this two days were like so siannnned. hahaha. tt day thurs went to look for my tb at the sch popular. then the person gimme a dirty copy, n refused to change for me.. then i didn't buy. ytd went to nie bookshop to find..cuz they say cheaper there.. but the queue is like super duper long.. 20+ 30 ppl then my turn.. so like aiya forget it. then went jp popular obviously dun haf cuz small populars dun sell de. then went bras basah n bugis kino all dun haf. ask them call orchard kino oso dun haf. then today went clementi bookstore with huiyu..cuz gor gor says there sell poly n uni tb de.. then haf.. but like alot more ex than sch.. so nv buy. then went to sing klunch. hahaha. which sucks. everything there sucks. i'm nv going back to clementi kbox. wahahaaa. yeap. then went to eat then come home. hahaha

i'm so bored now. nobody's online on sat evening :( n i'm so not used to staying home on a sat evening :(( booooooooooooo. hahaha. i'm supposed to do tut prep but i need the tb!! :(( n i got tut on monday. booo hoooooo. win liao. first tut then gif bad impression. boooos. stupid popular. it's that woman's fault dowan change for me. i'm going to rmb her for life if my prof hates me!! wahahahah~ DUH. i'm THIS bored lo. booo hoooo hooooooooooooooo~ ahahas.

blahblahblah. bahhhhhhhhhhhs. hahahaha. sho shiannnnnnnnnnnnnn!!

go study~ hahaha

ok i duno why i kp blogging today. wahahha. continuously somemore. lols.

but yeap. juz wanna say. i love sch today!! duno why... nothing much oso leh..

first my cousin-in-law sent me to sch cuz he fetch my cousin to nie for a course then shun bian.. then he dropped me off @ some ulu place n i got lost looking for lt9 alone.. haha then a super boring lecturer kicked off a start to my day. she's from israel n she has this super thick accent that goes mer-nee-poooo-lae-tit[manipulate it] -_-''' then erm she talk like talking to herself lidat hahaha. n she keeps going erm erm yea..uhhhh. =X hahaha but yeap. two hours n tada!! NO MORE LESSONS!! wahahah so walked arnd the E&I fair with hh hq n wat'shername. hahaha. =X hq's roomie. lols. yeap. then half went popular look for tb then half went for some medical checkup thingy. then ehhhh. hh rushed off for her lessons while i was talking to chewyu in popular. so i finish talking to chewyu i realise i was alone? yeap. so i had to find my way to canteen b myself. then i got lost again @ business sch. =X then finally fd canteen b. haha met hy n her frens for lunch. then got lost looking for HSS library wahaha which is supposed to b my di pan. lols. *laoshu lao hu ben ben fen bu qing chu* ahahhas. then ehhh yeap. met pris kym grace. printed notes n stuff. left to go jp with hy. blahblahblah. went home! N I ACTUALLY STUDIED ON MY WAY HOME!!! wahahah so enthu~ Your Highness(SC)!!! wahahhaha

yay yay yay. i'm so happy with sch now. heex. no la tink it's cuz still honeymoon phase. wahaha. wait till i haf lessons til 8.30 n tut kick in. i'll peng sannnn. hahahha =)

enjoy life while u cannn!! ^^

*p.s. i love mab* (:

ok i'm starting to post all the silly stuff that appears on jaren's blog! lols.


24 interesting facts/things/habits about me [figured out how FREE i am? :p]


one1: i tink i juz did something similar a few wks ago? haha
two2: i learnt to eat curry before i learnt to appreciate chilli! haha
three3: my temp bf is cuter than my ex bf HAHA
four4: i love mab!
five5: i love beav!
six6: huiyu's name on my hp is onewhoilove. lols. n there's onewholovesu, onewhoiloves n onewholoveu too. wahahaha yeap. i got four of her numbers in my hp. i wonder why. lols.
seven7: my bro thinks that mab goes arnd kissing everyone. HAHA
eight8: i'm loving psychology! although i tink all the lecturers r boring.. =)
nine9: i love my sch so far although it's damn far n i kp getting lost!! =D
ten10: i just got lost in school THREE TIMES today. hahaha u're not surprised i guess?
eleven11: if u havent noticed i'm posting very dumb stuff bcuz i ran out of things alrdy since afew wks ago.. hahaha
twelve12: i'm getting a fujitsu notebook soon!! wheeeeeeeeee~
thirteen13: i tink i prefer lao SHU lao HU BEN BEN fen bu qing chu~ wahahah. cuz got BEN BEN. lol... i'm nuts. hahaha dun tink everyone will understand this ahahas. i tink ernie is going to laugh at me
fourteen14: i'm keeping alot of secrets for alot of ppl currently..
fifteen15: ..but i ain't very good at keeping secrets! hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa
sixteen16: i'll only perform well at a subject i love. like physics..no matter how u drill it into my head, i still detest it..so all i get is a Cs. hahhaa now MATHS is my lifeeeeeeee!! =D
seventeen17: sometimes i tink guys make nicer frens than gals. dun ask me why.. no la not like i like any guy in particular or wat.. sometimes they r juz easier to talk to i guess... n as long as u dun fall for them, they r pretty easy creatures to understand i guess.. hahaha. :p bahs. i still love my galfrens too!! =D
eighteen18: lalala. wat else?
nineteen19: i love yuxuan!! ^^
twenty20: r we finishing soon? zzz
twentyone21: i tink my bro rawks. :)
twentytwo22: heee i used to haf this desire deep within that mab will become my dasao one day! LOL. then she'll get so entertained by the ship's horn thingy. wahaha
twentythree23: i'm thinking about whether to stay hostel not nxt yr! hmmmms. =X
twentyfour24: FINALLY!!! =]

Would you dump an NS boy for a Uni Man?[disclaimer: not written by me NOR jaren hahaha]

Of course!

Oh, sheathe those claws, boys. Don't be rude. You would do so if you were in the same position.

Think about it: New environment and you're all alone; you don't recognise a single face and you're worrying how and where to start; your partner can't understand what you're facing and it's hard to explain; and then, you make a new bunch of proximity friends, and it's so much easier to hang out with them.

Hmmm? That's not university? That's national service? Well, well, well, how alarmingly bright you are. And here I was, worrying myself to wrinkles that I might die in the couple of decades you'd take to get it.

So you see, right? Beginning University and starting National Service is almost the same experience. I say "almost" because I know that if I said "the same", all the NS recruits in the country would be swarming over me like a pack of hounds before the night is out. They'd bay for my blood, because I had dared equate the tortures of 24-klik marches under the blazing sun and grimy sweaty trench-digging with "going to school".

"Going to school"? Ha! Now it's the university students turn to snort. University's a far cry from primary school where wide-eyed kiddies sweetly share their last piece of keropok with you. Anything precious here is more likely to be tightly wedged between a butt and a chair than shared. It is here you feel the need to find friends fast more than ever. It's the pack instinct: safety in numbers; comfort and acceptance too.

So, when you're feeling more than a little vulnerable, you crave comfort, as girls do when they play Moses and bravely face the Red Sea. And we all know that Comfort's schizo, right, girls?

Sometimes she's Ben & Jerry's (gender-crisis), sometimes she's Cadbury & Hersheys, while other times she's Paul & Frank. That is, Paul, your 3-year NS boyfriend; and Frank, that guy from your university orientation group.

It's not that you don't love Paul. After all, he was the one that gave you your first kiss; he was the one sitting next to you, picking at the miniscule plate of Prom Night food you each paid a bomb of $90 for; he was the fool that queued an hour at MacDonald's to buy that Hello Kitty toy you wanted, throwing away the McMeal. (SIN! Mistreatment of food! WASTREL!)

But things have changed. It's not the same anymore, you sniffle delicately. He's changed. All he wants to do is talk about his water-parades, complain about his officer-in-charge, that time he scrubbed the loo with his platoon, and his buddy (now that really perturbs you).

Frank, on the other hand (literally), is ever so attentive, always there for you, and oh, oh, so understanding…..

Smell the coffee, girl! OF COURSE, he's understanding! That guy's in the same university as you! He breathes the same lecture hall air as you, eats the same canteen food as you, sleeps in the library and drools over the same course books as you! It isn't hard to be understanding when you're doing all the same things!

No, shut up Frank , I'm not blaming you. I just want Pollyanna here to see how obvious it is that you have the Unfair Advantage in this case. Yes, the UA.

The UA presents itself in every single situation that occurs. Born of the Unfair World, the UA clings on to one party that catches its fancy and allocates them that tad bit more weight to tip the scales in their favour. Intrinsically irrational, UAs choose not by logic, but by pure whim and coincidence.

Coincidence, that he's at the same stage of life with you, enabling him to be there physically when you need him, to be in the experience with you. If it was based on that alone, Paul would never have had a chance. Why would you choose a partner who can never be there over a partner who always is?

Because you know it's not Paul's fault. He didn't choose not be there. He didn't choose to be away in Brunei killing chickens and wearing 5 day old underwear when you wanted to talk to someone about your voodoo plans for your slacker project mate.

But you've reached a point when you don't particularly care, you just want someone to be there for you. You know you'll hurt Paul's feelings and that bites, but you can't help being selfish. You want to be selfish. You want what feels best for you.

Now we're left feeling awfully sorry for Poor Paul and snarling at Frank the Filch. However, if recall what I said earlier, the situation of entering NS and beginning University life being almost the same, what do you think would have happened if Paul started NS with a co-ed company and Pollyanna entered an all-girls University?

Sounds far-fetched? Well, just indulge me and stretch your imaginations thinner. Paul, is now the one with opportunities galore, and Pollyanna? Pollyanna's the nun.

So, tell me, who is more likely to break up with who?

In a Chanel lipstick case (because a nutshell is so passé), we are all Fortune's fools. She plays us in situations we have little control over. Live with it.

And all the Pauls out there? Life's not over. In 2 years time, you'll be at university, and then, during the orientation camp, you finally get the chance to introduce yourself as " Frank, the name's Frank."

credits: http://www.funkygrad.com/think/displayarticle.php?artID=786&subcat=relationships


wahahaha i tink this is super coool!! talk about bing biannn!!! =D

wheeeeeeeee~ kbox ytd!! with 6 of the electrons!! wahahhaah so cooool~ the duet couple was super happy! wahahhaha~ n i be their dian deng pao!! -smug look- wahahaha siao~ yeap then met ernie for dinner! =))

HAPPY NATIONAL DAYY!!!! wahahaha. belated lo. i swear i'm gonna stay home or come home before 7 nxt national days!! i was damn depressed cnnt see the fireworks ytd nite lo!!! =X

nwae... here's ernie the retarddddd. interesting photo.. bet it's gonna attract the SKFC to come swarming.......

*drumrolls*




*brace yourself*




*TADAAAAA!!!!*







wahahahah. gou retard maaa??? hahaha ernie is so going to kill meeeee.

*runs for my life*

ok next time pei you go kbox to bu chang! LALALA. pls learn yi you wei jing & mi gong to pei me sing since bert will nv sing duet with me besides du chang qing ge!! waahahahhaa~ ok we must go party world then got yi you wei jing! hmmms! =D n WANG ZI MIANNNNNNNNNNN!!! ^^

hahaha. new to the list of SC....

Your Highness!! =D

boooooooo! so irritated with the irritating notes! hahaha. hafta print myself somemore! =(( waste paper waste ink waste money!! blahhh! =X

bahhhhh. kbox tmr!! wheeeeeeee~~ =D

hahah fir new album rocksss!! ^^ yay yay yayyyy! i'm falling in love with fir! wahahaha~ =))


hmmm. time to let go. =)

hahaha. mab asks me to update? but like nothing to update leh. zzz.

hahaha. today morning awaken by the stupid sec sch downstairs with their stupid nday celebrations. hahaha. ok kinda miss the cchs celebrations. but yea.. it's noisdy n irritating when u're not involved n am trying to slp? hahaha.

let's soarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr n reach for the starsssssssssssss!!

-_-'''

boringgggggggggggg. stupid ntu web. kp hanging.. n i cannot change my electives!! -_-'''

hahaha ok all my tags r quite funny. so i shall reply them lols!

dotty: okk erm. u love ricola? ricola is a very very very nice girl..cuz she has a very very very BIG heart like ME. wahahaha~ but i tink lemon mint is nicer? lols. abit no link hor. hahaha. n u atcually voted for milo peng!! i told u i prefer milo dinosaur le!! how could uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu -_-''''''''''''''''''' ok so crappy. ok since u're not in ntu psychology, u qualify as cute!! hahaha. but since i'm in ntu psychology, i qualify as cuter than u!! yayyy~ =D
ricola: although u nv tag.. but i muz tell u.. dotty is a very very nice guy too. but not as nice as us. cuz we got 3 veryS n he only got 2! -_-''' yeap. so dun consider him la. consider me!! ^^
huiyu: yea. semi-mishap only la. not tt bad.. they only one VERY apart. hahaha. so lame~ =X yeap. ur milopeng won. hahaha. so sad for me. nobody supports milo dino. hahaha. -_-''''
bert: haha.. yess. u're my bf! so u naturally qualify as cute! but ernie not my bf.. so he not cute.. hahahahaha. yayyyy~ ^^ rmb why i'm not ur ex? HAHA. n rmb why ernie not mab's ex? hahaha. so contradicting. [private joke] =X


wowwww. long tags! hahaha.

okk. the wkend juz passed so quickly! =)) saturday was fun! met ernie n beav for Click. n ernie was more retard than me @ cine. he thot the floor really got jelly!! -_-'''hahahahahhaha. n beav said i was stupid!! so ernie is not only un-cute.. he is also stupider than me!! WAHAHAHA. Click was not bad! quite ok bahs. hahaha. then ernie went off n came mab. hahaha. walked arnd.. ate abit at starbucks. chatted. went home! ^^

came sunday. busy frying stuff for the whole morning. i'm a champion wu xiang-frier now! lols. but i fry until i myself dun dare to eat. haha not bcuz fry until not nice. but because u fry it so u're sick of it. hahaha. it's the same logic as u i/c of cooking the food when bbq-ing. then u dun eat much after tt. hahaha. yeap.

yeap. then went for somebody's funeral.. then went to book chalet.. but no more room le.. so no chalet for nday. hahaha. then erm.. went detoured to tm meet mab! n buy jacket n pencil case! wahahah. which brings my total spending in tm this WEEK to a total of 120+?? omgggggg. so scary! hahaha. i shall nv go tm again!

but i met mab after sch @ tm today! -_-'''

okk. yeap. erm then. sch was fun today! hahaha. not THAT fun laa. but i like it! hahaha. like so funny seeing ur fellow first yr students as blur as u, holding a map wherever they go. hahaha. n we purposely went to canteen A for lunch cuz heard tt canteen B food sucks. which is really quite silly cuz our sch is VERY near canteen B. n when we finish eating at canteen A, our lec start le. so we were apparently late, n canteen A is so far away from our sch that we had to tk a bus back for lec! wahahha~ so crap. n the bus was super crowded n wait so long. so we were like 20min late for lec? wahahah~ so funny! ahahas. i tink HW101 is gonna be quite nice! hahaa. cuz the lecturer is funnier than HP101? hahahaa. yayyy~ sch is finally getting cooler! =D n everyone's psychoing me to go stay hall.. cuz they tink i'm crazy. n i really tink i'm crazy too. hahhaa. -_-''' oh wells~ see how first! =)

yeap. then uhhh. wat else? hahaa. ohh yahh. saw alot of ppl today! hahaha. from all the many various sch! hahaha. yeaaaaaaa~ at least not so stranger de environment. yeap! =)) n yay. THANKS YUYU DEARDEAR FOR HELPING ME REGISTER MY FORENSIC SCI TODAY MORNING!!! =D

lalalaaaaa~ ok go print my notes leeee! ^^

okk i'm so excited for huiyu!! hahaha. huiyu YOU XI LE. wahahhaa. i'm going to mislead the whole world. wahahahahha. ok i cnnt say wat xi muahahahahaha. :p


haha yep, ricola! thanks for finally tagging!! hahaha. yeaaaaa. the teabags r smart n funny! hahaha. ^^

SI DOTTY. wat i very flirty!! n wat sure gao da!!! wat is the problem with sas guys!! =X they either lie or they talk rubbish. wat the hell is their problem!! urrrrrgh. -dun fren u- booooooooooooooo.

ok i officially declare i'm SCARED of prawns. as in.. not juz hate eating them.. but i'm SCARED of raw prawns too!! eeeeeks. mummy juz asked me to help her erm..un-shell? yeap. peel the shells of like half a kg of raw prawns?? hahaha. so dumb. reason? cuz she got no nails n need long nails to peel. blahhh!! n i tell u it's damn feaking disgusting. it's the most disgusting thing i've ever touched in my entire life la. like u yank it's head out n all that. then u pull out it's legs? wth la! i like literally pain for the prawns la. it's so cruel. imagine someone yank out ur head juz lidat?? together with ur eyes n all tt?? eeeeeeeeeeeks. i was like closing my eyes half the time!! =X n the stupid smell is so STINKO n got the stupid yellow thingy that flows out that freaks me out. n i kp washing my hands every 1 or 2 prawns i peeled!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeew eeeeeeeeeeeeew eeeeeeew. how can u guys ever eat prawns!! it's so cruellllll. okok no offense. but if u wanna continue eating prawns, word of advice is dun go peel raw prawns. cuz after tt u will nv wanna eat prawns again. i tink chefs r very poor things. cuz they muz be guilt-ridden for the rest of their lives peeling so many prawns everyday!!! =[


SOMEBODY PLS STOP CALLING ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE. U'RE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS. I DUN CARE IF I'M SOUNDING MEAN NOW. U R JUZ INTERFERING WITH MY LIFE. YOU KNOW WAT IS CALLED HARRASMENT?!?! YOU ARE HARRASMENT!! I'M NOT INTERESTED IN TALKING TO U AT ALL. ON THE PHONE OR WHAT SO EVER. YES I SAID BEFORE I DUN MIND DISCUSSING ANY PROBLEMS ON THE PHONE AS LONG AS IT DOESN'T MAKE ME ANGRY. BUT I DUN SEE ANY PROBLEM NOW. U R THE BIG PROBLEM. N JUZ LOOKING AT UR CALL RECORDS FREAK ME OUT N MAKE ME FUMING MAD. SO IF I PICK UP THE PHONE I'LL JUZ SCREAM AT U. WHICH I DUN FANCY WASTING MY VOCAL CORDS ON U. CAN U JUST BLOODY HELL GET OUT OF MY LIFE N LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

mab: haha bags yong yuan bu gou de!! :p
yuyu: hahaha. did anyone msg u to celebrate bdae together with me? lols. =X
ernie: yayyyyy!! i want wang zi miannnn!! wahahaha. i suddenly wanna sing MI GONG too!! ^^ oh btw do u noe shixian? rv nj de.. she says she's ur sec1/2 classmate!! hahaha
bert: hahaha same difference ba. okk use wrong word lo. heeex. the idea is there can liao lo~ =)

hahaha. went for orientation today. juz talks lo. n interaction with the profs. yeap they're quite nice ppl i guess! =) ahahahs. then pon the freshman welcome ceremony. hahah. so fast pon lessons le. ok it's not a lesson loooooo. wahahaha. then went to kym's dorm with pris! hahahaha. so cooooool. ok i noe u guys haf seen ugly photos of ntu's dorm. but after some cleaning up n stuff it's not tt bad la. on first sight it doesn't look attractive.. but everything u need is there la. n the study table is quite nice! hahaha. n the bed is not bad. juz tt a bit dirty? hafta air it n bring ur own watever la.. hahaha. but i tink it's quite nice.. i dun mind staying!! hahaha. i today travel until i so sian zzz... hahaha. might consider staying nxt sem or nxt yr? see how.. but stay then hafta tk up cca le. blahhhhhhh!

okk then made a few new frens la.. but all not very shou leh.. siannn. hahaha. got those like.. jiang hao meet n find the lt n tut rm together before lessons la.. but like not very shou oso.. blahblahblah. siannn zzz. hahahaha. lidat lo~ hope make more new frens soon! =) hahaha.

oh ya.. saw quite afew familiar faces.. the first person i saw was weiyannnnnn. blahhhhhhhh. =X hahahaha. then uhhhh. saw siewping!! hahahah. quite excited when i saw her cuz really super long nv see her le..but she's taking chinese la. hahaha. then saw erm.. chewyu? duno how to spell her name.. the cchs 4ep de..huiqing's gd fren... hahaha. yeap. then nafang taking chem.. blahblah.. cnnt rmb who else le..think i saw a sharon-looking person ahahaha. duno got recognise wrongly not -_-'''

hmmmm. dun worry tt i'll be lead astray or distracted during my studies... cuz there r so no guys in my fac.. ehhhh we are like the second batch of ntu psychology students. n the first batch only got like 6guys out of 70+ ppl... n our batch got 100+ ppl but i only see like less than 20 guys today. dun even know got 10 not.. n they r like.. erm.......... hahaha ya. no further elaboration needed. lols. yayyy~ means i can study hard n be my dream nerd!! wahahahha. ^^

yeap. i still deciding wat electives to take!! helppppppppppppp!!

dum dee dummm. oh ya. forget to make an announcement... PPL U'ALL CAN LINK MY BLOG LEEE!!! hahaha. diao. ya cuz the only person whom i dowan to know, i alrdy let her know n everything alright with her le.. so yeap. duneed hide le.. pls link me!! lols. -_-'''

blahhhh. wat's wrong with my whole family today. everyone so moody!! the whole family pms or something?? kp scolding me when i nv do anything!! -_-''' ok looks like i'm the only lighthearted person today in this house. hahaha

boooooooooooo. i'm officially sadd! =(( can't get the electives i wantttttttt!

those HSS ones have no more vaccancies le!! =( n my forensic sci!! cannot start register until 7aug! which is nxt monday. which is first day of sch. which means by the time i reach home n register alrdy no mroe vaccancies le!! cuz only 51..n i tink will alot of ppl want to takeeeeeeeeeee. =[

boooooooooooooooooooooooooo. i want my r u okkkkkkkkkkkkkk. i want my forensic sciiiiiiiii. i dowan end up with some dumb boring courseeeeeeeee. =((

reading mab's blog juz reminded meeeeee. I WANT THE NEW CONVERSE BAGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!

ppl my bdae is less than a month awayyyy!

n today is my LUNAR BDAE!!! =D

wahahaahahahhhh.

wooooooooooooooooo... did i ever mentioned how much i loved Wang Zi Mian!!! ^^

listening to sclub7 now.. never had a dream come true.. so niceeeeeeeee =))
*zi high-s*[i'm doing alot of tt recently ain't i?]

hahaha. ok so there r some things i'm dying to say.. but i guess this isn't the right place n right time to say such things. hahaha. so i shall shut up! yay yay yayyyy! -_-'''

i nv had a dream come truueeeee till the day tt i found uuuuu...... even though i pretend tt i've moved onnn u'll always be my baby.... i nv found the words to say.. u're the one i tink abt each day... n i noe no matter where life takes me to, a part of me will always beeeeee............... there's no use looking back or wondering cuz love is a strange n funny thinggggg. *tired of zi-highing* =X

hahahahhh. ok i'm still deciding on my electives! woooo~ so exciting. hahaha. i'm thinking of FORENSIC SCIENCE. lolssssss. sounds so coooool. n it's something i've always dreamt of going into? hahaha. dou shuo shi DREAM le. oh wells~ see how ba. can only sign up for two things.. but i'm like.. i wanna try everything!!!! =((

wooooooo. hopefully can get to go chalet on nday!! =)

i got a sudden craving for milo dinosaur!! hahahaha. -_-''''

bahhhhh. the nite is a nice time to get emo.. did someone said tt before? was it mab? yeap. i tink it's quite true. it's getting harder n harder for me to fall aslp at nite nowadays. n i always very restless when i sllp. like wake up every 2 or 3 hrs? boooooo. =(( then i nv slp past 9 in the morning? how sad is tt! hahaha. issit juz my life too idle le tts why? hahaaha. n when i can't slp n i got noone to talk to i start hu si luan xianging. last nite i was thinking of like how nice it would be if can go back to the times when u got someone special to share ur life with! yea i noe i haf many nice n close frens.. but the feeling is juz different i guess? someone u r OBLIGED to share ur everything with. haha i make it sound so un-nice..obliged. but isn't tt the thing tt keep most couples going? hmmm. =[

i guess both of u r sad. n i duno wat to do about it sometimes. like i pick up the phone last nite. n i started dialling a number. then i tink.. ok mayb i should call the other one instead. then i erase the number i was dialling n started dialling to the other party. then i pause again n think. doesn't seem very rite. wat am i going to say. as in.. no matter who i call i'm stuck in the middle. cuz both r my frens. n i can't tk sides. maybe it'll be easier if i could just stand on one side. bleah. n i'm juz afraid tt one wrong thing i say is going to cause a huge misunderstanding n we'll be back to half a yr ago again. yea. mayb i juz dun haf enough faith? bleah. but i so badly wanted to be there for the both of them. cuz it was my frens who tide me thru' the most difficult time of my life. n i wanted to be there for them like that too.. so that they could hopefully tideit thru' easier too. but then.. once bitten twice shy ma. hmmm so i ended up lying in bed n stoning n hu si luan xiang instead of calling anyone. =( hope this para doesn't offend anyone, esp. the two parties involved. hmmmm. SOMEBODY's rite after all.. where did the STRONG GAL went to? hahaha. somebody pls dun start picking up the phone n dialling my number juz bcuz u saw the above sentenceeeeee. =X

haii. yeap. i guess i owe SOMEBODY an apology for being so mean to u n avoiding u too. i didn't want things to end lidat too. but i guess i need more time away from u n lead my own life too. u aren't giving me space to breathe the air i need. so yea. i had to stay away from u. sorry if i'm leaving u there on ur own at such a time when u need friends by u. but i dun wanna be nice anymore. i just want to live a life by my own. even if it means selfish at times. sorry...

=X how did zi highing turned out so sorrowful..... =X

WAHAHAHAHHHH. i'm no longer jealous of huiyu nor her timetable. cuz my timetable rawks mannn.

I ONLY HAVE LESSONS ON MONDAY & THURSDAY!!!!!!

wahahahhhhhhhhhhhhh. this just keeps getting better!! =D

okkk. i better register for my electives tmr! ^^

I Believe

Have you ever you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
And tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
Cause the magic that surrounds you
Will lift you up and guide you on your way

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally I believe

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally I believe
Yes I believe

Ohh Yeah

Love keeps liftin me higher
Liftin me higher
Love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me
I said Love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me higher
Said love keeps liften me higher
I said love keeps liften me high

hahah this is so dumb!! i can't matriculate cuz i lost my passwordd! lols. ok so i hafta wait for them to reset for meeeee. =(( ok laa but they r quite efficient leh. hahaha. they replied my email in like 10min? hahaha. wheeeeeeeee~ meeting mab dearie for lunch! am damn hungry now! i could eat an elephantttttttttt!! =D

*zi-highs again*

hahahahhhhhh. huiyu got her timetable leeeeee. i'm so jealoussssss!! =C

*you are my suuuuuuuuuuuuugar rushhhh!!* ^^


hmmmmm. hope all my friends will be happy EVENTUALLY. =)

hahah ernie DEMANDS tt i blog in honour of him cuz he sent me the sugar rush song n i should gif him credit for tt.

-credit credit credit-

-honour honour honour-

hahaha. ermmmm. thanks ernie? hahaha. i duno wat to say le. lols. some day we go singkbox ba.. help u trainfor ur superstar? lols. ok i duno wat else le. iblogged in honour of u before le.. before u went ns.. so i got nothing to say liao. lols.

-end of entry in honour of ernie-

wheeeeeeeeeee~ wahahahah! the song i just posted... it's called SUGAR RUSH!!! wahahahhh~ i suddenly fall in love with the songggg. wahahahhah~ it's so niceeeeeeee. yay. i love a teens songs!! hahahahhh. n the song i posted last nite was Because Of You, Kelly Clarkson. wahahahhhh~ i think i'm quite dumb lehh. i should juz post the title tog rite. lols. ^^

yayyyy. went kbox ytd with the dans except jess!! wahahahhh. quite fun laa. jun was so shyyyy! hahahahhh. but we force her to sing! lols. ^^

yayyyyyyyy. was terribly bored juz now. cuz use the comp the whole day. playing the same damn game. which is quite fun initially. but as u advance to the very difficult stages. u replay n replay taking more than half an hr to clear ONE stage. which is very very torturous! hahahah. ok i'm typing super slow due to the stupid keyboard[no ernie i'm still not going to surrender it to u hahah]! lalalalal~

okk so apparently i got so bored tt i psycho-ed mab into meeting me after her lessons. n omggggg. i spent $73 bucks in 3hours!! wahahahhhhhhh. omggg. i'm going to confine myself for the rest of the wk!! wahahahha. havoc sia~ but shopping with mab dearie rawks!! ^^ heeeeex i'm gonna shop with u too nxt yr when it's ur turn to prepare for uni!! =)) heeeex. so cooool. n we continued being bimbotic after we reach home. hahahahh. so funny. n we came up with tactics to psycho our mummies into not nagging us for spending too much money. MUAHAHAHAH. damn funnnnnny! =D yayness(EC)!!!! i love my mab dearieeeee!! ^^ heeeeeeex.

ahahahs. i tink mummiesr very funny ppl.. dun u tink so? hahahahh. n it's kinda cool how ur mummy always ask abt ur best fren n how she's doing n blah. then she'll start commenting abt her HEIGHT n blahblahblah. wahahahhahahahha. mab is so going to laugh at this lols. yayness(EC)!!! i'm glad mummy's in a gd mood today!! wahhahah. i tink she haven't seen my esprit shirt! hahahah. ok i'm going to keep it before she sees it! then by the time i wear she will forget when i bot it le. then she wun make noise abt how i spend so much in 3hours! wahahahahh~ mab aren't u proud of me? we're getting smart!! =D

okk i tink the fox tee oso quite nice lehhhh. hahahahh. okkk i cannot shop anymore. n i wun try anymore clothes to curb temptation. wahahahahh.

this is a so totally bimbotic entry!! =D

hahhahahhh. n so we were chatting juz now n i commented about how bimbotic we were getting. then mab says "nvm it's ok to be bimbotic once in awhile!" n my bro gang hao pass by me n saw wat she typed from behind n he went "bimbotic once in awhile?? wthhh!" wahahahhahh. damn funny laaaa. i bet he's going to laugh when if i told him it's the fren who went arnd being pucca n kisses everyone!! C=

lalalaaaaaaaaa~ *zi high-s*

sUgaR rUsH!!

I
Cant help whenever you're around
Screaming from my head to my toes
I
Gotta get my feet back on the ground
Cause you make me go out of way
Crossing the line
Making me say what i have in mind.

You make me so excited
And i dont wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Aint nothin better baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush

I
Got a sweet tooth and i taste for you
And i might be too obvious but
I
Cant help myself from what i do
Cause you make me go out of my way
Crossing the line
Making me say what i have in mind.

You make me so excited
And i dont wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Aint nothin better baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush

Baby you're my sugar rush
I get too weak and i talk to much
You're the sweetest thing ive ever tasted
Baby you're my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much

Cause you make me go out of my way
Crossing the line
Making me say what i have in mind.

You make me so excited
And i dont wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Aint nothin better baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush

Baby you're my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing ive ever tasted
Baby you're my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much

You are my sugar rush

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! playing this stupid msn game that is so exciting but i forever stuck at the forth stage!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeks. hahaha cooool~ see how bored i m? HAHAHA. =X

Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

influenced by jaren to take silly quizes.....

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Your EQ is 147

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

hahaha this is so dumb. i'm using another new keyboard n mouse now! lols. cuz ytd that wireless keyboard is last time duno buy wat then free de.. then i kp complaining not nice to use then my uncle wants it.. so bro gaf it to him n bpt ANOTHEER set of wireless keyboard n mouse! yay~ finally!! hahaha this one has the normal configuration de!! =) but like the keys not as nice to type lehhh... -_-''' hahaha. i miss huiyu's keyboard!! lol....... =X

boooooooooooooooo. bad mood ytd nite. hahaha. so siannn. why do the both of us haf to be so bothered by the two of them? eeeeeeeks. this keyboard officially sucks. so difficult to type! waahahaha. ok aabit out of pt. =X heeex. hmmmm yea.. mab dun worry so much le k! bert's rite... no point making yourself so miserable over him! just zou yi bu kan yi bu baaa! then there's always bert n i who love u soooooo much!! i an share him with u!! wahahah *hugs* ^^


bleahhhhh. guess some things r juz not meant to be.. so shouldn't think so much and make a big hoo hah out of nothing. hahahhaha. =(

blahhhhhhhh. quite fun ytd.. hahaha. happening~ lazy... slack-ish. hahahah. nua-ish. lols. wat vocab! hahaha.

yeaps. met the dans. hahaha. cool~ fri met 8e sat met dans. hahaha. yeap. blahblahblah. nothing much.. apart from the dramatic sheltering with two pathetic umbrellas on the way to jess hse. lols. then fooled arnd n all tt.. heex.. then left her hse at almost 6, everyone looking so sleepy.. hahaah

then went to bukit panjang plaza to meet ernie. quite stupid. he made me wait so long until 9 then in the end nv buy the cakes!! BLAH!! hahaha. ok nvm~ punishment is dun go out with him today! lollls.

yay. tooday ish a happy day! first day of official use of my new comp! the stupid wireless keyboard so hard to use!! yay. changing soon le~ MUAHAHA. ahahas. n was fooling arnd with bro juz now.. damn funny. then i was so high i started dancing arnd my hse WAHAHAHA. -_-'''

ok,, i shall not sound like mab! -_-'''

hahaha. so coincidentally... the 100TH entry made in my this blog.. is partially dedicated to GAIGAI! lols..

yeap. by the time u reach home after the long day.. n after u've read my card for u.. hopefully u see this too! :) hahaa hopefully u wun take into consideration all the nasty things i said n do in the past few months.. yeap. n yea.. hope tt from today onwards u visit my blog more often to find out abt wat's happening in my life!! =) i love gaigai!!(x100,SC!) ^^ *classical gaigai hug*

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ok abt life..

ytd was GREATTTTTTTT! met huiyu in the morning to get lost in NTU! wahaha. yeap. went to hand in something ma haha. then yeap. ate @ JP n she went for her lessons n i went to meet the choir peeps!

FINALLY SAW ERLY!!! hahaha. n many photos of her euclyd(forgot how to spell? haha)!! =)) soooooo cute laaaaaaaaaaaa. somebody is super xinfu now!! -jealous- hahaha. oh wells! hopefully my day comes too. which means 6more girls must get married first. bcuz i wanna be bridesmaid for all 6 of them!! so i cannot get married first. HAHA. but according to superstitions.. a girl cannot be bridesmaid for more than 3 times.. or else zi ji jia bu chu qu le. WAHAHA. watever lo~ -_-'''

yeap. went back to cchs choir for reuben's farewell party! they shifted n renovated choir room!!!! -DOUBLY JEALOUS- wahahaha. win liao loooo. how cannnnnnnnnnnnn. lols. then yeap. 5 generations of choir singing Dorven Dalai together !! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! super high.... although i totally like forgot half the thing liao n cannot reach so many soprano notes.. -_-''' but NVM. IT WAS FUNNNNNNNNNNN!!! =D oh mannnnnnnn.. i miss the good old days! hahaha. so sadddd. we went to walk arnd sch after tt.. then they sang SALMO!! n we missed ittttttt. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. how could we have missed salmo!! blahhhhh. hahah nvm not like i can reach nwae.. but would have been fun! hahaha. n ya.. we kena nagged BY THE STUPID VPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!! >=(
"r u'all ex students? come back to visit issit?"
"ya.."
"nxt time u'all come back can u'all wear..... erm. more? we still haf your very young juniors u know.........."
!#@$#!$E%%^@!%!
WTH. ultimate buay song-ness(EC?)!!!! bleahhhhhs. stupid vp. blacklisted by me le. wahaha
yeap then saw yazeed!! ^^ n cnnt find marcus kuek as usual. out of 5times i go back i only found him 1 time. hahaha. so siannnnn.

yea~ then chatted with reuben n stuff.. then went to parkway meet the rest of the 8es except yt! :)) happy gatheringggggg!! (kuai le de ju hui? lols.) really very very very very VERY happy ytd! yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :))

hahaha n thanks bert n mab for unofficially escorting me home! =)) lols.

yayyyyyyy. happy ytd. n happy today-to-come!! ^^

hahaha chatting with reuben now! LALALA. so cool~ i realise tt coming online at those ungodly hours..entitle u to chat with ppl u haven't chatted with for a LONG LONG time.

like ytd... =)

heeeex. wat more can i say? i'm just very very happy! can't stop smiling! (: lalalaaaaaaaaa~ duno why also.. guess it's a big load off my shoulder now.. finally found out wat i've always wanted to know, regardless of whether it turns out to be good or bad.. at least i have an answer now! lalalaaaaaa.

-happy happy girl-
:)

haha no bert i'm not obsessed over her laa. lols. juz happy tt finally we're talking again. n juz.... =X haha cannot say here! lols.

yayyyyyyy. so happy to be able to talk to the person i talked to today morning! hahaha. =D *grins* yay yay yayyy. can't say who or wat we talked about. promised to kp a BIG secret. but yeap... so happy. finally found out wat i wanted to know after so long! (:so funny to be able to talk lidat after so long. but yeap.. happy happy!! (: hope everyone will be happy! :)

nwae.. am back from my ex tuition teacher's hse! hahaha. wanted to treat her for lunch.. but she ask me go her hse so she can cook for me!! ^^ ahahahs. yeaps. then chatted quite abit.. talked abt bgr n GOD n other stuff.. hahaha. no i'm not criticising anyone or anything.. juz dun like it when ppl talk to me about religious stuff haha. but oh wells~ it was nice chatting with her.. learnt alot! :) ok now i know how to pick my nxt bf! hahahahhaha! :)

yay yay yay. really very happy today! =D


although i'm super bored again now................... zzz.

HAHA. of all ppl.. guess who i'm chatting with?? phewwwww. at last... "mi di yi jing jie kai le.." =)

boooo. so bored. noone to gb with! kena trashed by some stranger in the afternoon! wahaha. bahhhhhhhhhh. bored bored BORED!! =[

hahaha! talked to jieru last nite!! wooooooooo... cools~ hahaha. so fascinated by wat's happening in her life all this time.. =) actually fascinated is juz a nice word to cover up for something else. hahaha~ nvm... secret! *shhhhhhhhhhhh* ;)

lalalaaaaaaaa. someone entertain meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

how come not a single sensible soul is online! =X

blahblahblah! yayyyy~ tmr onwards can go out le!! hahaha. say until i not allowed to go out lidat.. haha juz tt i dowan go out ma. =X watever~ so bored tt i'm blogging boliao stuff ahahas. :p

make a guess at wat i'm doing!! n u'll know how bored i am...... zzz.

DOWNLOADING GUNBOUND!! omggg. wahaha

hahaha. i'm juz blogging for the sake of blogging again. wahahha. ok first things first.. REPLY TAGS!!

mab: yea.. i agree... SHEESHHHHHHHHHH!
bert: hahaha ya tts carl's junior! yummmeeeyyyyyyyyyyy!! :p
jun: =)
jess: (=
ernie: cnnt be bothered to reply u le wahahaha. same joke u kp telling so many times not funny lo. hahahha

okkk. i muz go n update my friendster profile one day! willy juz emailed me... n he went "Judging from your friendster pictures, you've found a boyfriend to share your life with huh?" omggggg. r my photos THAT misleading?? hahahhahah. ook. i betta update them soon. but i'm so lazy n cnnt b bothered with friendster now! zzz.. see how ba.. ahahas.

blahhhh. so bored. got mood later then blog somemore ba. so tired. gtg do the dishes LALALA. ^^

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muahahaha. bet alot of ppl r interested in this! so i'm just doing free advertising n providin information for ppl interested. wahahahha. so lame~ lalala. i'm off to watch tv!! hahaha guys auditions r on my bdae!! boooo hooooooooooooooooo. means i got even lesser ppl to celebrate my bdae with me! hahaha cuz all will flock down to toa payoh hdb hub. hahaha nvm. shall haf celebrations with the gals then. nah. they'll flock down to support the guys too. hahahah! ok duneed celebrate bdae le. might as well go support the guys too. wahahah. watever~ lalala TV TIME!! =)

hahaha see i kp blogging show how bored i am. blahh.

juz watched the 'kiss' mtv again. hahaha. still so nice... -awwwwwwwwww-

n CERTAIN korean dramas r as nice as my darling hk serials! muahahaha.

some ppl just dun get it... dun they??

i've never blocked anyone in my entire life. not even jieru when we quarrelled. dun make me start blocking now.

yayyyy. i chatted w jieru last nite! =)

yayyyyy. i quarrelled w my ex last nite! -_-'''

oh wells. might as well. i dun understand wat's the problem with guys. can't they be more normal?? n i dun understand how u can do so many things n forget all abt them. n i dun understand how u can do something so wrong n push the entire blame to ur gd fren. 7yrs of friendship n all u took was 10min to ruin it. yah. dun worry i'm not saying it's ur fault. everything is MY fault rite? some ppl juz refuse to think with their numbskull. when the whole world crumbles on them, t's always the other person's fault yea? it doesn't matter if they have stm n cannot rmb wat they do. it's juz not their fault they cannot rmb anything. it's the other person's fault for rmb-ing it so clearly yea? wooo hoooo~ watever. pls dun call me when u read this. i dun ever wanna talk to u again.

lalala~

yayyyyy. went out with ernie huiyu n stella ytd! hahaha. so funnnn! we ate 'niu de hai zi'! hahaha. n we saw alot of ppl whose 'ge ge yao chu guo le'. wahahaahaha. lame~ blahblahblah. watever. so sian. huiyu n stella so sian. then ernie n i so enthu want go shopping. hahahha. okk. at least ernie bot something. poor me. try everything... either i dun like or those i love dun haf my size!! boo boo. -wails-

yay. one step each n we're nearer to friends again! :)

haha ok reply tags first...
jun: yeap. thanks! i'll be happy... dun worry abt me.. i guess i've made up my mind alrdy... =)
bert: okok dun cry. wo ai ni bi ai johnny depp duo yi dian dian.. hahaha
mab: haha u want flower juz copy n paste from my blog can le.. ok we go trim one day this wk? i wanna rebond my ends!
ernie: u got hair to cut meh? :p

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hahaha ok. things r getting slightly weird recently. hahahaha. =X

yayyyyy. kbox ytd w lj bert hx!! duper funnnn!! =D although started out very nan ting-ly. hahaha ask bert!! i zao xia like duno wat. wahahahhaa. lalalalalaaaaaaaaaa~ so happpppy!! sing 5hrs still not enough.... i still wanna singggg!! :) n i still suck with duets... =(( then walked arnd ps with lj mab ernie! muahahahaaas. =) yayness!!(ec) happy dayyyyyyyyyyyy! :))

mab pls call me later if u r free!! :)

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abt nxt sat:
jess... ernie DEMANDS tt u ask him along. the rest of the dans.... erm. i tink i shld be going ba.. haha. pls help me be strong. n pls dun scold me if i really leave halfway... blahs! (ehhh... dun tink will happen ba? HOPEFULY. haha) [tis para sounds like a prayer... -_-''''] hmmm yeap. i still wun know wat to say or do.. blahhh. sounds weird. then i go for wat hor? bleahhhhh. =(

oooooh. mab dun be sad le! u'll get to enjoy ursself soon! :))

ohhhhh. was looking thru' my comp files... like deleting n sorting out certain stuff... then came across this..
'something happened between u n huiting arhx'
'Er..dunoe leh..inbr dun like her or wad la..i find her beri gdgd wan.think is she dun like me ba..dunoe leh..i hab a feelin she like dun wan tok to me like dat'
09:17:19pm
13-07-2004
look at the date!! can u believe it?? ancient yrs ago le!! hahaha. so funny thinking abt the past.. the silly me.. but i nv regretted that falling for that idiot n blah. hahaha. it marked one of the sweetest memories of my life.. =) oh wells~ funny to tink of it.. i've like totally lost touch with him now.. hahaha. wonder wat would things have turned out like if i confessed my feelings... hahaha. oh wells. dou shuo shi wonder liao.. wun happen.. so might as well dun wonder! ahahas. but then... he IS sweet watttt. HAHA. =))

yeap. saw many other convos n blogs n all tt stuff too... but yea.. this was the most interesting one.. lols.

yayyy. cleared my shelves today... threw away more stuff. wahaha.. prevernt cluttering... cluttering is unhealthy! :p muz make space for the new academic yr! :)

speaking of new academic yr... received email from hss today. seems like 4august is going to be a super packed day! n orientation wk is not going to be as slack as i expected.. =(( ok i better spend the next few days settliing more of my uni stuff. cannot drag le!! =X n i haven't went shoppingggggggggg!! :(( n i nid to trim my hair!! blahhhh. i look so ugly nowadays. =(

i love johnny depp!! :)

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blahh! ytd was funn!! met up with huiyu in the afternoon so she can go her shopping... then evening met up with rest of the dans n andy n baba n went for dinner @ sizzler! hahaha. quite nice.. =) nxt time i'll juz haf the salad bar...wahaha. ok nxt time zai shuo ba... it was So great meeting up with all of them n chatting n catch up n all that stuff... =))

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but i guess my spirits got dampened towards the day of the day ba.. cuz tinking of jieru n all tt stuff... yeap. maybe it's really time to face her again. but i can't help feeling weird n got those 'bu xiang de yu gan' about meeting her again. haix... i guess it's just me ba... but seriously i duno how am i going to face her.. all the nasty words exhanged when i was angry n all tt.. it suddenly seems weird. n the thought of meeting her brought back all the awful memories last nite... the whole thing. have i really put the whole thing past me? arggh. feel so horrible. nearly cried on my way home last nite. :( everyone can put down the whole thing n forgive her alrdy...but i'm still so hesitant abt meeting her... wat's wrong with me?? blahh! i noe deep down i still want the fren but i duno if i'm ready... i really duno how to face her n talk to her... wat am i supposed to say?? blahh. but i really wanna see an old fren n find out how she's doing... know how she feels abt the whole thing n all tt too.... so why am i hesitating?? i'm supposed to be strong rite? bleahs. =(( this is so screwed up. wth is wrong with me???

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i hate sas guys. wth is their problem?? is there a need to tell the whole world wat u do?? very fun issit?? so nice to hao lian issit?? stupid bigheads irritating ignorant selfish jerks. they never ever spare a thought for others before they open their mouths, do they?? >=( i absolutely cnnt stand sas guys!! WTH IS THEIR PROBLEMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!! urrrgh. n it's not just ONE sas guys. it's TWO freaking sas guys. no i'm not talking abt who u tink i'm talking abt. blahs. nvm. haha. u dun hafta know who i'm talking abt. urrrrrgh. selfish moronic bastards. wthhhh!!! blahhh. u guys better not offend me again or else i'm so gonnaaa................... what? what am i even supposed to do? blahh! whateverrrrrrr. juz cnnt be bothered. esp. by ONE OF THEM. ok at least the other one apologised. but if he hadn't apologised i would have slapped him hard. wat's HIS problem>??? -_-'''

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hahah there's gotta be better things to do then spending my hols worrying abt an old fren n scolding two stupid sas guys? blah!

*awwwwwwwww.... whoever says hk serials can nv be sweet n nice as korean! hahaha... =)

hahahaha... ytd was a totally blur day!! -_-'''

went to meet mab in the afternoon.. so she can eat her MACs. -_-''' then walked arnd n after tt went town to meet my colleagues they'all!

ahahahas. i went taka first help them get timesheets from the agency... then they at far east eating.. so i wanted go find them.. then i walk... n walk happily. n then uh-oh. why am i standing infront of somerset mrt........ -_-''' -blushblush- yessss i got lost again. hahahhaa. then i called for help. i mean use hp call, not stand there n call -_-'''' duh. yeap. then finally walked back to far east sweating... =X then yeap met them n blah. so nice... talking n laughing.. muahahas.

then we went to watch pirates!!!!!! woooooooooooooooooooooo~ it's the best movie i've seen for ages besides carsssss~!!!! yay yay yayyyyy!! PPL PLS GO N WATCH!!! it's damn hilarious!! i luagh until i going to fall from the chair le... it's damn funny laaa..... hahahah. then after the show we sit there so long waiting for the credeits to finnish rolling... which is damn long. cuz heard alot ppl say after credits got show part 3... then in the end.. only show one scene that is not even related to part 3 -_-''''' hahahahha. but still.... THE MOVIE IS SUPER NICEEEEEEEEE!!!! ^^

okkk going out again later!! lalalaa~ so tired!! same slping hrs as ytd again!! =(

okkkk. as u can see.... i'm UBER bored to be blogging here at such a time of the day! hahaha

it's nice to slp late. but point being i can't slp well! hahaha. sadness(1/2 EC)! bahhhhhs. fell aslp at 1+ then woke up at 7+.. how bad is tt? hahaha siannnnnnnned(got EC?)

blahs. blahblahblah. i'm so bored now. n there's not a single soul online i can chat with. blahs! waiting for time to c..r..a..w..l.............. then i can go out!!! ^^ ahahahas.

gonna meet mab for lunch later! ahahhas. actually i ate nissin chilli crab juz now.. i tink i abit crazy. 2days ago diarrhoea now eat chilli crab. wawhahha. watever~ see i blog this type of stuff then know i ultra bored le. muahaha. bahhhhhhhh. okk then gg down town to watch PIRATES!! :)) n i haven't even watched the curse of the black pearl before! oh wells. hahaha

tmr might meet debbie n the rest in the afternoon to go see yeti's baby first then go meet the dans or something. yayness(EC)!! so long nv see them all le!! =D lalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

i want to sing kbox!! i miss singing kbox!! hahahaha. kboxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!! countdown to kbox: TWO DAYS!! woooo hoooooooo~

ok i shld change my wish list liao.. hahaha. ok let's see.... i might want a new pair of specs, i want tt purple nike bag i saw at queensway! n i want new lingerie!!!! wahahahha.... wat else? the puma jacket can strike off... then esprit perfume still considering... hahaha. sport shoes bot le... flats mayb keep a lookout for.. did i miss anything else? oh belt i bot le.. juz tt not so nice.. normal de.. no crown.. might consider the crown one though, cuz i know where to get it le... hahaha. n ehhh? wat else. hahaha. erms. uhhhhh. ok tts all i guess... go add to my list now!! lalalaaa~

woooo i shld do a mask now too since i haf the time!! bahs. -bored girl entertaining herself- lols. ciaooooooooooooo~ ^^

yayyyyy. yati gif birth to baby boy lee!! ^^ i want go see!! hahaha...

woooo... i'm in singing mood nowww. been singing the whole afternoon! huiyu i want go kbox!! :(

yay!! i'm finally recovering!! :) ytd was like helll.

first i diarrhoea-ed. then i lie down to rest. then i diarrhoeaed again. n after tt i puked. like i haven't even eaten anything for the day n i juz puke. then i eat the stupid por cheh yeeeee. juz swallowed down the water n i puked the whole thing out. puke n puke n puke. diarrhoea-ed n diarrhoea-ed n diarrohea-ed. by the time i stand up n look into the mirror, gosh. i was sweating like i juz ran 2.4, n my whole face is ASHEN white. then i see stars..... then i tried to sit down... but *bingbongbiang* buckets made way for me n i was lying there the nxt moment looking at this moth on the ceiling. hahaha. cool huh? for awhile i didn't dared to move.. then i look at the toilet door. shit. i locked it. wat if i can't get up myself?? moved a bone. ok everything fine. stood up. got out. called mummy. she couldn't leave work immediately. so she ask me go master bedroom n lie down first. cuz there nearer to toilet. then bro cnnt come back too cuz got stuff to do. blahs. so i lie there. afraid to eat or drink anything. slp, wake up, watch tv. -repeat- for like 5hrs. then i got damn hungry. wanted to get something to eat. n i walked to the kitchen. n started seeing stars again. held onto the sliding door for support. *bingbongbiang* the sliding door closed after me. hahaha. bingo. i fainted for the 2nd time. home ALONE. how cool is tt. now i bruised my thigh. ahahas. not so scary this time le. got up myself n went back to room. mummy came home. lemme drink cereal. took cab to clinic. food poisoning. suggested walking back. cuz i like better le. wrong choice. started paling like 100m away from home. had to sit down once in awhile to tk a breather. felt quite bad. i'm like one head taller than my mum, n she had to fu wo. =( then before i entered the door, those irritating stars entered my vision again. faster sit down once i approached the armchair. -phew- escaped the third bingbongbiang. ahhas. watch tv slack ate abit watch tv... slp.

felt better when i woke up today morning... infact, SO MUCH BETTER!! ahahas. =)) hope i get to go out tmr nite! :)

yada yada. i yam sadd.

first day away from work.. n i'm sick!! :((

woke up in the morning with the intention of gg swimming. then i rushed to the toilet n start excreting. blahs! then after tt i felt so weak i had to plop down on the armchair n stone. n my tummy is damn painful n i feel like puking. then i get up n move i'll start seeing stars. bleah!! got the medicated oil. slightly better noww. ok i can't sit typing. gotta lie down before i puke over my keyboard. bahhs. bad start to hols. :(( n i can't find the por jie yeeeeeeee.... hahaha bao jian wan laa. so i'm going to shrivel up in the armchair or something.

yada yada. i'm gonna be a strong gal. blahs! gorgor....wat time u coming homeeeeeeeee :((

bahs! beavan dun do anything stupid. or i'l never ever talk to u again. [tone: non-pmsing.]

blahblahblah. i'm juz not ready to face her. n i dun see why i shld force myself to be ready when i'm smply not ready. will only make things worse rite? n it doesn't help that somebody is telling her everything. thanks huh.

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went to nydc with ernie n beav juz now! hahaha. ernie is super lame... side joke: gimme 10 gimme 10!! ^^ ahahas. ate new zealand icecream! lalalas. =)) nice day... although i was having quite a case of pms-ing. hahaha. nvm. i got the whole wk to throw tantrum at myself at home! wahahaha cools~

lalalaaaaaaa. so siannnn. eyes abit pain. later go drip eyedrop! MUAHAHA!

bleahhh. was a very happy wk.. then i came back n decided to read blogs before i blog. then i read jess blog. n i feel so rotten now. feel like cryingg. :(( i guess all the dans will always miss the old her.. no matter what, she has walways been a part of us, n someone who cared for us n we cared for... reading jess blog took me a walk down memory lane.. both the happy n sad lanes. i really miss the old fren i guess... but was browsing thru' my sms on a long train ride juz now.. n saw an sms jess sent me at tt period of time.. she said she didn't want her to think that she can be so easily forgiven everytime she blunders... true enough.. but have we all been angry for too long? wat if she nv takes the initiative...does tt mean up to the day i lie in my coffin i still wun get to relieve the good old classical gaigai hugs?

jess.. u tink too highly of me le ba.. u always think i'm not at fault regarding the whole issue.. but i guess i wasn't a good gf at that time too.. maybe that was wat gaf him an excuse to have a change in heart... sure..u can ask me to shout it out loud, n i'll tell u.. i really loved him.. but loving him n being a spoiled brat are two different matters. i guess i was too ba dao in some ways n tt made him tired to carry on with the dumb sotong gal. mayb tts why he thinks i took him for granted.. i duno... n i dun really gif a damn anymore... too tired. perhaps this break was a gd thing afterall...made me see the scary n ugly side of him...

nwae... thanks jess.. i really treasure my frendship with u too! al though we hardly haf time to meet.. there r times when i'll think abt the silly days @ SA when u try to rape the rest of the dans with pork... hahaha. then i will laugh to myself like some idiot.. =))

n i miss the rest of the dans too! can't wait for thursday to come!! :))

blahs. in a really saddening mood now.. but i guess i'll try to blog abt the rest of the wk to attempt to cheer myself up!! haha. =)


heex.. the whole wk juz went pass in a blur!! haha.. first of all..i suddenly became this VIP at work. hahaha. as in not guest of honour type of VIP... but do alot of sai gang de VIP.. -_-''' hahaha. stupid josie.. make me stay back for ot practically everyday.. n ask me to do SO MANY things. i kp walking to n fro her table zzz... damn tired when i reach home everyday!! then he just popped a bomb on shirley n i on wed n told us 2new gals coming on thurs n we suppose to coach them. -_-''' so thurs was my busiest day @ SP ever! hahaha. the new gal is ok i guess.. haha but haven't learnt everything la.. handing her over to bernard.. not my fault ma!! really no time to coach.. hahaha

tues after work went topshop with shirley to get her shorts.. then went up to kino c uz both of us wanted buy books.. then the book i wanted to buy cnnt find! in the end the staff dug out two kiam chye copies for me.. but obviously i wanted one i better condition? haha so she helped me call to reserve a copy @ taka branch. went down on wed after work to get it.. n it's still untouched. haha cuz still trying to read shirley's book finish le then can retuen her asap! :)

then thurs nite went to eat @ newton food centre there.. yana n i's treat!! yana, for her first pay..n me, for my last pay! lols. n we silly-ly didn't know it'll be so ex.. so we bot like 50 each only... n in the end eat ontil like.. over $150?? hahaha. cuz there target tourists de ma.. hahaha. then yea the rest forked out some money each but we paid them back on fri of cuz.. heex.. nvm the money.. i was truly really the happiest gal tt evening!! :)) so many ppl came for the dinner!! all the temps except the 2new girls n yp, yana, weiling n patrick, DEBBIE!! :D that totals up to 11 ppl!! haha.. really like reunion dinner lo.. so happy!! ^^ gawd i really didn't realised how much i missed debbie until i saw her!! :)) yayyyy~ am going her hse one of these days before sch starts! heex..

then we went town after dinner.. n yw say want go paragon collect something.. then we ended up stuck there cuz got this charity auction then ALOT of celebrities came!! so we stand there drooling like idiots @ this SUPER HOT guyyyy. hahaha. ok there was only one or two hot guys.. but the guys feast their eyes like duno wat... so many chiobus!! :p then i didn't even realise clara n debbie MIA until i finish drooling. hahaha. then they say they went to look for their fren who's working there.. haha. so we walked arnd looking at those perfumes n stuff.. then fooled arnd, with yw being the joker as usual... haha. then debbie n clara suddenly reappeared with MY PRESENT. omgggggggg. i was damn stunned n touched laa. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. :):):) wasn't even expecting it!! hahaha. n guess wat they bot? giordano JUNIOR. hahaha like thanks~ lol. but quite nice laa heex.. shirt n jacket.. heex.. tts my THIRD giordano jacket le zz... but nvm i still love them!! as in ALL OF THEM cuz everyone shared! heex.. ok i can strike off the puma jacket on my list le.. duneed buy le.. hahaha.

then fri was a very happy n cheery day too! heex.. n YP SAID I AM CUTE. omggg. i laugh until i fell down. WAHAHAHA. then yana n i asked josie to help us buy breakfast for everyone on sat morning.. hahaha. cuz tt day thurs nv treat the boss n the perms ma.. so abit weird.. then if dun buy for the temps oso very weird.. so buy for everyone lo.. hahaha! n i spent almost two hours at nite writing n drawing cards for them! hahaha. n i am pissed with gungun. cuz everything i do for them or they do for me, he wipes up all the thoughtfulness n effort with his stupid wet blanket. i seriously felt like strangling him? haha u finally figured out why i kp scolding u? lols.

nwae... yeap. today was a happy day too!! :D breakfast!! hahaha then gaf out my cards to them!! n they were all quite happy i guess.. heex :) n i was quite touched when clara said she slept at 3am but crawled out of bed juz to eat my breakfast!! :)) i guess i'm really really gonna miss each n everyone of them there! haha even yp for her stupid antics. hahahha. then when i was leaving they very funny. coincidentally everyone was arnd.. then they were like standing arnd waving to me n wishing me all the best n blah. hahaha. like some celebrity lidat.. n i promised yati to come back to kk to see her baby when she delivers!! :)) n tt was the end of a close to 7mnths service @ SP Halifax! ^^

walked arnd with shirley n yana while we waited to meet our respective ppl.. hahaha. nothing much.. yana bot me a tee shirt!! :)) heex.. then shirley n i were damn funny.. cuz she was heading home n i was heading to commonwealth to meet my mum.. then we conveniently forgot.. n tot as usual we were taking the opp direction de trains.. cuz she lives at boon lay.. hahaha. then we went down to the platform n her train came.. so we hurriedly hugged n say our byes before she entered the train.. then suddenly i rushed after her n went "heyyyyy. i'm taking towards the west tooooo!!" hahahahaaa. lame! :p

met mummy!! went queensway finally... n bot our sports shoessssssss!!! :)) yayyyy. i got nice nice sports shoes now!! hahaha. FINALLY. wanting to get a new pair for super long le.. hahaa. she bot running shoes. but i bot cross-training. haha. cuz dun tink i'll be running so much nwae... n wanted to buy casual ones.. but in the end think think still decided to buy abit better quality de juz in case... hahah.. i have prettttaaay shoes now!! ^^ n then we went to AV for early dinner!! omggggggg. how i miss the days! hahaha. going AV with dans.. n tt time go dabao for CS peeps! :)) heex.. we eat until damn full laaa. ordered so much! :) then came back to paris shopped abit more then went home.. hahaha happy dayyy! =D

omgggg. such a long entry! hahaha.. but yeaaa. i'm so gonna stop myself from thinking so much! hahaha.

here's the deal for the following wk:
sun/16july-meet beav, n hopefully cindy
mon,tues/17,18july-call up miss wee, party world, ntu finance, slack at home. [haha nvm if u'all dun understand.. for my own reference de. lols.]
wed/19july-pirates of the carribean @ cine with colleagues!
thurs/20july-meet dans, baba, andy!
fri/21july-planning to meet debbie!
sat/22july-kbox with bert they'all!

=))

okkk... to show tt i'm a victim of boredom n under the influence of mab n bert... i shall do this too!


Rules of the game:
1. Post 10 weird/random stuff about yourself.
2. At the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED!" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.


ONE::
my best gal fren is mab! n my best GAY fren is GUNGUN!!! wahahhahaha... he is so going to kill me. lols.

TWO::
i haf stage fright! n it gets worse as it grows older! there was this once i took part in some inter-class poem recital thingy @ pri2.. then the poem is 'The Kelong'. so we wore our swimming costumes up to stage n recited the poem n got 2nd! hahaha. then after that we chased the guys wearing the swimming costume n they actually RAN AWAY. omgg. i'll die if u mk me do tt now. lol. n sec1 we had this choral reading comp.. then we hafta wear tails up on stage n blah. n i was a teeny bit scared. then came j1 we had to do oral presentation for pw...n i nearly freaked out! wahaha. long story sia~

THREE::
i have TWO ex! haha ppl think i haf only one... lalala~ not exactly something to b proud of.. =X

FOUR::
i want four children nxt time!! 2boys, 2 girls!! boys preferably the elder ones.. then can pamper their little sisters!! ^^

FIVE::
i used to tk swimming lessons in pri sch! n i HATED them. then i got gold, n failed my gold star. then quit swimming to study.. now i miss swimming like crazy!! hahaha

SIX::
i miss school! but i'm dreading uni!! hahaha. miss the carefree days @ cchs... singing at the balcony... fooling arnd.. having crazy crushes n blahh. wahaha

SEVEN::
my first crush in cchs is ROYCE! *shhhhhh* n my first crush in sa is FUJIN! *double shhhhhh* -blush blush- ppl pls brainwash urself after reading! lols.

EIGHT::
i hate geography. n i love elit. dun ask me why i took double maths. wahahha

NINE::
i still miss jieru from time to time. but i still dun like her. hahaha. -tragic irony- :((

TEN::
i used to be a prefect during pri3! but i hated doing duty during recess.. so i quit in pri4... wahahaha.. so dumb riteee? :D


yayyyyy. ppl whoever want to do just do!! hahaha. yayyyy tt was funnn! ^^

okk.. i shall be a gd girl n listen to mab n stop all the nonsense.. yay. hahaha. besides, i'm blogging wat i feel.. if u dun like to see, dun see n get out. dun spoil my mood. yay~ [in case some ppl can't detect tone.. this para is typed with a -cnnt b bothered- tone]

blahblahblah.

wooooooooo.... beginnng to feel that i'm gonna miss the office n it's ppl when i leave! blahsss. :(( okk but i'm still having trouble with my menteeeeeeeeee. blahs! haha i the rest like cnnt be bothered with her leh... scared i go liao nobody teach her or check her work then she jialat lo... so many mistakes everyday.. when boss finds out she gets even worse scolding... kp telling her duno muz ask le..but she still nv ask me anything?? hahaha. how to teachhhhhhhhh.

n oh yah bert... i'm not free this wkend too!! hahaha. how abt another day? or u got wkday free? i go with u! lols. n oh yah.. we better start planning chalet le!! hahaha. oh yah i got party world voucher leh.. but until end of july only!! hahaha. booooooos. =X

lalalaaaaaaaa. i'm still pissed! hahaha.

okkk. gonna go clear my inbox le. 42mails!! tts crazy..... hahaha

tada peepsss!! :))

cindy: haha okkk!! u want go out wif beav n i ths wkend? :))
ernie: bleah! =X

somebody: whether i took him for granted or not u noe it best.. even if i did, at least i still loveD him while it lasted. n i didn't go girl-hopping.


i'm juz super pissed with someone. not i want to be pissed with someone. but someone is making US damn pissed. i noe some ppl think i'm bad. but i can't be bothered. if i dun be bad, i will nv be happy. blahs.

wowwwwwwww. so long nv blog for someone who is supposedly at home with no hwk everyday! hahah!! :))

ohhhhh. i've been quite busy this wk actually!! hahaha. cuz ALOT of work to do.. so ot everydayy. sadness(mian qiang EC..)!! hahhaa. n i'm SO pek chek. my mentee is still making so many mistakes n i haven't even impart everything to her!! :( n only teach her basics she alrdy mk so much mstakes how to continue impart the rest of the cheem stuff to her?? bleahs. i very scared haven't finish teahcing then thrwo her there alone le lehh. bleahs. am i tt bad a teacher or wat?? :(( bleahhhhh. no wonder i can nv be a teacher! oh wells. hahahah. watever~ but even shirley heard me telling her wat to do le maaa. then i still hafta check her work after she finish everytime.. n i spend more time editing her work than doing my own work zzz.... bleahs. ok i dun wanna be a teacher nxt time. obviously i dun haf the patience! hahaha. =X

ok before i forget.. i shld blog abt this thing tt happened last sat... HAHA.
bert: why r u my exxxxxxxx.....
mab: bcuz i'm pretty.
bert: why r u not my exxxxxx.....
me: bcuz i'm prettier.
mab: why r u my exxxxx.....
bert: bcuz i'm handsome.
mab: why r u not my ex.......
ernie: bcuz i'm handsome-r.
HAHA. suppose to be some stupid private joke. but yea.. u can understand then understand, cnnt understand then dun bother finding out. wahahaha. nwae the bottomline being, ernie n i r cuter than mab n bert. MUAHAHAHAAA. diao... -_-''' dots. so lame~ hahaha.

okkk. so life's been pretty boring for the past wk. cuz after work i'm so tired i juz go home, bathe, eat, watch tv, slp. hahaha. repeat routine. lalalaaaa. =X

ooooh. yx came to my hse on thurs!! :D hahah! so happpppy! so long nv see her le!! she's so cute. n she's so naughty!! n she cries damn loud. hahahha. n her head looks damn funny. i tink her head is quite big seriously... =X doesn't tt sound familiar? like... brandon lye familiar?? HAHAHA. -no offense- :p

yeap. went to pluck eyebrow with yana n shirley @ bugis st ytd after work. cuz they say there got alot of shops then all quite cheap de. then we went after work like 12+ only one shop open -_-''' too early le? hahaha. so juz went in lo... n the person is not very skilled lehhh. n i tink it's quite painful, which isn't suppoed to be... hahaha. n i look weird now! so i'm not going back there!! wahahhah. :p

then went to meet ernie n yuyu @ town to go singing!! went partyworld!!! woooo hoo... :D so long nv sing le... yayyyy!! :)) it's cheaper than kbox laa, but the cushion not very nice to jump on leh... hahaha. lame~ n the food not very nice too... n the thing juz switches off itself when time's up which is super sad cuz cnnt sing on n cheat their money!! wahahaaaaaaaa. -_-'''' lols. then went to eat SUBWAY again. lol. then uhhh ernie went off. n yuyu n i went walking arnd. yayyy! nice dayyyyy. :D i still wanna go kbox again another day!! sing de bu gou shuanggggggg. hahahha! :p

lalalaaa. might go out with mum later! haha see how first lo... :)) buy shoes!!


bahhhhh. actually i've been thinking abt jieru for the past few days. hahah. quite weird. i also duno why.. but the jieru i thinking abt was the one before the big thing happened. like how we used to spend all the happy times together strutting up n down the school hand in hand... the first smile we flashed each other at the jacob ballas studio.... the endless toilet outings. the equally ear-piercing shrieks we have.. how we took turns tearing our ligaments n helping each other around sch after tt... n the time we went for the home visit, n i watched her silently as she taught this old lady how to dance very patiently, then was quite touched but i juz kept quiet. i guess there r times when i still miss the old gaigai... the caring one... n the happy times we spend together. n then i snap back to reality, n i can hardly believe how much she changed. hmmmm.

it's all quite weird. sometimes i'll try to tink back to the old times. the happier times with him. but i realise i can't rmb much alrdy. i duno why. memories with gaigai r still fondly etched in my heart. but memories with him r juz...vague? i duno... maybe huiyu's rite.. i tend to treasure friendship more than relationships. or maybe it's just i haven't seen her for too long or duno wat she's doing.. so i dun get so disgusted with she's doing n blah. maybe it's just a part of me tt dowan to rmb n can't be bothered to rmb anymore. bleahs. i tink it's the first reason ba. hahaha. watever~ i guess it's no longer impt! :)) wat matters now is tt i'm happy with the life i'm leading now! hahaha.

hmmmm. myabe one day we will start talking again... but it definitely wun be soon... maybe one day all the wounds will heal.. but yea.. i guess we all need time.. but i'm certain that i'll never fall in love with him again. period. (:

wooooo... since i'm so bored n am taking a break from watching hk serials, i shall reply tags! hmmm haven't done tt for quite a while! hahaha. =))


yuyu: huh y suddenly say dotty is nice guy? hahah. yah. i'm seeing dots.......................... -_-'''
bert: haha it seriously looked like jerk thai what... heex... oh u want help me slap ar? hahaha. cool~ jp got so many things to buyyyy!! :D
ernie: hahaha yess. ttz why i say muz bite the shoe. hahaha! oooh. LALALA~
dotty: hahaha u owe me so much salary still want me to cont' be ur clown wor! hahaha... i dowan. i want to breach contract!! heex..
beavan: hahaha bu shi shuo yao slap jiu ke yi slap de.... u KAM GONG. wahahahha....
yuyu: hahah yesss. ur bdae same as my bro!! woooo hooooooo~ lols. n same as deng xiao ping!! wahahhahahhah..... coool~


lalala. back to my hk serials! :))

okkk suddenly realise very long nv play this type of things le! wahahhaa... relieve the gd ol' friendster days!! :))


Favourite Colour(s): pink & black!! :)) n green n baby blue n blahblahblah! wahaha. everything is niceeeeeeee
Favourite Food: cheesecake! tt's the only thing in mind now...cuz tts the yummiest thing i ate ytd. wahaha!
Favourite Song: erm alot? hahaha.
Favourite Movie: haha i duno!! so many!! most recent will be CARS!! lalalla~ so childish! hahha
Favourite Sport: ermmm. swimming? lalalaaaaa ya i noe..doesn't seem like it. hahaha!
Favourite Day of the Week: friday saturday sunday!! guess y? :p
Favourite Ice Cream: movenpick strawberry!!! :D

Current Mood: nothing much la. hahhaha. juz in the relieveing friendster days mood?
Current Taste: erm... aftertaste of curry puff? haha cuz tts wat i ate for breakfast.
Current Clothes: home clothes lo?
Current Desktop: some windows de laa. using my bro's accnt ma... or else will have been the sotong fishsee desktop!! ^^
Current Toenail Colour: haven't go n polish!! wahahha... soon soon... :p
Current Time: 10.06am! sunday morninggggggggg!!
Current Annoyance: i hafta do hsework later!! cnnt slack infrnt of comp all day! -_-'''
Current Thoughts: 'just wth r u up to?'

First Best Friend: bifeng? hahaha. some pri sch friend i lost touch with alrdy
First Crush: cnnt rmb... ok dun laugh......royce? hahahha.
First Movie: erm... dun rmb le laaaa
First Lie: dunooooooooooooooo
First Music: *twinkle twinkle little star* HAHA. wat dd u expect??

Last Cigarette: I HATE SMOKE.
Last Drink: plain water ba
Last Car Ride: can't rmb le!! public transport counted? haha took mrt home last nite!! -_-'''
Last Crush: lalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. wat makes u tink i will say? hahaha
Last Phone Call: erm... duno leh. shld b bert ba... to ask where is he... hahaha
Last CD played: erm. so long nv play cd le. mp3 can? beautiful love!!! :D

Have you ever dated one of your best friends: dated mab? goodness. dated beavan? GOODNESS.
Have you ever broken the law: hahah yesss. i tink broke the same law as bert! lol.
Have you ever been arrested: no no. i'm an intelligent law breaker! lol.
Have you ever skinny dipped: nahhh.
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: goodness no. y wld i?


wahhh? finish le ar? haha didn't even realised! lol.

blah! forget to add something... dun gimme softtoys!! or mummy will throw them into the cold chamber! hahaha.

ohhh yah. watched the england match last nite!! hahaha. just to watch rooney? lol. heavans no. actually i was waiting for my hair to dry n was in the mood for soccer. n they spoiled my mood. cuz they played so lousily. n i officially proclaim tt rooney is no longer cute. wahahaha. no sportsmanship de! booooooooo. hahaha ok. nvm there's always kaka! yayyyy~ :p diao -_-''' lol. nwaes. watched halfway then dozed off. cuz it was too boring le. hahahha. england is damn lousy. lalalaaa. then i ended up going to slp at 80+ min... cuz i knew it wasn't ending anytime soon. lalalaaa~ n france woonnnnnnnn. altho i'm puzzled why. oh wells. nvm... it's FRANCE~!!! lalala~ :))

bahhhhh. i'm bored! hahaha

yayyy! went out with mab bert ernie today!! grew fatter again... muahaha! saw zab!! yayness(ec)! hahaha. happy daeeeeeee! :))

click 'about' to see my wishlist! my bdae is 2mnths1day away!! -hint hint-

i'm gonna miss shirley!! :((